〰️ JENNY 〰️
No matter how tough and strong i try to be everyday, weakness, depression,helplessness and anxiety constantly keeps knocking at my door. I bet Klara is having fun seeing me suffer like this and she won't stop till am completely broken. Looking at the whole house right now,i think it's way more organized compared to my life.
"What is wrong, pumpkin why are you still standing there".I turned around, picked up my purse then dusted my dress.
"Your knee, it's bleeding what happened?" he asked walking towards me with a terrifying look in his eyes.
"I slipped... it's just a minor cut dad, don't beat yourself up about it".I tried concealing my knee with my dress.
"Am worried, come and sit down okay, let me get the first aid kit".He said making me to sit on one of the dinning chairs
"Am okay Dad, I was about to go and freshen up, I'll definitely feel better".
"Just keep still and wait for me, you don't have to pretend that everything is alright all the time"
He went upstairs and came back shortly with the box. He cleaned up the wound first then applied some ointment.
"Feeling better?"he asked.
"Of course Dad, a lot better"i said smiling genuinely.
I thought about Klara and what she did, how did she find out in the first place,i just don't get it.
"Dad, was klara at the hospital the other day?"It was very obvious that he didn't want to reply my question.
"Yes, she came but you were asleep,i didn't want to tell you cause...you know...you two don't get along very much".
"But how did she know that i was at the hospital?"
"I guess your Mum told her".
We were both quiet for a while,i had no idea what my dad was thinking at that moment but I was recollecting my thoughts.
"Am sorry pumpkin" my dad said grabbing my hand,i was a bit surprised, why was he apologizing and for what.
"About your mom,am sorry you had to see her in that state again,am aware that i told you that she's going to be okay soon but apparently i don't know anymore,am scared that she might do something bad to herself".I tightened my hand on his and looked into his eyes.
"You don't have to apologize dad,we are in this together as a family and we will keep fighting till the very end. She's the only mother i have in this entire world and we are going to take care of her together".
"Wow, how did i manage to give birth to such an amazing and understanding daughter,am so lucky to have you".He said whipping off the tear that trickled from the side of his eye.
No dad, I am the lucky one you have no idea how much of a blessing you are to my life, am rest assured that even if the whole world turns it back on me, you will never ever leave my side.
Later that evening I went to see doctor Anthony, thankfully he wasn't as busy as usual.
"So how have you been Jenny, it's been awhile".He said smiling sheepishly.
"Am good ".i was trying to keep my words as short as possible,i just wanted us to get down to business so I could leave soon.
"Okay, anything you wanna talk about"He asked moving his chair nigher to where I sat.
"Nothing much just school stress which i believe is normal for any student".
"No Jenny, you are not supposed to undergo any kind of stress at all because you are very special".
I was beginning to grow uncomfortable beneath his appraising eyes.
"I guess my body system is definitely not aware of that".
"Don't worry,i can get anything done for you, just say it".
He raised his hand and rested it on my lap,i brushed it off and instantly stood to my feet,so did he.
"With all due respect sir you can't cross the line, it's inappropriate" i said backing away from him but he kept coming closer and closer until my back was against the wall,my anxiety kicked in abruptly. He clutched my jaw and pushed my head backwards, his grip was quite strong for an old man.
"Why won't you let me touch you, what is so special about you,i asked you to go on date with me but you blatantly declined you think am too old right, tonight am going to show you what this old man is capable of doing".
My brain was trying to process so many things,a minute ago he said i was very special and now things that were said awhile ago has completely been forgotten. At this point,am beginning to loose hope in humanity, everyone has turned into hungry wolves waiting to feed on other people's ignorance, vulnerability and naivety. But am gradually learning the hard way and at this moment,i choose not to be stupid and at least fight for once.
I gathered all the strength in me and pushed him so hard that he lost his balance and fell heavily to the ground. when I ran out,i heard him cursing at me nonstop, his assistant was so confused when she saw me and asked if I was okay.
"He might need your help"that was all i said to her.
As i walked out of the building,i vowed never to return. Those that claim they render help to others, sometimes are in dire need of it, what a twisted and a confused world. I know that whatever that is happening to me right now is only preparing me for the future, now i can finally convince myself that my life is actually a battle that am fighting everyday and the world is the battle field.Only the strongest and most resilient ones can make it through till the end. We are not just living but surviving too.