Our personalities were completely different and mismatched. And I often had this thought, that whether or not I was worthy of such a feeling or if I am capable of telling her about my feelings. Talking online about funny things or school topics is a different thing, but talking about feelings and emotions that too directly to her face is just way more complex. And to those new guys doing this, remember this love takes time. It is just like an investment but you need to do it while you still can.
Besides being unsure how to proceed, I had conflicting thoughts on how likely it is for her to like my personality and my nature. Our lives were completely different in almost all aspects. I was born and raised in Dhaka while she was raised in Sylhet. She was the daughter of a well-known criminal lawyer in Dhaka city, and she aspired to become a famous lawyer herself. She was born and raised in the picturesque city of Sylhet, a region known for its lush tea gardens and vibrant cultural heritage. It is one of the most beautiful cities in the country. Her mother is a homemaker and had another daughter who was in nursery class.
From an early age, she was an ambitious and strong lady. She exhibited a strong determination and will throughout every aspect of her life. She had her eyes set on her goals and was ready to break every social norm that would have kept her away from her goals. She dreamed of going big and making a strong and significant impact on the world. Like any other, she wanted to make her father proud. She aspired to become a successful lawyer just like her father. I have to tell you, I began to respect lawyers and judges alike because of her.
Her ambition is a driving force that propelled her forward. She possessed an amazing and resilient spirit that allowed her to bounce back from her setbacks and learn from failures. She doesn't give up easily and is focused on her goals, while I was really not sure what I was doing with my life. As they say opposites attract, I felt a deep connection and attraction towards her. Beyond her education, she regularly participates in various extracurricular activities such as debating and public speaking. It is her outgoing and energetic personality that was symbolic of her soul and her unique spirit that has long been captivating me.
As a matter of fact, I found myself standing at the crossroads of showing up my courage and fear. There were times when I would question my rational mind, contemplating whether I should take the leap and reveal my true feelings. But every time I tried to muster the courage to speak up, a series of doubts and questions crept in my mind that clouded my judgment like a relentless storm. "What if she doesn't feel about me the same way?" I thought to myself, we just became friends or at least have formed a social bond, "What if my confession ruins our friendship?"
In moments of uncertainty and doubt, I would try to find solace in my imaginations and our conversations, trying to decipher any information or clues that could give me a glimpse into her heart. But still, her feelings were an unsolvable question that I wanted to solve. Say, for instance, on certain occasions, she would look happy, but post sad things or anger related things in social media. I believe she has mood swings quite often. It is a fact that mood swings are fairly common around girls.
I could only imagine what would happen if I confessed to her while she was in an angry mood. She might just throw me off the roof. Worse, she might start bitching behind me. And it was really going to be bad marketing of my name. Frankly I didn't care much before but this time, I had something far much more valuable in line.
But me being an old townian, I simply couldn't be afraid of such confessions. So I decided to go through the tough road around her. Legend has it that if you want to impress a girl, you should impress her friends first. And so captain, Red started the mission to impress her friends. I decided to study hard and help people solve problems, and yeah, I did help many, except for those who wanted help in mathematics. At that time, I was extremely weak in mathematics.
I grew my popularity by explaining science to other nerdy students, who were dumb and I became their helper. Little by little, I began to get noticed by everyone. I was known to be a helpful and honest guy who always helps people in need. As they say, a friend in need is a friend indeed. It is through my hard work that I earned the notice from my teachers as well.
While making friends, I tried to talk more with her, trying to get her comfortable around me. And little by little ,things were starting to take shape. It was still a long way ahead, but I did not want to rush in and ruin the process altogether. Good things take time. And besides, she needs to understand how suitable I am for her. So I began to work on myself. I started doing exercise and dieting.
I was becoming more disciplined with each passing day. If I am not wrong and remember it correctly, I was developing an extroverted personality because I saw it in a movie. The movie was about how a confident young man gets the love from his crush. I wanted to become that confident guy who was popular in the class. And I should add that you should never change yourself for anyone, at any point in time. I only did this because I was too naive, nobody's perfect, and we should accept ourselves for who we are.
Regardless of the fact that I began to rely on a bollywood movie to impress a girl, it's important to note that our life is a movie filled with all sorts of emotions and characters. But I have to admit, I really liked trying to be the man of her dreams.