"Uhm.. Mom?" Tiara called out to her mother but she didn't get any response from her side. "I am waiting for what you are going to decide." She said in a normally casual tone finding Tiara dumbfounded. "What do you mean waiting for my decision? I thought you were going to tell me what should I or shouldn't accept." Tiara argued with her mother as she couldn't decide what she was going to do. "It's your life and you should choose what you want. You are an adult now." Her mother scolded her as she knew her daughter, who was struggling to choose what she wanted to do.
'How can she do this with me? She was the one who never let me make any choice on my own and now, she is telling me that it's my life and I should choose. What the h*ck! Are all mothers like this or do I get a unique piece for myself?' Tiara remembered the days when her mother used to control everything around her. It was easy for her to just walk in the way that her mother created for her but now, she was supposed to choose the correct path for herself. She knew she would never regret it if she made a decision but she feared that things may go wrong at some point. 'I need to calm my mind.' She sighed and parted her lips to say something. "Okay, I think I will take time to think about it till evening." Tiara told her mother and cut the call as she found no reason to be on call any longer because her mother didn't give her the shelter she sought.
She closed her eyes for a few seconds making TR-X's heartbeats fast as it was looking like she was going to decline their offer but she opened her eyes again and looked at them intensely. "I think I am going to tell you about my decision tonight." Tiara bought time from them to think about the big decision to make in her hands. "Of course, Take your time to think. Just let us know the answer by night." KR provided her with what she asked for and nodded to reassure her that it was okay to be unsure and have time to think about such a big decision. "Thanks, I think I should leave now." Tiara said scratching her nape, eyes filled with nervousness. "Wait, why?" Vin stopped her, not giving her permission to leave.
"Because… what will I do here?" Tiara said, shrugging her shoulders. "Go out with us." JJ chirped after staying quiet during the whole conversation. "Huh? Where?" Tiara asked curiously. "You tell. This is your country." Joy asked Tiara to take them out to a good place. "Yeah, but there's no place I like." She wanted to deny them but came up with a polite excuse. "I saw a club nearby. We should go there." KR suggested, getting up from the couch. 'Bro, I wasn't looking for suggestions. I was looking for an escape from here.' Tiara rolled her eyes internally. "Good idea." Sam supported his suggestion and got up from the couch as well.
"But you guys look exhausted even after taking a bath." Tiara spilled the truth which was obvious. "How do you know we took a bath?" KR raised an eyebrow at her, doubting her. "Your wet hair whispered to me." Tiara replied to him sarcastically and everyone laughed at KR. "Change and meet in the hallway in 5 minutes." Sam ordered everyone and approached the gate to go out. "You should go but I think I should get going." She protested, stopping them to go to their room. "Why?" JJ whined childishly. "Uhm, Because…" She paused to think about an excuse to give them. "What will I do between you all? You enjoy." She gave an excuse and stood up from her spot. "Come on, We met again after a while. Come and enjoy with us." KR insited her to join them. "B-" She wanted to say something but Vin stopped her, knowing her well enough to know that she would continue to protest. "No buts, Join us!" Vin forced her. "O-okay…" Tiara senselessly agreed.
'Why can't I say no to people when they force me!! Ughh! Tiara!' Tiara sighed and looked up just to see their happy reaction, the people who were feeling victory. "Okay. Wait 5 minutes." Joy stood up in a hurry and rushed toward his suitcase. "Yes." JJ ran outside of the room to change his outfit to a suitable one for the club. "Do you need anything?" Vin asked her being thoughtful of her. "No, I am good." She shook her head and gestured for Vin to go and change his clothes as well. KR and Vin left her with Joy in his room to change their outfit while she scanned Joy's room with her large almond eyes.
"This is good, right?" Joy asked her, showing a loose black T-shirt with black grey pants. "Yeah." Tiara agreed with his choice of outfit. "Okay." Joy said, wrapping the clothes around his arms, and started jumping his way toward the washroom to change into the selected outfit. 'What time is it?" Tiara's eyes wandered around the room's wall for a clock but couldn't find any and ended up seeing the time on her phone. 'It's 5:37 already!' She sighed cursing her luck. 'Is my outfit okay to go clubbing?' She wondered while her gazes traced her outfit to think if the outfit was suitable. Black loose t-shirt with black loose pants which JJ gifted. 'Wait, Didn't Joy pick a similar outfit like this?... Maybe this outfit was given by him. She thought and shrugged her shoulders. She didn't know which outfit was given by which member as they never discussed it.
After a couple of minutes, The washroom's gate opened again revealing Joy wearing an all-black outfit with a big smile on his face. "Let's go." Joy gestured for her to come with him. She nodded and stood up to go with him to meet others.
"Where are they?" Tiara questioned Joy who was turning his head in different directions, looking for other members as well. "Wait." Joy told Tiara to wait for others to arrive. "Okay." She agreed to wait for them. 'It's getting awkward. Should I say something? But what? I am not good at English. So, I wouldn't be able to communicate with her properly which will make it even more awkward. Why I always get nervous around her whenever we are alone.' Joy struggled to choose what he should do as the silence between them was growing second by second. Tiara seemed uncomfortable as well but her mind was blank, unlike Joy whose mind was filled with lots of thoughts. He took a deep breath, gathering his strength to start a conversation to make things less awkward between them.
"So, How are you?" He started with a little talk. "Good…" Tiara was caught off guard by his sudden try to start a conversation but in a little corner of her heart, she wanted to choose the silence over the forced awkward talks. "Any boyfriend?" Joy asked, senselessly but then looked at her instantly. "Huh?" She looked at him in shock. "Uhm… I mean-" Joy tried to turn the conversation in another direction. "No… I don't have any!" She denied having any and shook her head vibrantly. 'You stupid fool! Why did you ask that dumb question!?' Joy internally screamed at himself.
"Where are the others." They heard a manly voice with sweetness-coated and they turned to look at the owner of the voice. KR was standing before them, wearing a black shirt with blue denim jeans and looking at them with a confused expression plastered on his face. His 2 shirt buttons were undone revealing his smooth manly chest while his black hair was pulled back and a strand was falling on his forehead. "Let's go." Another voice came from behind KR and Tiara tilted her head to look at three men coming toward them.
She scanned them from toe to head and found that almost all wore black. Only Sam was the only one who was wearing a white T-shirt with back denim jeans. "Wow, Almost all of us are wearing black! I thought Joy gave me this outfit when he showed me his clothes." She commented, moving her gaze to each one of them. "No, I choose it." JJ corrected her and told her that he was the one who chose that outfit for her. "Ohh.." Tiara made an 'O' face.
'We are looking like a cult who is kidnapping a boy.' She moved her eyes until her gaze fell on Sam who was the only one wearing a different color than black and laughed internally. "Okay, Let's go." KR commanded everyone. They moved to the entrance while KR made a call which Tiara didn't understand as he was talking in his mother language. TR-X pulled a mask from their pant pockets and put it on their face, matching their outfits before the lift gates opened again on the ground floor. Tiara was feeling nervous as she was walking out with them because she knew reporters could take their photos anytime which would cause big chaos as she knew they were one of the biggest celebrities.
They rushed to a minibus that was already presented in front of the main entrance of the hotel. Tiara took the first passenger seat while others took the rest of the seat near hers. "This bus wasn't here when I entered." Tiara remembered the chaotic scene of reporters and fans who were standing at the front gate. "Yeah, I arranged it when we were coming down." KR explained about the call that he was speaking for a few minutes back. "Oo, I couldn't understand what you were saying." Tiara spit the fact and sat straight in her seat.
'They aren't bad. I can think of accepting their offer at least because they offered me a bigger modeling opportunity. Vin even paid 2 crores just for me…' Tiara went into her own thoughts, looking outside of the window and ignoring TR-X's conversation. 'I mean I can manage with them.' Tiara took a deep breath as her eyes fell on the sky which was turning orange and pink color and smiled at the beauty of nature.
They reached the club before they knew it as it was close to the hotel they were staying in. They scanned the club from outside before they came out of their minibus and TR-X put their mask on their faces again. Tiara was the last one to get off the bus as she was lost on what she should do or where should she go even though, it was obvious that she needed to go inside the club which was right in front of her eyes. The truth was, It was her first time when she was going to a club. A whole new experience, She feared that she would make a fool out of herself and do something stupid in front of everyone.
KR opened the club gates to go inside and held it for everyone to pass through as the gentleman and caring person he was. She slowly moved her feet to go inside while her eyes were scanning everyone around her to know the vibe inside of the place she was going to. KR was confused by the sudden change of personality when he noticed her slow pace of walking and tensed shaky eyes wandering around but he shrugged it off as he thought. 'Maybe, it's just me who is overthinking.' and followed everyone else inside to have fun.
People were dancing in their own style not caring about anyone, drinking as much as they wanted to, and having fun in their own way like flirting, talking, making new friends, or hugging their loved ones. She was amazed by the world in front of her that she never had any idea that something like this existed. Of course, she knew about the clubs and bars but she had no idea about the fun people had inside these places with no judgments, no furry, or hesitation.
"Dance?" Joy asked her to dance with a smile as he noticed that she was staring at the people who were dancing enjoyingly. She nodded hesitantly as she doubted if she could dance like those careless people who didn't care about anyone's judgment. He grabbed her left hand with his big right hand pulling her out of the deep thinking and dragging her to the dance floor.
Joy started to move his body in a smooth and flawless manner yet a freestyle dance while Tiara was standing there, all awkward and nervous if she would look as good as him. He snapped his fingers before her and wiggled his eyebrows twice at her. "Dance!" He screamed to let her hear his voice through the loud music while Vin and JJ also made their way to the dance floor to dance with them. She moved her body slowly in an awkward manner and hesitated to let her body vibe with the music, She knew how to control herself and her urge to dance to the music that was loud. Vin took his spot beside her right side and JJ took his spot beside her left side while Joy was dancing in front of her.
She could only think of the judgment she had ever gotten in her whole life. 'What if people judge? What if I can't dance as well as them? What will people think if I dance with 3 men in a club?... To be honest, I don't care what they think about me but I fear that it may harm my family's feelings. Should I just let myself lose and enjoy life as it is?' She protested in her mind while her body was moving slowly to the pop music. "Hey?" JJ called out to her after noticing her lost self. "Yeah?...I- I need to go to the washroom." She hurriedly said and rushed towards the direction where the restroom sign was indicating.
She walked hectically trying to avoid the feeling inside of her, the feeling of self-doubt, anxiety, and the pressure of doing something that would drag her out of her comfort zone. She wasn't ready to let her inner crazy self out, scared of the judgment she may get. She ran inside the washroom and locked herself inside the small space between the washroom's walls to hide her vulnerable side. She tried to gather her thoughts to gain the strength she needed to hide her overthinking self. She took a few heavy breaths before turning the knob of the door to open it and face the mirror's smooth surface before her. She looked at her reflection pitifully remembering every moment that happened with her since she met TR-X like a movie inside her head.
'Right, I used to live, laugh, fight, and do crazy things with them why am I feeling nervous around them now? Is it because now, I know how powerful, popular, and influential they are? Or is it because I am meeting them after a long time? I should be relaxed with them because I know they don't want my bad.' She thought as she looked down at the water falling down on her palms from the tap. 'Yeah, There's nothing wrong if I enjoy fully once in my life… I don't need to be awkward with them.' She raised her eyes to look directly into her eyes on the reflection.
Tiara came out of the restroom when her phone started to ring, She pulled her phone out of the pant's pocket and saw the caller ID. 'Huh? Who is this?' her eyebrows pulled together, wrinkling her forehead. She picked up the call and slowly took it near her ears to see who it was. "Hello?" A male voice came through the phone. She widened her eyes as she recognized the voice, She could recognize this voice anywhere and anytime. The only voice she had the urge to hear once, the only voice she once was in love with and could talk to for hours but at this very moment, she felt overwhelmed increasing the urge to cry inside her. "He-Hello?" She answered with hesitation while the tension was growing inside her. "I miss you baby. How are you?" The voice talked to her lovingly. "I-I am fine…" Tiara was curious about why the person called her out of nowhere.
"Aren't you going to ask how am I?" The person asked her. "Just say, why you called me?" She got irritated by his sweet nature as she remembered all the bitter things he said to her when they were in a relationship. "I already told you, didn't I? I miss you soo much baby." He said in a childish manner to melt her heart but she felt irritated over his behaviour. "Yeah? So?" She said irritately. "I know you still love me so why don't we get back together, huh?" He said seriously and told her the reason behind his sudden call. A tear breamed in her eyes and her lips trembled like she struggled to choose an option. "No." She answered him in a low voice trying to hide her broken voice. "But why? Did you forget everything we did together? Kiss, touches, and most importantly 3 years of relationship! Don't you think you should save this relation as well? I have seen you naked, kissed you like a hundred times, and have touched you literally everywhere in your body!" He reasoned with her and explained why she should say yes instead of no. "No!!" She yelled at him angrily as he reminded everything. "Don't you ever try to contact me! It was all past and you have lost me already!!" She screamed her lungs out while the women around her looked at her with either pitiful or disgusted looks. Tiara cut the call hurriedly, not wanting to hear any more shit from her ex that could change her mind and drag her back into the toxic relationship she was in.
She wpped the tears off her cheeks and walked back to the main hall of the club again where her eyes fell on KR and Sam who were enjoying their drinks. She stormed to them and took the glass out of KR's hand before sipping on it. KR and Sam exchanged glances, confused by her action, and then looked at her again while she sipped the whole drink in a sip like she was drinking milk instead of alcohol. "One more!" She ordered KR instead of the bartender and shoved the glass to him. 'They say this unholy drink makes you forget about everything and let you enjoy your life as you want. I never tried it before but there's always first in everything, right? But why it's so painful to let a person go from your mind even when you haven't met them in a long time? Why do the memories hurt you more than a stab in your chest, the memories kill you from inside every day while a stab can finish you at once and you won't feel anything once you die. Let's just lose tonight to forget the memories at least for tonight.' She thought as KR filled her glass with whiskey.
She took the glass from KR and sipped on it but a cough escaped her mouth. "Are you okay? Do you drink often?" KR asked her as he noticed the speed she was drinking alcohol. "No…" She shook her head vibrantly and lip-synced 'First time!' while showing her index finger. "What?" KR was surprised by her answer. Sam snatched the drink from her and looked at her with pure concern. "Are you okay?" KR asked her and placed his palm over her cheeks which were turning red because of the alcohol she consumed, rubbing his thumb over her red cheeks softly. She nodded happily and her body fell on KR's solid chest as she couldn't maintain her balance to stand properly.