Today's a story about how i started smoking.
At first i could feel myself making the concious decision of breathing in but I was an intellectual dumb piece of shit so who cares? Well i do and i am gonna tell you about it.
Well now, if you're a guy with slightly above average IQ then you probably have experienced post nut clarity. It's when all the things that your brain thinks about in the back of your head starts surfacing like bodies given water burial. It's just a bit, no, more than a bit fuzzy than that, and you like it.
First I smoked I was 16, I didn't have enough money for cigarettes and when I had, I was literally burning the week's savings. And I didn't like that - that 1 minute it takes for settling in and 1 minute of euphoria, no thanks. Being the intellectual piece of shit that I was, I wanted an alternative.
It was Sunday morning, my father was home, it was neither chilly nor very hot. But it was windy. We were watching Titanic and I could feel myself falling for Leonardo DiCaprio's acting. It was Google's reign so searched for more of his movies and know what I found? I found Shutter Island and I found inception. Now those of you who haven't watched any of those, go a little easy on Shutter Island and you can watch inception on any of the 24 particularly divided parts of the week which end with the word "-day". I clicked on download and left the house at 3pm. That was the 2nd day I smoked and with a sense of disappointment I went home after 4 hours of doing nothing, saw the movie download wasn't finished yet. Shutter Island got downloaded first and do I like to follow order? No, but in that case, I did.
(For understanding the next few lines go watch the movie)
So the alternative i came up with was making myself believe that I can get high on the air I breathe, just dance around.
I still do that to this day
It feels great.
"𝙏𝙤 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙤𝙧 𝙙𝙞𝙚 𝙖 𝙜𝙤𝙤𝙙 𝙢𝙖𝙣?"
-sidhant