Sky's Point of View
-Earlier-
"I need an answer, not a kiss."
Am I stupid? What am I thinking? Why did I do that? Why did I kiss her? Shame on you, Sky. How am I going to face her now?
Why am I overthinking so much? Why am I so concerned about my image in front of that girl? She can quit guitar lessons if she changes her opinion of me. I don't even pay attention to what our classmates say, claiming that I'm just showing off and using it to impress girls.
Why am I overthinking so much?
I followed Jude and Luna with my gaze. I'm in the music room right now, thinking about what I'll perform alone the next day. It seems like they're headed to their classroom, 12-A.
Why are they so happy? And Luna, why does it seem like nothing happened earlier? Did it really mean nothing to you?
"Damn," I whispered.
I'm not overthinking. It meant nothing to me. Kissing Luna earlier was just a reflex.
But...
Her lips. They're so soft. They taste so sweet. I want more.
I slapped myself.
Stop it, Sky. She's your student. She's annoying and nosy.
Don't overthink.
I followed Luna and Jude into their classroom. I just paid the entrance fee because they said we needed a ticket from them to get in. The event hasn't started yet. The tickets are limited.
Psh. Those entrepreneurs.
I saw them sitting together and laughing. I sat behind them and listened to their conversation.
"I-I kinda like you, Luna."
My eyes widened when I heard that complete sentence.
Does Jude like Luna? No wonder. They've been seeing each other more often, and Jude keeps teasing her.
This can't happen. She can't end up with Jude. Luna is such a wonderful person. She's different from the other girls here in Lindway. Luna is so rare on this campus.
She's noisy, but my day is not complete without hearing her voice.
She's annoying, but she doesn't hurt me like others do.
She's loud, but in a way that her greetings in the morning wake you up.
Luna, be careful. You don't know who you're dealing with.
I need to make a decision. If she gets mad at what I'm about to do, I'll let her go to Jude. If not, I'll keep her with me.
This is it.
I stood up and approached them.
"You have low standards if that's the case." Their faces showed surprise. Both of them were speechless, so I immediately pulled Luna out of the classroom.
"SKY?! WHAT IS THIS AGAIN?" she shouted.
I just sat down and looked at her. She's so angry. It looks like I have to stand by my initial choice.
"I don't understand you. Earlier, you scolded me, and then you kissed me. Then you got mad again, and now this? Are you just messing with me? Do you like me? Huh?" she bombarded me with questions.
But...
If I leave Luna like this, she might end up like Porsche and the other girls who were victims of Jude before.
Well, I guess I have no choice.
I'll leave her. Let her be with Jude. I'll talk to her parents tomorrow and tell them I'm quitting guitar lessons with her because I have a new job.
"Yes," I replied.
She raised an eyebrow. "Wait. What are you answering?"
I stood up. "The 'huh'."
"I don't want you anymore, Sky," she said and opened the door.
I don't want that. I can't just let go of this person.
I took out the origami rose hidden behind the chair.
I walked towards her and touched her shoulder.
"We're not even together, and you're already giving up," I whispered.
I walked away from her.
Yes.
I admit it.
I am overthinking.
But I'm not sure about what I'm feeling, Luna. I want to make sure while I'm with you.
I stopped walking and faced her.
I'll throw this rose as a sign that I'll keep you. Please don't be with Jude anymore.
I'm so confused.
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"Sky, have you practiced yet?" Janice asked while arranging the papers on the table.
I shook my head. "Not yet. It's hard to come up with a song."
"Try a love song. Something popular. Cover that!" Greg chimed in while sweeping the floor.
I'm not familiar with the trend songs nowadays. It's been a while since I played. It would be embarrassing to sing a song from the '70s again. The last performance I did was "Forever Young."
"Okay. What's a trendy song these days?"
"Perfect" by Ed Sheeran," Greg said, giving a thumbs up.
Janice threw a piece of paper at him.
"You idiot! That's been around for a while. Try some songs by Hunter Hayes. They're not as popular, but give them a try," Janice suggested.
Our meeting with President Janice and Greg ended at 5:45. Before leaving the office, I texted Luna for our next session. She still hasn't replied since earlier. Maybe she ran out of load?
I didn't wait for her and went straight to her house. Maybe she left early because our teachers usually leave early.
I arrived at Luna's house early because I took a ride. When I got there, their housekeeper told me that Luna hadn't come home yet because she went to her parents' workplace. I was told to just wait for her.
It's already 7:00 PM, and Luna still hadn't arrived. She still hasn't replied to my messages since earlier. What happened to her?
I felt a little relieved when Luna finally replied.
"We won't have guitar lessons anymore. Just take the remaining payment from me tomorrow."
What?!
I waited for nothing.
I felt weak after reading that. She hasn't even started learning yet. I'm in trouble with her parents.
My phone vibrated again.
"Stop playing tricks on me. You're not funny."
Well, I guess I lost a friend again.
I walked away from her house. I have nothing else to think about. I don't need to worry about my image with her anymore.
But what is this?
I touched my chest because I felt something heavy and piercing. It hurts, and it's weakening me. What is this?
Am I hurting?
I felt my eyes welling up with tears.
"W-why am I crying?" My voice trembled.
I felt relief, but what is this?
Luna, why?