When I opened my eyes, I saw a sky wall that I didn't recognize, I tried to look to the left, I saw a view of a small garden filled with bonsai and trees with quite unique arches, I looked to the side of the tree, I saw someone there.
I tried to stand up, but even to move my body was very difficult. The pain in the left hand feels like aching and sore. But curiosity overcame my pain.
Little by little I was finally able to stand up even though I was still dazed. My footsteps were still shaking, slowly I managed to see that figure or rather a sweet woman who was meditating.
I walked out trying to reach him, when I got outside the door I wanted to say hello, but I realized that my language was limited, that I only knew is saying my name and some words, but also I didn't want to disturb him.
I stood erect, still staring at him from a far, feeling that the morning breeze was fresh enough to breathe. Then my view was disturbed by the fallen leaves. And when Iam looked back, she was already aware.
We looked at each other…
She was surprised to see I was awake, and I just smiled.
I'm starting to falter… My body still needs to adapt after not waking up.
"Damn I fell, it doesn't matter where I fall, but why does it have to be on the bastard rocks" I thought.
Mirai quickly embraced me
"are you okay"
I thought why does it feel like something is wrong, it should be the guy who is being hugged, but why am I the one being hugged. "Damn, my cheeks are red (in my heart)" and besides, I understand what she means, but my words are still limited, how do I answer what she says.
"Thank you" I tried to pretend to be strong to stand up straight, but instead I almost fell again.
I am so ashamed…
"Be careful, but thank goodness you've woken up, we're all very worried you know, come here first, I'll call the others"
I'm just silent… I hope she's not aware.
"I'm sure he is very embarrassed because he pretends to be strong hehe, I know the basics" said Mirai in her heart. With an upturned face and a mocking smile.
I know she's smiling, but why is she smiling? I thought.
"hehehm, wait here a minute, I'll call them, and I'll get food for you" said mirai.
"Damn is mirai aware " said Kelfin in his heart.
Mirai was gone and while I looked back at the sky that morning was very cool. I'm grateful someone helped us. At least they must have taken good care of him.
Not long after, mirai returned with the grandmother. They were happy and asked me to have breakfast with them. When I got to the dining room, I saw Mother, Mirai's brother and the white fox.
The fox after seeing me she quickly approached me, I'm also happy, but I'm still wondering why? "That's it, I'll definitely remember again" I thought.
There I officially became acquainted with the Mirai family, I quite know what they said while I could only reply "thank you and mention my name" maybe that's a side effect of losing my memory? Possible.
Mirai lives in a small village far from the city. She lives in this old, typical Japanese house with her grandmother, mother and sister. His grandmother was named, Fuyumi Nagamasa, his mother Haruka Nagamasa and his younger brother Hayato Nagamasa.
At the dinner table, they explained a lot about each other. Seeing this close family relationship makes a little feel calm and happy. Deep inside, I feel lost, but what am I missing?
"Pochi…" Hayato ran after the white fox.
"Pochi?" Kelvin said.
"Pochi… that… her name ?…"
I smiled and was slightly surprised to hear the white fox's new name.
Pochi is running towards me, she gets really happy around me. (Just me).
Seeing this made Mirai and Hayato shocked, because usually Pochi is very arrogant and never wags her tail. But when he was with Kelfin she… changed a lot.
"The expression looks like it's smiling…" said Mirai's mother…
"Yeah, she looks different" Hayato ran towards Kelfin and hugged them both. Kelfin was also happy and laughed along with Hayato.
After breakfast that morning, Mirai's grandmother left for the temple, while Mirai was assigned to accompany me to go around the house with the youngest.
Maybe there are only 4 of them living, but the size of their house is quite large. The contents of the house are very typical of old Japanese house models. In one room I saw a set of samurai armor and a katana. Mirai tried to explain to me that it was a family heirloom. He explained it as if I didn't understand, even though actually I just couldn't answer back what they said, even though I understood what they said.
As we continued walking around us, without us noticing, pochi entered the room earlier, he just silently stared at the katana.
Day after day passed, my body's condition was back in shape and my language was able to answer just basic conversations. My relationship with the mirai family is like part of the family itself to me. I feel they are very good to me.
Likewise with Pochi, it looks like she's not keeping her distance from all of them anymore. I feel very happy.
But my memories still haven't come back one bit, where did I come from? Where is my family? Who am I ?
I still don't know…
In my kimono, every day I help the grandmother at the temple clean and tidy up the temple. Sometimes I also take Hayato to a kindergarten in a village which is quite far from home. And for matters of cooking, now I'm very reliable.
During the several weeks I lived there, I realized several things, especially about the surrounding village, for some reason every time I took Hayato, their stares were so cynical and evil. Also, Hayato's expression looks slightly different from before, but he remains silent. I tried to cheer him up at that time.
Why are they like that?
I know the reason.
Envy, envy and slander. In the past, Grandma Mirai's family was one of the noble and kind samurai families in the village, but there were always those who didn't like her kind attitude, they committed slander and killed Grandma Mirai's father. And they now think that if Grandma Mirai is now an evil shaman trying to curse the village, why do they believe it? Because there are people who deliberately spread the fake news.
But not everyone in the village is like that, there are some families who don't believe in that. Example of Hayato's close friend, Sakura. That's why, Hayato always wants to go to kindergarten. And also that's why I hold back my anger all this time.
For the sake of hayato, mirai, mother and grandmother…
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Suddenly, I got goosebumps…
That afternoon, I thought everything would be fine…
I look back
I saw from a far on a hill that I knew very well… the place that always I visited day after day.
My eyes widen, my heart feels too tight to breathe…
"hayato…! stay with Sakura and her mother"
Hastily I ran,
Towards that hill…
which is on fire.
I ran as fast as I could to get there
I wish I didn't
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Losing Anything…