Oh, My God! I did it. All the memories are flooding back to me! My mom was right! When you go into your heat cycle you do things differently. I hope Sephker doesn't think of me as a girl who seeks that pleasure.
No wait there are more important things. Like I just had se…. I can't help but blush thinking of that words. Humans like Sephker can say those words so casually. What did Mom do when she mated with Dad? What did she say?
Come on Luna think hard about it. What did your mom say when she had Solar? She told me many times. I can't remember. Wait a minute! I remember now. It was…
"I wanted your father so I trapped him. That is why Solar was born. Your father is the man that won't leave his child alone with a mother."
Wait isn't that horrible? Shouldn't you want a kid because you wanted a kid? Having one to trap a person is wrong. Mom did have deeper meanings in what she said. No wait! This is the modern day.
I am too young to have a kid. I also am not financially stable to have a kid. Also, what if Sephker doesn't take responsibility? That means…I will have to raise a kid all on my own! I need to do something fast! Should I talk to Mom? No, she would convince me to keep the child.
Solar? No, it will be the same. I could ask Dad but he will faint if his youngest daughter had a heat cycle. He still thinks of me as a pure girl who has never once gone bad.
I could ask my guild about what to do. They will have a million questions about who I did it with. If you have sex with high-ranking people then they don't care. They actually will convince you it would be an honor to raise that kid. I guess there is only one thing I can rely on. Plan b medicine. It is a little expensive but I need to use it.
First I need to clean up. I am not sure when my parents will show up. They should be gone for the weekend but they might come home early. I started to smell the air more when I calmed down and I can tell it smelled.
It smells good to me because those are my and Sephker's pheromones. To others, the smell of this would be sickening. Which means I need candles to make the smell go away and open the windows.
I quickly cleaned myself off and put on a tiny amount of perfume to cover up Sephker's scent. I dressed up somewhat nicely. I am still a girl. When I go out I want to look halfway decent. I locked the door and went to the medical part of town.
When I arrived at the shop that was known for having the pregnancy-killing drug. They already knew what I wanted on my face. They asked if it was because of forceful insemination. I said no, Sephker wouldn't do that. I did say I got into a bad heat cycle. They understood.
I took the medicine right there. It was bitter and I wanted to puke but I went through with it. They had candles there so I picked them up and brought them back to my house. I opened the windows and lit the candles. I lay on my bed sad. I am happy to give my first to my husband. Yet I decided to let my heat cycle ruin it.
I want Sephker to be the husband but I wanted to wait. I guess self-control is hard for you to do when you are an animal person. I sighed loudly as I fell asleep. I woke up to the smell of my lavender candles. It smelled nice and it no longer smells like Sephker. Sephker smells nice but I mean that other smell is gone.
I should get stronger. I need to strengthen my willpower. I will not let my heat cycle dictate what I do! I need to become independent and free myself from my instincts.