When I get off the phone the lady had finished packing my gift for Jeremy in a paper bag then head to the car ready to go back home to meet Jeremy whose waiting for me.
Meanwhile Jeremy is waiting for me it's now 7:30 pm, he is sited on my bed looking through his phone so he gets bored and his eyes land on my diary which I had forgotten on top of my bed, he grabs it and starts reading it as it talks about my past and present life so as he reads my past life of high school with him, he smiles from ear to ear but he reaches my present life and his smile fades away on reading about me and Louis, then accepting him but before he reaches the part were I get to choose him over Louis, he gets annoyed and throws the diary in anger sits on the bed thinking of what he has just read before he gets up at once on my bed and jumping out of the window back to his home.
A few minutes pass and I arrive at home with happiness that I am gonna be with Jeremy before he leaves for France I enter the house and drop the keys on the kitchen counter and I head upstairs with Jeremy's gift ready to surprise him but I reach my bedroom door calling out his name, I hear no answer from him so I just think his maybe sleeping on my bed due to boredom.I decide to enter to surprise him but as I open the door I see no one in my room but I find the window open and my diary wide open in that moment I release that Jeremy was reading my diary and he now knows that I am dating Louis and at the same time with him I look with open eyes shocked and scared about my relationship with Jeremy. My heart beats fast as I come towards my bed I pick up the diary to see what he was reading, I see that he stopped on the part where I am praising Louis' body, I look confused and start thinking fast on what to do to fix this mess but it is too late because he had already gone home I was breathing heavily but I calm myself down by breathing in and out, it works the I pick up my phone and dial Jeremy's number but I was shaking all over, I call him his not picking up, so I try again but still no results and that's when I realize that my chance of talking and seeing Jeremy again were down the drain. No!! I en't giving up that easily so I drop the gift on the bed and run downstairs to go to his home but when I open the door my parents and brothers were standing there ready to knock so that meant that my chance of going to Jeremy's place was out. On seeing my parents I stand there shocked, scared, angry, sad with tears in my eyes flowing down my cheek then I fall down to my knees and start to cry because I know from there my relationship is over. My mom and dad pick me up and lead me back into the house on the sofa where I sit and continue crying, my parents sit on both sides of the sofa, giving me a hug to comfort me.
"What's wrong Laranie my dear? Why are you crying?" dad asks but I remain crying as I node my head in disapproval.
"Laranie, honey tell us what's wrong?"mom says, I remain silent as my crying get louder and heavier.
"Okay, if you don't want to tell us, it's fine just know we are here for you every step of the way"Dad says.
"I messed up big time"I finally say
"What did you do that you messed up with? mom asks
"I did something to Jeremy and now he is no longer my friend"
"Let me guess, he read you diary" I look at her in disbelief.
"So, you knew all along"
"Yes, I did I am your mom, you can trust me and your dad"
"Okay, I had gone to buy for him a going away gift but I forgot to pack my diary and he came through the window to meet me before he leaves but he never found me around so he texts me ( I show her the texts) and when I was at the mall in town, we agreed for him to wait for me as I come back form the mall but he accidentally finds my diary on the bed and reads it finding out that I am also dating Louis which annoys him and leaves before I could arrive, on going up stairs to see him I find the window open and so was my diary that's when I released that he read it and now he is annoyed at me, he might even end the relationship"I say and I burst out in tears again.
"What? When did this start?" dad asks
"Not now Nathaneal, she is hurt right now, you will ask her those questions later when everything is better"mom says.
And the worst thing of all he is leaving tomorrow for France and I don't know for how long he will be there and his not returning my calls nor my texts"I start to cry all over again.
"Oh..., honey don't worry about it you will surly meet him tomorrow before he leaves for the airport, Okay" mom says
"Mom, are you sure he is gonna talk o me?"
"If he truly loves you he with stop and listen to you explanation"
"Will he forgive me?" I ask
"I don't know, it's totally upon him to decide either to forgive you or not to"
When I hear that I begin to cry again on the sound he might not forgive me.
"No Laranie, please stop crying, you will fix everything before he goes to the airport"Dad says
"We will be there for you every step of the way Laranie just please stop crying" mom says
"Okay, thanks mom, thanks dad" I say as I wipe away the tears of my eyes. They both hug me and we go to the dinning table to eat dinner but although the dinner tasted nice to me it wasn't, after dinner I go upstairs to my bedroom and lock my door. I land on my bed and start to cry all over again as I look though my torn up diary that caused me all this problems, I start tearing it up again and throwing the papers on the floor and cry ever louder in my pillow then I suddenly hear a knock on the door, I wipe away any evidence that I was crying and open the door it was my brothers who had come to check up on me, I let them in ad their sit on my bed, right now any comfort works even the one of the poorest man on earth. I sit in between them
"Hi guys why are you here?" I ask, they both hug me and I begin to cry all over again
"Laranie, everything will be fine, we are all here for you" Joe says
'Yes, every step of the way" Justin says. I hug them both and just embrace them later wipe away my tears before saying.
"Thank you guys for supporting me"
Mom and dad enter in the room to comfort me.
"If you can't do anything about it, then let it go. Don't be a prisoner to things you can't change"mom says.
"When you finally let go something better will come along" dad adds.
This words were touching but had one problem is letting go of which I can't do, I can't let go of Jeremy but I would rather let go of Louis. After having a family hug they lie me to my bed and tag me in, they all give me a kiss on my forehead before switching off the lights when their close the door leaving the room full of darkness, I lie on my bed thinking of what to say to Jeremy to take me back telling myself I can't lose him, I slowly drift off to sleep waiting for what will happen tomorrow.