Ashina –
Andor and I may have to reject each other after my birthday if I have to rescue my kingdom from Malcom.
The bond has me foggy in my brain, with love, lust, and anything is alright attitude. I needed to get away from Andor and this is why I took off in my wolf form.
This is when I can feel the breeze in my hair and can think more clearly. The best feeling is running in and out of the trees like an obstacle course. Jumping over tree branches and chasing squirrels rabbit and hunting a deer. This is what relaxes my wolf and me.
This is when I can build up my strength to reject Andor. This is what needs to be done.
Kiera –
"Don't you dare! I will leave you and you can fight as a human if you reject our mate!"
Ashina –
"Since I don't have any options, you give me one!" Andor is the King of his own Kingdom. Upon rescuing my Kingdom from Malcolm, I will become Queen. Should Andor leave his kingdom to become my king? That is what he will need to do. Take a moment to think about that, Kiera!"
Kiera huffed as she receded into the back of my mind, and I could no longer hear her. There was a lot of pain for me, and that is why I ventured out for a run. The bond and Andor's delicious scent messed with my mind, and I had to think clearly; if I am to save my people,
Malcolm kills women, children, and the elderly horribly. As a result, the Kingdoms must surrender their women to Malcom, or he will steal their she-wolves and use them for his men or his harem. Malcom steals women from coast to coast for sexual needs and gratification and then kills them when they are no longer of use to him.
The air is filled with the scent of a deer, and Kiera sniffs it carefully, and we can see one nearby. We follow our nose, placing our trust in the scent of the dear, and track lightly in order not to lose our catch. We practically crawl on our bellies when we see the deer in the distance, since we want to hide ourselves amongst all the leaves, as we see it in the distance. It is important that we hide behind a tree until we can lunge at our prey, pulling it by its neck, and kill it as quickly as possible so that the deer does not suffer too much pain during the killing process.
Once we have consumed all of the fresh deer meat available, we are going to drag the carcass home and give it to our cook so that he can prepare fresh venison for the pack dinner after it had been cooked. If I had accepted the mate bond, I would have killed it for Andor, in this case, however, I am unable to accept the bond.
Immediately after we handed the carcass over to the cook, I transformed back into my human form and entered my suite. Walking into my closet to pick out an outfit to wear for the day, I discover that all my clothing is gone. It seems that Darn Alpha has moved me again.
In waves of fury and anger, I could feel my anger pouring off of me.
A very angry me heads to the Alpha's office, opening the door to his office and trying not to get too close to him as I do so. Currently, he is in a meeting with other Alphas. However, I don't care about that at all!
The words "Alpha!" are uttered very firmly by me to Andor. Would you mind meeting me out on the training grounds when you are finished here? I need to talk to you about something."
Andor -
"Is this something that you would be able to ask me at this time?"
Ashina -
"No, I need to speak with you outside in a private setting. Privately!"
After I turned my back and walked away, I turned into the training grounds and started sparring with anyone on the field. I wanted to beat the crap out of someone.
In order to avoid having to be in a room with Andor's scent in it, I am meeting him on the training field instead of in a room with him in it. As a result, I will be able to keep my distance and say what needs to be said without having my mind clouded.
There is something about the very thought of this that hurts my soul, my heart, to the core of my being. As I wipe the tears away from my cheeks, I can feel how hard it is for me to ignore these feelings and become the queen that I am expected to be while ignoring these feelings.
I found my brother on the field with Cadma, I also needed to have Cadma take my brother back home, I don't want him to get caught up in this war. Walking up to Cadma without any expression on my face, I voiced my concerns about my brother being here.
"Cadma, thank you for the most excellent gift of flying with my brother here. It truly was the best gift as I missed him so much!"
Gandor -
"Can I stay with you Ashina, I miss you so much too. I want to help you take back your kingdom and protect you. I mean you should see how awesome my dragon is?"
Ashina -
Looking at Gandor seeing how tall he is at only 12 years of age. He is my height now with several more years of growing. He will probably end up having a height well over 6'5 by the time he is sixteen. I know i will miss him so very much and it may be several years before I can see him again, he will be upset I need to send him home. He is a dragon, and the Winter Dragons will protect him, as he is a rare dragon.
The Winter Dragons will teach him how to be a warrior and maybe he will be able to find his dragon clan. My parents had him for a reason. Maybe he is royal blood and was being hidden for the same reasons I was hidden from other wolf packs? My heart hurts, because it will break his heart me sending him back.
I have both Cadma and Gandor follow me to a lunch table near the packhouse in a corner away from everyone's eyes.
"Gandor, you will be able to stay a couple of days. Then you will need to go back. I wish I wasn't going to war. However, I am. You will not be able to fight, because once the enemy sees what kind of dragon you are, they will hunt you down, and I have no clue what they will do to you. Once you have reached at least sixteen years old and have not found your true clan, then and only then can we be a family again. Of course, after I take back my kingdom. Please understand?"
I feel my heart break as I see tears running down his cheek, we were all each other had, and I must chase him away for his own safety.
Gandor runs off to the pack house, I am guessing he didn't want me to see him cry.
Turning to Cadma who looked sad, I am guessing because of the conversation I had with my brother.
"Cadma in two days could you take Gandor back home? I want him safe. Please?"
Cadma nods his head in agreeance.
"I also have another big favor to ask of you, and it may take you a couple of days to complete. I need you to check on the many different segments of armies we have gathered. We will be leaving in about a week, since I have had a little more training in my magic skills as well as potion training. I need our army to stay strong and not lose hope, knowing I am returning."
Cadma -
"I would rather you go with me, but I understand about the magic training. I will do this for you, because I have loved you for a long time."
Ashina-
I scoffed. I remember several years ago finding him in bed with the blonde, he never knew I saw. If he had loved me like he claimed, she would have repulsed him sexually.
Cadma raises his left eyebrow in curiosity about why I am letting out a scoff at his love claims. I just wave my hand showing I do not wish to discuss this.
I hear Andor calling my name, I look over to a scowling Cadma.
Cadma -
"Don't go to him, stay with me."
Ashina -
"I need to talk to him about a few things; besides Cadma I have told you before you and I are not a couple. However, you are one of my best friends."
I see Cadma grimace as he gets up leaving to the pack house scowling the whole way.
Andor comes to sit next to me trying to be flirtatious.
Getting to the point after Andor sits down next to me.
"Andor, I need to reject our bond. You are a king of your area, and I am going to be a queen after I kill Malcom. You are not able to leave your kingdom and I will not leave mine. So, we have no other options."
Sighing
"I Ashina future Queen of the Royal Pack of the Western Kingdom Reject....