The last few days were a complete blur consisting of: Tae calling his manager, a scheduled return flight, and 2 days of mind blowing sex. We never left the apartment, ordering take out just so we wouldn't starve.
We stayed up late into the night and I must have fallen asleep. I force my eyes open and all I see is pain. Today is his flight home. It is scheduled for around 3 pm today. He will need to get to the airport at least 3 hours early. I don't have much time left. I haven't even thought through what I should say.
Should we do long distance? End things cleanly here? What will be the best for me? And for him? He is a K-Idol. Early in his career. There is no way this can work. The thoughts spinning in my head make me nauseated. I should eat.
I will trust Tae, he hasn't let me down in the short 3 weeks and 5 days I have known him. I slow my breathing and decide to make the most of what is left. The sickly feelings leave and I get up to grab a glass of water.
As I open the door, a sky blue mop of hair pops from out of the covers. "Good Morning, Beautiful."
"Did you just wake up?" I reply. His smile, frowns.
"If someone says good morning, you say it back, Rina"
"Morning, Tae. Let's eat breakfast… and talk." I barely whisper that last part. Yes, I am a little scared. I just want everything to work out.
I'm pouring cereal into two bowls as a hand reaches across my body and grabs my shoulder. The motion spinning me to face Tae. "I never got my good morning kiss." His eyebrow cocks in such a sexy way. I really start to question how I ever saw him as an angel. He is most definitely a devil. Our good morning kiss leads to good morning sex in the kitchen. Now we really need to talk, because we have to head to the airport in two hours.
Tae clears his throat and drops his spoon into the bowl, I look up at him. Good he is starting this conversation. "Rina, I love you. I do want to be with you. You need to know that, because what I am asking you to do will be hard."
"I might not be able to respond to your text messages, and I won't always be available to call."
His face gets serious.
"If at any point it is too hard, just let me know. Let's talk about it. Don't shut me out. Please don't. I will treasure you every moment I can. So Rina, will you wait for me?"
Yes, of course. I'll wait for this man. I'm worried for my heart though. Can it handle a long distance relationship? Will it ruin me like my Dad was ruined? The only way to know is to try. I nod my head in response.
We shower, get dressed, and load every trace of Tae into my car. Minus almost all of his comfy clothes. He left me pairs of boxers, socks, a hoodie, T-shirts, and our pajama pants. The ones that were originally his. I secretly tucked a letter into his bag with a pair of lace panties he liked. About a week ago, Tae took a picture of me wearing said panties and nothing else. I put that with the letter and a few PG- rated photos of us.
The tightness in my chest just grew as we reached the terminal drop off. I decided to park and at least walk him as far as I could. I wasn't sure how airport savvy he was. In silence we made it, the rings of slot machines all around us.
Tae grabbed my hand and pulled me in. "I will see you again, so don't get sad. This isn't forever. I will come back for you. I just need to do some things first. I love you, Rina."
"I love you too. I'll be waiting."
We kissed, his touch searing my lips. My brain committing every second to memory. I never want to forget that sweet kiss. I waved him off into the bustle of The Harry Reid Airport.
In the time I had spent inside the airport, a torrential downpour had begun outside. I had expected it, due to the season and cloudy skies. I stepped into the fray. Cars beeping, people running, the wind whipping, and the rain pouring.
I felt it soak into my clothes. The hot touch of Tae's kiss on my lips. I stood there reminiscing. I should have known back then. Our first time in the shower, when Tae kissed every inch of skin leaving his mark and then washed every section thoroughly. Why didn't he wash me and then kiss me? Why? Was this always supposed to happen? I knew it deep down. I just chose not to face the truth.
Tae left his mark on me, his kiss, his touch, and even his scent. And now? I let the rain wash me clean.