When I opened my eyes, I looked at the clouds in the sky that were so beautiful. The gentle breeze that hits my face is like water washing my face, the fallen leaves fall towards this face. Cool air under the trees that make the air feel fresh.
I still hold my head up, looking at the sky.
I pondered for a moment as I stretched out my hand, I wanted to reach the distant sky, I wanted to reach and hold on to that dream tightly.
Likewise, I clenched my fists and I pounded them against my chest, against my heart, even if it hurts a little, it's nothing, it's better.
I stared at the leaves that had fallen slowly to the ground. You can see that my gaze is languid again, like a plant that has never touched water.
Yes, eyes that lost their light. And from a distance I saw them, laughing together. I want myself to laugh, be happy and cry like them. I want my heart to be like them. Furthermore, I want to be by their side.
I know the pinnacle of affection is sincere, sincere only seeing from afar.
When I saw their smiles, my smile that had disappeared started to return slowly, I took a deep breath, I closed my eyes, in that breath there was a sense of relief that I felt in my heart. There is pleasure and pain at the same time. I feel a very deep tightness in my heart. I want to scream loudly, but this is not sadness or regret, but gratitude.
Not only that, but I cry for joy.
"While the tears are still flowing, laughing and smiling isn't bad."
My eyes started to shine again. While smiling, I started to stand up then before turning around, I saw them, "I leave everything to you #####"
This warm and gentle breeze kept coming to me, as if someone was trying to hug me and wipe away my tears. As if someone is trying to calm this heart. This cool breeze ruffled my hair and at the same time my eyes lit up as if they were filled with light.
Even though it's hard to keep going, I will keep going. I walked further away from them.
And old memories come back. Happy memories with them, even though it looks normal, but it is meaningful, and there are sad memories that are full of meaning and experience.
I continued to walk in the middle of the trees with their leaves falling, the beautiful scenery around the road which was full of fragrant wild flowers, a fragrance that attracted many butterflies fluttering around it.
"Maybe at this time, they must be around looking for me" while closing my eyes, I smiled, I continued on my way.
I keep going.
Step by step.
Until I stop.
In front of me was, the leaves started to fall slowly one by one. I sat under the tree and while looking up at the sky, I took a deep breath, I turned my head to my left.
"Mom, it's me Kelfin, today I visited too ma'am, I want to tell you"
Yes, I'm at the graves of my beloved parents.
[My story started 2 years ago…]