I felt strange because now I don't actually know how it feels to love someone. In this case, even if I did love somebody, he's a distant figure of the past, someone I don't even recognize and if I recognize the person I loved, he had a mask on defined by another person's identity. Whom I've wasted so much love on. A stranger now.
I just have to find a reason to tell my father that we broke those marriage plans we had. Perhaps, I can spur an excuse up about all the adverse reputation on his social media and that Ive seen him talk to too many other women. Even though this still feels like a dreamstate. His quality is not of my preference, which dad was likely to understand.
"Dad, do you know anything about alchemy they practiced during the old days, that can make somebody move through time?" I asked him as I plunged water into the waterer.
"Child, I don't know too much about alchemy but I know it is often something caused by the reactions in its natural fabrications. Your mother knew much more about it, infact, you should find some old texts in our library if you look carefully, Zara." he said while still distracted by the physical labor.
"Okay! yes, I'll go do that...just been in the mood to read lately." I responded with a different enthusiasm, maybe I felt more than inquisitive about Josh Woods and what he was doing at that place calling our encounter "destined."
I was near our library, now reading a book about alchemy called "Leaves" but I read of nothing that mentions about technology or its advancements. And everything about 'anything purple' meant combinations of two different elements mixed together. Something About it was not singular.
I didn't want to read more, I felt unusually distracted, but, by the thought of Josh. Weird.
It wouldn't hurt to just give him a call even though whenever I think of that incident at the club, it makes me blush inside. And I feel rather stupid for feeling this way.
Suddenly, Rick interrupted my imagination again.
'I guess he should have the audacity to leave me at my worst and not make an effort to ask how I am, judging by how rich he is. Why am I even thinking about him. By now, he's probably in his truest characteristic element; busy with another woman.' I thought.
'Now, my chakras are all very disoriented and un-alligned just like the pain in my bones. I can't seem to focus.' I said while switching around some new tricks with my twisting sword.
While Im thinking 'Maybe Josh's personality rubbed off on me and I'm starting to feel like him. Perhaps, it's all that saliva he left in my mouth... or do I find him inspirational and somehow want to know him more.'
'fuck this is ridiculous! who am I kidding, I'm going out of control inside my head. if this was happening to someone ordinary, her cognitive switches would've probably flipped by now. Imagine, I'm that extraordinary.'
'I guess this can be my go to weapon for now, it looks good on me' she said.
Zara was always very impulsive in nature, she would be cringed by the thought of her cheeky self even when she knows that she it's one of her intrinsic traits. Perhaps because she knew she acquired the charm of a really attractive woman yet was intelligent enough to remain headstrong, grounded and sometimes arrogant. She was physically really strong in an hourglass body, her combat skills were now ranked higher than the generals that learnt modern, combat arts, only because her father was a cultivated martial; a retiree leader of a high ranked master, in the meridians of their culture, passed from ancestral generations. He was highly respected and a legend to some.
Her hair was brown and long yet she would usually tie it in a pony tail, her eyes were brown too.
She loves heavy metal and grunge music even though she also loves melodic ambient ones, and even has a part time metal/ rock band where she plays as the substitute vocalist. She looks like the typical non-chalant badass but she's actually hidden behind the underhand of most innocence, all because she fancies punk gadgets, and dark matter drives her madness for curiousity.
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I did it, I finally decided to call this guy and I did it without thinking of what I should say.
"Hello...this is Josh." he answered, and quite professionally.
"uhh Hey, it's me Zara." I said confidently.
"Zara...Who?" he didn't remember who I was so I felt my cheeks turning red again.
"Gosh, we met at that mysterious paradigm shifting Pub and you.." I felt the warmth rush around my cheeks again..ughhh! this was bad.
"haha" he laughed "I was only pretending. You're funny, of course I remember you. I just knew you'd make that call I was expecting, almost like you just read my mind." he said clearing certain doubt from the air with certainty.
"I've been having an instinct about how you may play reverse psychology with me for my exceptional stamina. So before you say anything to me do you think this still questions any area of your profession? Just be honest." I still felt paranoid for being an assassin and I've never really had a first love. it left me with no choices but to ask him only this only.
"No not exactly. Perhaps, you're just overthinking. So do you want to come with me to Oppean now, I'll show you what it's like here, I think you'd love it. If you get here, the confidentiality of this conversation would not be liable to a breach of security. So I can explain to you explicitly, all that would matter to only the both of us, in the presence of our paths crossing under strange circumstances." just in that moment I thought the sound of Oppean would almost make me chuckle but I didn't. I handled it perfectly.
"Paths crossing..So, like fate?"
"Yeah, perhaps like fate. And it's gonna be a work date." he said while breathing mildly heavier than normal between his words.
"Really? So how would I get there? Would you pick me from here? How far do you live? Aren't you from another world? Would you teleport here the way I did too? All this is so cool. Why do you even need me, if you know I may not have anything to contribute to you?" I said this to him even when I knew the many dynamics of physics and engineering. I've studied much to learn of the repercussions of a dominant female being exceptional at areas like mechanisms of advanced natural sciences.
"Ill surprise you. Keep your window open and be prepared to enter my domain." and hung up.