It was already one week since Tasha was at my house, but for me it felt like yesterday. Guilt was still eating me up. My mind was still processing what happened that night. Even though Tasha and I promised to keep it between us, I was still afraid. I was afraid that if Lily gets a word about me banging Tasha it would be over between us. But now a week has passed, Lily was still ignoring me. And Tasha had been calling me ever since.
Being a medical student was really becoming tiresome for me. The schedule was very tight. There was no time to breath. It didn't even factor in for guys with heavy mental loads like me. The pressure was super high. A lot of classes, assignments and impending tests. Lately I had a feeling that I was losing it. For example, now I was from a lecture, but I couldn't even remember the topic. I was absent minded the whole time. The only things that occupied my mind were Lily and Tasha.
"Bro what's wrong with you? You had been daydreaming the whole lecture." Mike caring as always. He was the only friend I could count on. He was the only one I could trust.
"There's nothing wrong bro just that…" I really didn't know how to tell this to him. I didn't know how to tell him I had sex with Tasha, because even I myself didn't understand what happened.
"Did Lily break up with you?" Mike asked concerned. Of course he must be concerned. He had seen with his own eyes what I and Lily had been through. How we had adored each other in thick and thins, and above all she was her friend too.
"No bro it's worse than that…"
"Then spit it bro, I hate being kept in suspense."
"Promise first that you won't be mad at me…."
"Okay, I promise." I had to make sure of that, Mike was very unpredictable he can just snap.
"I fucked Tasha bro. She came to my house and…"
"What? … what did you do bro? you're lucky I promised not to be mad, otherwise I would have already slapped you. What happened?"
"I don't know bro. She just came to my house claiming that she was late and the school gate was closed and I'm the only person she knew. I tried to get her out, but the next thing I know she was rubbing my dick and I fucking lost it. Damn it! I don't know if Lily is going to forgive me if she gets to know this."
"Bro I hate to tell you this but Lily might be gone bro. Yesterday about 11.00pm I called her and a guy picked and he told me Lily was in the shower. 11.00pm bro! she was taking shower and a guy was waiting for her! I don't know how you'll interpret this but for me; they're definitely fucking." I can't fully describe how I felt at that time, all I know is that I felt really bad.
"Just stick to Tasha bro, if you're sure she loves you. And don't feel bad because of that Lily. If she can move on that fast, then it means she wasn't really in love with you or she was banging that guy even at the time you were together." I knew Mike was trying to make me feel better, but he made it worse. The idea of Lily banging someone else didn't sit well with me. And to make matters worse, there was a possibility that she had been doing that even before breaking up with me. I was really hurt. Even though I hurt her, at that point I didn't know if she felt the kind of pain I was feeling.
"Bro, just take me home." My mind was a mess. My heart felt as if someone has inserted his writs in my chest and was tearing it apart. This was my first heartbreak ever, and it felt as if everything was over for me. I don't even know why it hurt that much because it was just the other week I wasn't giving a shit about Lily.
"Are you alright bro? what about the other lectures?"
"No…I'm not fucking alright, okay. Just take me home or if you have a problem with it I can just go by myself?"
"No, it's okay, I'm going to escort you."