Bella sighed deeply before returning her attention to the doctor. The latter continued to speak even if she was not listening, which reflects that beyond his vocation as a doctor, that is to say, he must listen to his patients, this man decided to just do his job.
He certainly tried to console her when she started crying but she imagines that it was just an outpouring of humanity since she is a teenager and she is panicked by the news.
Bella shook her head, deciding to listen now to what the doctor was telling her.
It is a set of things that she will have to do, behaviors that she will have to adopt, and especially examinations that she will have to pass to ensure the good progress of "her pregnancy".
The man talks without stopping for a minute giving her cautions and instructions to follow, he gives her a battery of prescriptions to do and all these prescriptions start to make her dizzy. She never imagined that being pregnant leads to so many things, even before the child was born.
It's so constricting and oppressive that Bella is starting to feel nauseous and tired. She wants to sleep but the cold monotonous voice of the man seems to tell her not to.
The man again starts listing the pills she will need to take with strict monitoring, pregnancy milestones, upcoming medical exams, and appointments and soon Bella feels overwhelmed.
She becomes stressed and fully understands the repercussions on her life and the impact of this pregnancy on her daily life and her future.
If she still has any.
Will she be able to go to university at the start of the next academic year, which is in less than three months? She doubts it with an almost four-month pregnancy, and certainly visible, she will draw too much attention and criticism to her.
In addition, she has felt a lot of fatigue lately, will she be able to continue to work well? All these questions bother her especially that despite her age, she also becomes aware of her immaturity.
Prescriptions during pregnancy are hard enough to follow, so she can't imagine what it will be like when the child is born. She has never seen how babies are taken care of, to be honest, and she knows her lack of experience will hurt both her and this child.
She will never be able to take care of a baby, it's impossible.
Bella is shaking again, scared and overwhelmed by this new state she is trying to face but her efforts are in vain as she is seriously freaking out.
Her heart is filled with conflicting feelings ranging from fear, shame, anger, and sadness.
How in this world, could such a misfortune happen to her? She has always been an obedient, gentle, and discreet girl. She is very active in the neighborhood church and practices the commandments of the Lord with devotion.
She is a fervent believer so why such punishment on her? What did she do to deserve such bad luck?
She is so terrified to have to tell this to her family and have to suffer their reaction.
She already knows that she will be judged given the religious and family values that her parents advocate. She could even be rejected by her family and thrown into the street, finding herself truly alone.
Her life is ruined, that night ruined her life forever.
She is brought back to reality when the doctor with a reproachful look scolds her for being careful.
"Listen, girl. You have to be careful what I'm telling you." He stopped, taking his seat again across from Bella.
"You're not a kid anymore. Once you choose to take your clothes off and let a man have you, especially without protection, you'll have to bear the consequences."
The man finished speaking sternly as Bella hugged her skirt. She didn't choose to sleep with him, he imposed himself on her.
This man knows nothing, nobody knows nothing so why are they judging her?
She would like to tell him but she prefers to keep quiet.
"I read in your file that not only are you a minor but that you came here alone. I understand that you just came to take a pregnancy test but you should know that I will need the contact details of a person in charge, such as your guardian or the father of your child if he is an adult"
The man spoke in a gulp as Bella swallowed heavily. The child's father? If at least she knew who he was.
She shook her head before lowering her head in shame.
"I… I don't know where the child's father is." She'd rather say that than tell him she doesn't even know him. The look of the man is already condescending enough for her to exaggerate.
"I see," he said calmly before adding. "Do you live with your parents?"
Bella's heart quivered in her chest before pursuing her lips.
"Yes," she answered in a small hesitant voice and the doctor continued.
"It would therefore be better if you were accompanied by a responsible adult during your next visits. Preferably your mother, she must also be at your side to follow you home, that will make things easier".
Bella freaked out, telling her mother to help her with an unintended pregnancy from an unknown father. It is like begging death.
The session ended and Bella found herself in the hallway with a devastated expression.
She's screwed, no matter how hard she thinks, there's no way she can solve this situation. Becoming a mother at her age is mission impossible and it's not just a question of emotions and feelings. She will have to face the reality of the responsibility of raising a child and she is not sure that she will be helped.
Even if she decides to hide this pregnancy for a while, or if she postpones the deadline of having to tell the truth to her family, she will have to face complex legal questions because according to the doctor, she must be accompanied by an adult.
The anguish in her increased tenfold in the face of these additional concerns and that is how she found herself outside.
Bella was waiting for a cab when she sat down in one of the seats outside the clinic near two middle-aged women.
They also seemed to come out of the clinic and were talking loud enough for Bella to hear.
"Oh no, aren't you telling me you're still pregnant? How much do you already have? Five? But that's too much," one of the women spoke emotionally while the other just lowered her head in shame.
"Conceptions, don't you know? How old are you? You already have four with blinking fathers and you allow yourself to take another? At least tell me that this last one will assume the paternity of this child?" The woman scolded, making the woman she was talking to cry.
"He said he can't be the father, and he walked off," she replied embarrassed and Bella felt a little sympathetic to this woman. Pregnant with an asshole who disappeared into thin air.
"You are really beyond rescue. It's the same with the other four. How do you fall into the same traps? Five times? Either you're unconscious or you're stupid"
The woman spoke harshly and Bella scowled. People often judge others without knowing what they are going through.
Before she also judged this neighbor who got pregnant but now that she is in the same situation, she feels stupid to have criticized this poor girl.
Even though she is a whore.
Her mind returned to the two women as the one who was scolding the other stood up.
"Well, it's not a serious problem as such. You just have to have an abortion, it's the smartest solution when you're in your situation and you don't want to bother with an unwanted pregnancy."
Bella opened her eyes wide at this unexpected news. So there is a way to get out of this mess without having to suffer the consequences of this horrible night.