We humans make mistakes and from them we learn how to live further without making mistakes. However, once in our lives we may have heard from our elders (society people) or from our family members that one should be capable enough to never commit a mistake and if something like this happens then it is not your mistake but your negligence. But not everyone is perfect then why force people to be that.
And along with this, people do not just ignore the mistakes considering them as mistakes, rather they consider them as sins and punish people for a long time for that mistakes. Though, there are some mistakes that are unforgivable but this actually depends on people who considers him/herself a judge of somewhere and just pronounces the verdict that s/he has committed a mistake and is guilty then they also choose rather they should be forgive or not.
Many of us take this thing to our heart and we start believing that we are not good persons plus we will be keep making mistakes in future.
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Next day I wake up in the morning hearing my alarm ringtone and after such a long time, I feel fresh and active after waking up. I directly walk towards the washroom and start getting fresh, I came out wearing bathrobe. I walk towards the bedside table where my phone is getting charged, I unlock it then play some Jazz style music. After this I start getting dressed (wearing my clothes), listening to that music and grooving a bit.
Once I finished getting dressed, I turn off the music then put my phone in the pocket of my lower and move out of the room, the moment I stepped outside all I can hear is weird type of silence. I mean a type of silence which happen before storm come, thinking about all these things I step inside the dining hall. The moment I stepped inside the dining hall, father raised his head and glared at me, this confused me, though I choose to ignore this I sit on one of the chair.
Soon mother and brother too joined us and to increase my confusion, mother looking at me with a straight face and brother smirking at me. To end this confusion of me I sit on the chair, fold my arms and keep them on my chest, after taking a deep breath I start speaking...
Me: What happened?
Brother: (Smirking) Where you have slept last night?
Me: In my..... (then I realised, by mistake I slept in my room)
Brother: What have you done?
Father: Yeah tell me why have you done this? What if she accidentally falls or something happens to her? How can you be so much careless? And what exactly you were even doing in your room?
Me: I....
Mother: Hey, let it be did something happened? And even if it had happened, what would Siya have done?
Father: Huhhh just because of you only these children have spoiled only, whenever I tried to scold them you come and protect them.
Mother: Really? Okay, tell me one thing if she had fallen, would Siya have been able to lift her up alone? And if something has to happen, it will definitely happen, Siya will not be able to stop it from happening.
Father: (Murmuring to himself) Huhhh No one is listening to me, why am I even speaking? Do what you want to do, one day you will see them getting spoiled. My breakfast is done, I am going.
After saying this he get up from the chair then leave the dining hall annoyed and being frustrated. Soon brother leave too but not before giving me a frown look. I took a deep breath, look at my mother who is busy serving breakfast on her plate and seeing this I also start doing the same. While enjoying the moment of silence we keep eating our food, soon our breakfast got over and together we walk inside the kitchen.
Inside the kitchen she handed me the plates to clean them, she start cooking lunch. The moment my work finished she start speaking...
Mother: (Keep cutting vegetables) Ignore your father's words he is just overreacting but do not repeat this mistake again okay?
Me: (Playing with my finger nails) Okay. But I didn't... that... I didn't know when I fell asleep while reading yesterday.
Mother: No problem. No go and do your work.
Me: Okay.
I walk out of the kitchen with water bottle in my hand, start walking towards my room but before I could do so I hear Granny's voice calling my name...
Granny: Siya!!
Me: Coming!
I silently walk inside her room only to found her sitting on her bed looking at me with a smile, rather then sitting on chair I choose to stand in front of her bed to listen what she wants to say...
Granny: Dear you did not come to sleep yesterday night what happened?
Me:(Looking down) I fell asleep while studying sorry.
Granny: Hey, it's okay, don't be sad or apologize, it happens sometimes. In fact I told this to your father too but he choose to ignore my words and leave my room frustrated but dear you should understand too that whatever you done was wrong you committed a mistake.
Me: (Keep looking down only and feeling guilty, for not sleeping here. Plus just because of me parents argued and father plus brother are upset with me) Yeah, ummm if it is okay with you can I go back to my room and study for sometime.
Granny: Okay but whenever you come back just come with the updates of your aunt because I am feeling pain in my legs so, I won't be able to walk there.
Me: Okay
After this I leave her room and walk towards my room feeling guilty, low and with a constant thought running inside my head...
how can I be that much careless? they are right if something have happened to granny then I will never be to look even myself in the mirror. In fact I become the reason of my parent's argument session now and just because of me father and brother are upset with me.
While thinking all this I enter inside the room, closed the door then I walk towards my study table, pick up my diary then I settled down on the beside chair. I plug my earphones in then start playing a song name Blame It On Me by Akon, then I start writing my thoughts in my diary....
mistake become a sin unknowingly, I wanted to say it happened by mistake but now they think of me a careless person. Even though I told them the reason of my mistake but they think I will keep on repeating it, I am sorry but I don't know when my mistake become so big that it couldn't be forgivable now.
Just like this time passed, though somewhere in the middle when I felt like my thought ended I pick up my book and start reading it but I am unable to concentrate on that because these thought keep running inside my mind. Soon I hear mother calling me...
Mother: Siya!! Come for lunch.
Me: Coming!!
I get up from the chair, neatly keep my diary back to its place then I stop the music and plug out my earphones. After this I put my phone back in my pocket, then start walking towards room door to open it but before I could do so, I hear a ping sound of my phone. I pull out my phone then I read Jazz name on it, I mean she messaged me...
with a wide and bright smile on my face I read her whole message.... Hey, whenever you will be free let me know, we will talk on call as I have something to share it with you.
i replied back... After fifteen minutes I will be free, going for lunch for now and I also have something to share it with you.
she replied back.... Okay.
After this I hurriedly leave my room, go towards the dining hall and there I find my mother sitting with her plate and food already on it. I also does the same, once done I start eating the food hurriedly, though in the middle of it I hear mother saying...
Mother: (Scolding) Eat slowly, food is not running away.
Me: (Food in my mouth) I know but my Jazz is going to call me in some minutes and I can't be late for that.
And after this I keep my mind focused on food, that I finished it in almost five minutes, I hurriedly walk inside the kitchen to clean plates and then with water bottle in my hand I reach back inside my room in less than a minute. While I was closing the room door, my phone started ringing and without wasting any second I answered the call...
Me: (Closing the door) Hello
Jazz: Hey wassup?
Me: Just had my lunch, you say wassup?
Jazz: Same here, okay now listen.
Me: Yeah say
Jazz: I...
TO BE CONTINUED...