Shushin POV
People sleep easily. I think people sleep easily. I wake up at dawn. I think about the past, the future, and the present, and that the future is the present and the past is the present. I think that the "present" is very similar to me. It exists here and there. I am also like it. I do not have a place in my name. I wander and pass by. Even in the places where I have lived forever, for me it is still just a passing place. I do not know if there is a description for my faint feelings, and I do not know if I will one day pass through a place that looks very similar to home, and if I will find a home, but in people's eyes I am ungrateful and selfish. How beautiful and lonely is the idea of only understanding yourself.
I was sitting alone in a dark room. At first I did not see anything, but my eyes got used to the darkness and I could see after a minute of looking at the wall in front of me. It seemed as if the moonlight was accompanying me in my solitude. How sincere are those intangible things. I love my bed, which lies under the window. Big and spacious, outside my window there is a small garden that no one enters, because I do not like disturbance, where there is only me, the moon, the sun, the clouds, and my tired heart, all of us sitting drinking our bitter memories. How picturesque and attractive it is, to have some hours or moments where I cannot see Shadows of others. I dreamed of freedom for a long time, but I dreamed of a place to settle in, a place where there is nothing but dawn, sunset and sunrise, no bright sun but a pleasant atmosphere, a warm winter and a summer filled with spring breezes.
A small house with enough rooms for me to place on all my favorite things. Outside there are trees and flowers and a wide, wide, wide sea. Then I, the moon, the sun, the clouds and the sea, will be happy everafter.
This atmosphere reminded me of a night I lived a long time ago, but despite the long time that has passed, its effect still lives inside me, and I am the one who thought I had forgotten. That night, I didn't even touch the wine, but I felt like I was drunk, because suddenly I wasn't what I used to be, I felt different feelings, his words sounded like a nice song, maybe the air at night under the moon is like being drunk, maybe the air and the beauty made me feel that I love him, maybe I loved him before and maybe I felt those feelings because I love him, but no matter how much I thought about that night, I did not find an answer, except that love certainly had something to do with it.
Before I knew it, the sun was already rising. The weather was cold, perhaps because summer was almost coming to an end. I quickly went back to sleep before the birds disturbed me with their singing, which had never sounded so beautiful to my ears.
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It seems that I slept for a long time. This always happened. I woke up at dawn and felt that I would never sleep. Suddenly, it was as if I was drunk. I was sleeping like the dead. I would not have woken up if the door had not opened forcefully and Xiao Yao had entered. She told me: My sister wants you to come to her room.
I was rubbing my eyes to encourage her not to fall asleep: "Xiao Yao, I can understand that Tianyang has no morals, but why are you acting like him? The palace will go bankrupt if you break all of our doors." Then I whispered to myself so that she wouldn't hear me and break my head next, "That vile woman is not doing anything good. She should have come herself instead of bullying her sisters."
This made me pay attention, I asked, "Where is Yao Yao? You are always together."
She replied, looking annoyed at remembering the reason again: "It seems that Yao Yao has found something that she cares about, so I am no longer very important, but that's okay, I knew that our separation would come at any time."
I took the blanket away from me to get up and get dressed: "If Yao Yao finds something that she is interested in, you can care about the same thing together with her, then there will be more topics to talk about. You are still very young and will not separate that easily. As long as You want to be close to her, she will also want to."
Xiao Yao hummed annoyedly. In the end, I can't take away her worry, because she wants someone else to take away her worry, so I said again: "Give her some time. If she likes it and is happy then I'm sure you'll feel happy. If it makes her sad and gives up on it, she'll learn a lot. And she matures more, and then she will come to you and take your hands towards the path of maturity, and you will be two mature girls, only death will separate you."
Xiao Yao smiled faintly, and it made me think, that perhaps she was the one who had matured and not her sister. She finally replied to me, "Then I think it is death, That has come."
Then she left the room and closed the door, which was holding it together with all its strength like a strong door. He must have felt sympathy and did not want her to receive a rebuke that would increase her sadness, indeed! How sincere are those intangible things. I call them intangible, because I think that being talking makes you more tangible. If you are very silent, you will seem distant and intangible. I tend to be intangible like them, but I am also not like them. Even the windows and doors are better than mine. What a ridiculous thing.
I wore a dark green hanfu, because I thought this color would put people off, make them think I wasn't in the mood, and I really wasn't. Is there a reason? No, I like to disappoint myself. This makes me an effective person. Success does not always come from happiness, as you know. Sadness makes you want to succeed, and success makes you happy, or you may be happy, you succeed, and then you become sad. Luck is a game like any other game.
I stood in front of the door of Xiao Yan's room, then I grabbed one side of the wooden door and slammed it against the wall to open it. The sound of the door almost made me deaf, but I survived. I entered without shame and sat down, while the eyes of those sitting were stabbing me, but that's okay, I didn't die and I didn't become deaf.
Xiao Yan looked at me and said: "You are taking revenge on me, right?"
"One thing is certain, you are the king's daughter. Your intelligence is exceptional."
Tian Yang laughed as if he had not been surprised at me a minute ago: "So, Xiao Yan, what do you want from us?"
Xiao Yan put her hands on her heart pretending to be sad, but I know that she goes crazy with joy when someone wrongs her, it makes her think of ways to remove his organs, "Don't act like that, I'm really working hard."
"Stop your nonsense and tell us now. Are you going to make a play whenever you want to say something?"
Xiao Yan sat up straight, "Yes, ma'am, I came today because we have a new business deal, after our very successful mission. There are many unjust things happening around the Kingdom and the entire world, but the reason for sending this message to us is that it was clear and frank."
Tian Yang raised his eyebrows, feeling curious: "What's so obvious about this?"
Xiao Yan pursed her lips before speaking: "That's because she said, 'To the orchid, bring me justice.' "
"Who's Orchid, am I?"
"The people who work for us are very reliable, that's true, but we still never reveal your identity or about us. We just say 'President Orchid is not here' when something goes wrong, but ordinary people never even know about this title."
"Maybe she knows Shushin, that's why she sent to us."
"She...is from the city of demons."
I looked at Tianyang, who seemed lost in thought, and his face disappeared. If I didn't know him, I would have said that he was afraid, but I wasn't that different from him at that point.