Niaoniao POV
My time in Shushin's body seemed to be slowly decreasing, so I thought that I should finish things quickly, until I was walking.. and Rang called out to me...
I was walking until I heard someone calling out loudly, but I did not turn around. I did not dare to turn around, but I am stupid and a thousand times stupid, because I stopped, because he said, "Niaoniao."
I walked forward, leaving him behind me, but he grabbed my hand to stop me and then stood in front of me
Rang approached and spoke gently: I know it's you, don't walk away and leave me behind
I smiled a completely fake smile, trying to smooth things over: Who is NiaoNiao? I don't know what you're talking about, I'm Shushin
He held my hand irritably, but then regretted it: I don't mean to, I mean, stop lying? I can see your face now, I know it's you
What do I say what do I do? Shushin said: If he felt sure that I was really his wife, he would see my face. Was he always suspicious? Has he always been a good observer? Thank God, Minghao, Shushin's friend, came and held my hand. He looked at Rang and spoke: What do you do? She's my fiancée!
Rang looked at him suspiciously and angrily: Minghao? I didn't know you had a fiancée. Why do you interfere and lie?
Minghao looked at me and then pulled me, as we both knew very well that the matter would not end anytime soon. He walked with me, leaving Rang behind us. Rang, who had held my hand while I was walking, could not hold on to my hand, which had slipped from his grasp just like my soul. He pulled my hand and we went up the footbridge. Over the long river, for a moment I almost looked back, but Minghao stopped me with his words: Don't look if you want to protect yourself and Shushin.
Days passed from that day, and I was completely avoiding him and would not leave the room except with Minghao or Tian Yang, until today, I started to feel sick and was afraid that Shushin's health would be ruined because of me, so I decided to go one last time to see him and ask about the reason for my death... My heart is so sad. This made me wonder if this was due to my special skill? "Feeling psychological pain before it happens." But I did not think that this would happen while I was in a body other than my own, so I did not care too much about it and went on my way. The sun was setting and the weather was warm and cold at the same time. When I approached the door, I looked around and did not find any guards. Even though the palace is filled with guards every day? And then I looked at the ground and thought that I knew the reason. Oh, I wish I had not known the reason, if I died and disappeared like the wind, and my memory began to wander in the seas of the world. Before I set foot here... I saw a pool of blood coming outside the room.. Without thinking, I opened the door forcefully... I saw Rang sitting in front of me, not... Far away, putting his long sword in someone's stomach , my eyes were filled with tears and I did not see well until the tears fell from my eyes and the person in front of me appeared. It was Minghao. This was Minghao's blood. I only felt myself losing consciousness, and I wished that I did not live long to see this day, because I did not know. I think I was delusional about this man. I never knew before that one situation could destroy years of love and turn facts into obsolete lies.
I was told that one day I would be saved and completely relieved of pain, so I waited, and waited, and waited, and so I spent my life waiting for something that did not exist, based on someone's words. In the end, I knew that my salvation was to leave and accept the pain. I was stupid, I am stupid.
Rang looked at me with hurt and broken looks while his tears fell like a waterfall. He doesn't think that I will forgive and forget, right? He doesn't think that I will completely melt and feel broken for him. Yes, it's true, I really am. I'm hurt and broken, standing in the door and my tears won't stop, even if I live a long time. I'm confident that I will spend the rest of my life shedding tears over many things. How can I trust that a man who kills so easily might love me? What kind of love is this? Which makes you destroy the woman you love,Is this how I repay the people who helped me? That one of them would end up dying at the hands of the man I loved?