I have often read in fanfictions, how when a person is reincarnated or transmigrated, how they often become the opposite of what they were or who they were.
The weak bastard becomes a strong bastard. The unemployed loser becomes rich harem or reverse-harem protagonist. Of course, this is for male and female. Both genders have bastards and losers. Expand your minds.
I read it, and as someone who studied human psychology in an in-depth fashion, I can say that it is accurate.
A rebirth, in whatever way they present themselves can have major psychological effects on an individual, where they find themselves verging further and further from that which once made them fall into despair.
Only those who genuinely appreciated themselves for who they were can gain the acceptance necessary to maintain the individual that they loved so much.
Loser do not possess that sense of self-worth or acceptance.
I was not a loser. Not mentally.
Perhaps that is why, despite my circumstances, I have found my psychology maintaining a state of stability.
No rapidly fluctuating beliefs or introspections. No sense of identity crisis or epiphanies. A strength of will that could not be challenged has always been a hallmark of my identity.
Therefore, I think I will make that the core of my "talent".
That special ability that so many vampires possess in this Twilight world.
I can feel mine forming. As my body does.
I had never really given much thought to how they came to be, when the world was largely fictional. Even though, I have always believed that anything is possible, therefore I never really held too much belief in the term "fiction". But, now that I am here, and conscious as my physical form takes shape inside my life-giver, I can clearly see my talent taking shape.
It seems to be a matter of personal preference. So to speak.
The talent seems to depend on the individual. Tailored to fit what makes that person who they are, at their core.
Bella with her weak sense of self-worth, as she retreated from the world and into her own mind. Heavily introspective, but still strong-willed. Thus, her internal shield, that was only able to become external, as she became more expressive and engaged with the world around her.
Edward with his clear desire to find validation in anything outside of himself, without his internal soul that he believes to be gone, he projected his mind into the outside world, as he sought to find the soul in others. A working theory, but probably close.
Jane with her strong connection to her psychic abilities, however they were unfocused, refined, and not fully formed, due to her young age. However, upon being burned at the execution of her and her sibling, she fully consolidated her talent into one that targeted the minds of others, inducing an intense level of pain, similar to what she experience while burning.
Now, my talent, that is already being formed and consolidated, due to my already matured psyche and spirit, is being formed.
However, I can feel that I can alter it, along with many aspects of my body.
The latter of which, I will handle later.
The first priority is giving a rough outline for my "talent" to form along.
The twilight world is not one of, what I would call, high tiered threats.
Its composed of sparkly vampires that move at speeds that cannot be caught by the human eye, with no need for acceleration. Can lift weight that exceed that of humans by tons, as seen when Edward yanked a small tree from the ground. And possess special abilities that cover a diverse range.
All in all, they are weak, in terms of what may exist throughout the multiverse, or universe, in case there is another Earth on the other side of the Universe or in a different galaxy. (It's possible). As far as I know, on a planet out there in the Twilight Universe, the naruto world could just be sitting and waiting to send their ninja aliens to swat some sparkly vamps. Either way, I needed a talent that could grow as I do, and allow me to surpass the limits that come with being born into such a weak species incapable of progression, as far as I know.
Luckily, the circumstances of my birth seem to mitigate a major part of this weakness. The stasis that all of the Twilight vamps are held in.
If I had to speculate, based on how my body is developing, and what my scans have told me instinctively, I will be able to grow for a period of time, until my natural growth completes, which according to the last film was at 25. Then, I will exist as the rest, a being in stasis. Though, one that still possesses a functioning biology.
Unacceptable.
My first thought is naturally, an adaptive physiology. One that can continuously grow, with the effort I put in, or the blood I drink, or the concepts with which I interact.
However, I cannot seem to form the basis for it.
My body cannot be without limits, it would seem, and the "talent" cannot be purely physical.
I need to think more deeply on what the talents have in common.
It seems, at their basis, that each of them are psychic, in nature. All based in the realm of the metaphysical, even when they touch the physical world.
I wonder how that function with the Egyptian, Benjamin I believe was his name. Elemental control was his game. How did his psychic ability translate to elemental control? No idea.
All in all, none of this seemed scientific. Therefore, I should stop attempting to work within the scientific method and just let my imagination run wild.
Yes, that will work.
I'll form several wants and needs and list them in order of priority, until I am able to settle on a path and go from there.
Once I decided to get a little imaginative, the matter became simple in its entirety.
I needed to be OP, naturally, while at the same time, capable of experiencing growth. And since I could not enhance myself physically, since vamps already possess photographic memories, as far as I could imagine, I settled on sticking with what had allowed me to function in the first place.
My spirit.
I thought about what I remembered of those who took themselves beyond the realm of possibility with nothing more than the metaphysical. Their minds capable of absolute nonsense.
First, I thought of Xavier and Jean Grey with their telepathy and telekinesis. Then, I thought of Aro with his memory scanning ability. Then, Jane. Then, Apocalypse. And from there, I went towards quantity in one body. I had to figure out a way to contain it. How to make myself the pillar, with multiple abilities. If Apocalypse was one thing, it was versatile. The only reason he lost, was because he was way too cocky. A swift death to his enemies would have ensured his victory. Clown. Though, a common occurrence among villains. Luckily, I'm definitely the hero of my story.
It all came down to the pillar.
A pillar capable of absorbing, and growing, while still maintaining its stability.
As much as I like myself to be incredibly imaginative, in the end, it all came down to one construct. One image, that is easily discerned.
So, upon firming my resolved and "feeling" it was possible due to its simple beginning, I started by forming the roots.
My "talent", while I could not "see" it per se, I could "feel" it. Intuitively.
It would not be until my mind was capable of containing my spirit self that I could truly form my first "talent". For now, I could only form the basis or outline.
The roots were constructed purely through my will. Were they energy constructs, soul constructs, or something else. Either way, they were metaphysical and purely within my spirit.
I stabilized them. Committed their existence to very sense of self. And then, I let it grow. Grow from the point at which the roots met, straight up, into a tall, mighty, stick.
It was only then, when I felt the construct meet a twinge of resistance, that I instantly pulled back.
It had already been a little over two weeks since I came into existence based on the words that I heard spoken as soon as I focused my attention back outside myself.
They seemed panicked.
I had expected it.
The panic that would ensue when they realized that Bella's body could not support my development. However, I'm certain it was far too soon.
My mind moved quickly, thinking of the possibilities, but it did not take long to reach a conclusion.
She needed blood in order for a "normal" child to develop accordingly.
I had reasoned that forming my "talent" would not take a toll on her body, since it was focused mostly on my spirit. That was the reason that I decided to wait until they identified our combined need for blood to work on altering my physical form in any way.
The chance that it could harm her or consume something of her, such as her energy or life-force, would be detrimental to us both, and while I could never truly respect their decision making, that did not mean that I wished the vegetarians harm. After all, as far as people went, they were some of the more desirable ones for me to be around in my defenseless state.
Harming the girl did not sit right with me.
However, it appeared I was careless in my reasoning.
Forming my "talent" in the way I wanted did indeed take something from her. She was weaker than she should have been, mostly because I was weaker, than I should have been.
I focused my mind, allowing myself to "feel" my talent the way I "felt" my body. Using my spirit to gain as much information as I could.
Then, I sensed it. Understood it. The connection that existed between my talent, the physical body, and the mental sense of self that is unique to each individual.
It all worked within one unit. Taking from one source. One essence.
That which sustains us.
When an individual becomes a vampire, their life-force is elevated and consolidated into a single state of being that allows no growth, nor decay.
Bella is not a vampire, therefore her life-force is exhaustible. I am constantly growing. My life-force constantly pulling essence from outside of me. Flowing into my body, mind, and spirit, at an incredible rate, due to my enhanced growth rate.
Based on what I sense, a normal human would intake life-force at a very slow rate, which allows the human host to intake enough life-force to sustain the growing fetus.
My spirit was taking this life-force in order to form the construct that would consolidate into my talent upon the formation of my body.
Bella could not provide the essence necessary for my intake.
Thus, she is growing weaker in body and spirit, despite her strong will.
Despite that, her need still remains the same.
She needs blood.
Human blood and all the life-force or essence that it holds. Preferably straight from the source, or tap, or vein. Choose your favorite wording.
My construct was already in its initial stages, but at its current state, it would not grow the way I desired.
I realized that could not be helped. I would need to adjust my plan. Pivot. Decisiveness is in my very nature.
I raked my brain for an answer. A possibility to consolidate a stable talent and save Bella.
Seconds it took to find my solution. Still in the same MCU realm and still quite powerful in the Twilight Universe.
Selene Gallio - Lifeforce absorption
{Maintain youth and immortality through the draining of life force. Control the victim's mind and turn them into psychic vampires liker her. Enhance physiology to superhuman levels. Telekinesis to affect surroundings. Force fields. Concussive blasts. Psionically generate and project Pyrokinesis. Control other sources of flame to magnify the heat or just snuff it out. Telepathy, along with the standard mind-reading and communicating through thoughts, is also capable of using psi-screen to shield the mind and mental bolts to cause intense pain to the mind of target to render them incapable or unconscious. Hypnotic trance. Astral projection. Regeneration.}
Those are some of the many abilities she was able to use through the manipulation of life-force.
Betting goes against my beliefs in a major way, however time was not on my side and it "felt" like I could consolidate life-force manipulation with the already mighty construct that I hade already composed. I would not need to break it down and rebuild. Only imprint the idea of life-force manipulation through the once solid roots and trunk that I had already formed to hold the branches that would have formed my numerous talents. Simple, elegant, practical, but most importantly, it would require no further siphoning.
Once that was done, I should be able to instinctually use psionic shields for the mind and telepathy, since those two abilities were already inherent to me.
The only question was, could I use it to do what needed to be done?
To let the Cullens know exactly what was required of them?
Especially since Jacob has still not had his borderline snarky thought that Edward could latch onto.
The question, could I do it?
The answer, probably.
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(A/N: Additional chapters are on patreon.com/TheGreatestHunter.)