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Chapter 22 - 22: remorse

splash...

I flinched at the sudden jump of water on my face. I looked beside me to see a tall figure holding water in his hands to splash over my face again. I chuckled lightly.

"stop it, Mark, you'll get my clothes wet," I said protecting my face, giggling.

"chill Iris, don't overthink about that," Mark said smiling, looking me in eyes. It wasn't like I was trying to hide the guilt or regret on my face but yes!! I was tense.

Mark gave me his hand so I can come out of the water now, I took his huge hand and came out. I fixed my jeans and we both went to relax in Riverside.

Mark tried to put on weird jokes to make me laugh, he wanted to cheer up my mood. He always tries to help me no matter what. We just met a half month ago and he helps me a lot. He tries to comfort me, I'm happy that he is with me at this time.

Suddenly between all the jokes-

My eyes caught Cyrus's group, but Cyrus was not there. My heart sank, he came with us but he wasn't there. Did he go back? Is he ok?

I saw just James and Millie sitting on a flat rock. They were not talking, they looked like they were deep inside their thoughts. Did something happen to Cyrus? Why? Did I do something to break their friendship?

My overthinking was cracked by Mark, "why are you went suddenly so silent" he said softly.

"I came back in a second" I made an excuse and Mark nodded. I strolled toward James and Millie.

"uhm guys you alone? Where's Lysander?" I looked like a fool asking this. Millie glanced at me but it wasn't cold now, it looks like remorse.

James looked up at me and smiled, "Uhm yea he just left" He pause and continued, "He said that he don't feel like coming, so he just headed back to the cottage" I nodded.

Is he also thinking about what happened a few minutes ago?

My brain hurts now..... But my heart hurts more. I never thought that I'd hurt someone emotionally. I hate it when people do it to me and now I'm the one who did the same?

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I had to arrange many things that day, I didn't speak to anybody. I also want to be in silence.

Ian knows about it. He knew I wasn't feeling so good so he didn't give me much work to do.

Yes!! I did ask about Cyrus to James but he said his mood is off. I wanted to apologize to him but how? He will think I'm pathetic, first I insulted him and then apologized, this is bad.

The evening came in the blink of an eye. Everyone started to fix their beds, I got inside my room tired to find other members getting ready to sleep.

"hey, Iris!!" James said with a grin as soon as he notice me, making everyone else look at me too. I smiled, "Hey"...

Then my eyes caught a brown pair of eyes, watching through me. I broke the small eye contact and straight went to my bed. Guilt washed over me.

I have to apologize him...