I knew Mike was right. No matter how I looked at it, Lily was the girl who loved me most. I didn't know much about this Tasha. we had only met for that single day of the ruckus. As for Lily we had been together the whole of the previous trimester and she had always been true to me. She never hesitated to give me her heart even though I was broke as hell. She lifted me up every time I felt like my life was coming to an end. Honestly if it wasn't for her I don't even know if I would have survived that far.
As I laid there on my bed, I regretted going after Tasha. Even though she was beautiful, a lot more beautiful than Lily, that wasn't enough to compare with her. There is a lot more in a girl than just the external beauty. Who knows what she had been through. I tried very hard to find reasons to stay away from Tasha. At the end I decided it was better to stay with Lily. Tasha might be a pain in the ass, who knows. Don't these girls pretend to be cool in the first day of meet up but later turn into drama queens? What if Tasha was like that, a drama queen in disguise? I would have lost something valuable just for nothing. I wasn't ready for the regrets.
After contemplating for some time, I picked my phone and dialed Lily's number. I tried almost five times but she never picked my calls. I thought I was the one who was hurt by the incident, but now as I thought about it I knew I was the one in the offside. I was the one who hurt her feelings and betrayed her trust. It was even the most foolish thing to try and play victim instead of trying to apologize to at least minimize the damage.
I really wanted to talk to her. I wanted to know how she was doing. I wanted to tell her that I was sorry and I would never hurt her like that ever again, but maybe it was already too late the milk had been spilled. Mike's statement had really made me come to my senses. I wasn't ready to lose Lily just like that. I wasn't ready to let her go. As I lay there on my bed restless, my heart was yearning for her. I guess I needed such a rude awakening to know what I really wanted.
That day I spent just laying on my bed. It was the worst day so far since joining campus. My mind couldn't think at all; all it was thinking about was lily. The idea of losing her gave me a headache. I skipped all the classes that day. My mind wasn't functioning and attending wouldn't have made any difference. Plus, I was too weak to get out of my bed. That day I spent trying to get some sleep so at least I would escape from the reality for a moment but I couldn't. I even skipped lunch. I just lost my appetite for everything. After trying to reach Lily for another five times I just shut off my phone. If Lily wasn't willing to talk to me, then I guess no one deserved to talk to me.