Jeremy is leaving at 6:00 pm in the evening. I feel someone touching me hearing a voice that I know saying.
"Laranie, my love"
I turn to see and it was Jeremy I hug him tightly not wanting to let go the he kisses me, I look deep into his eyes getting so lost in his crystal brown eyes.
"Jeremy, I am sorry"
"For what? he asks
"For hurting you"
"No matter what I will always be besides you"
"I love you Jeremy" I say
"I don't love you anymore" he says
When I get look at him his face full of anger and disappointment.
"You broke my heart" he says
"I never meant to"
"But you did"
"I am so sorry Jeremy please forgive me" I say
"I am breaking up with you"
"Jeremy No, please don't go"
"It's too late for that now"
He stands up walking away shutting the door behind him, I look at him as he walks away,tears build up in my eyes, when he shuts the door the tears flow like an open tap.I suddenly wake up with tears flowing down my cheeks I realize that it was just a nightmare. I look to my clock and it's 6:10 pm
"Shit!!" ten minutes have passed he might even have left already, I jump out of my bed just dress up in a sweat pant and a big bulky black shirt and red sneakers I rush out my room finding mom and dad sitting in the sitting room eating supper.
"Laranie, Are you okay?" Dad asks
"It's 6:10 pm, Jeremy is leaving for the airport so I got to go"
"Okay, go get your best friend and boyfriend back" mom says
"I love you mom, love you dad and thank you...."
I run out the door and go across to Jeremy's house I knock on the door and await for someone to open as my heart is beating fast then his sister opens the door.
"What are you doing here?" She asks with anger in her eyes
"Is Jeremy home?"
"Why should I tell you?
"Please help me I just want to make things right between us"I say while tears are flowing from my eyes and down my cheek, I look at her and I can see in her eyes that she has pity for me.
"He has just left ten minutes ago"
"Oh.... thank you so much"
I run across the road to my car to drive to the airport, the 'LONDON INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT' but it was some how far from home so I decide to take the short cut there which took me about five to six minutes to reach the airport.On arriving I burst though the door and look around as I go though security after my search I spot him leaving the rest room I run to him calling his name.
"Jeremy, Jeremy" I call and he turns to look at me but he looks away and he starts t walk away luckily I was somehow close to him.
"Jeremy, please wait"I say as I come close to him.
He then stops and looks at me as I approach him with an angry face. When I reach I first fetch mu breath before saying.
"Jeremy, I am sorry"
"Laranie..... enough I don't want to hear it"
"I know what I did was wrong but I choose you"
"Oh.... save it Laranie, the worst thing of all you said Yes without even telling me that you are dating Louis"
"I am sorry, I was going to break up with him"
"I read your diary praising him on how his body is sweet"
"But you haven't read the all of it"
"Why should I ?" he asks
"Because, I wrote about you, choosing you and breaking up with Louis:
"And when will you do that?"
"Tomorrow"
"You haven't yet broken up with him"
"I am"
"But you lied to me and worst of all you fucking cheated on me"he says
"I am sorry, please forgive me and we be together again"
"Laranie, I no longer want to be with you"
"Jeremy, What are you trying to say?"
"I am breaking up with you"
He walks away leaving me in a state of shock just looking at him, he gets his bags and boards the plane to France. I go to the window, to watch as the plane takes off and just like that his gone a million miles away from me. I look at the sky as dark as it is while tears flow down my eyes and I walk away to my car but immediately I get out the airport, it starts to rain making my day even worse, I run to my car dripping wet and drive off home it is a storm nut luckily I reached home safely, I felt like I want to fall in an accident but I pictured leaving my parents, brothers, my life for Jeremy and a heart break yet it's all my fault. I guess my mom and dad were right that I should let go of Jeremy if he no longer wants me, I park my car in the drive through and get out to enter home, On entering the house I find mom and dad sited on the sofa watching a movie, I enter dripping wet I look at them as they are laughing and holding each other taking me back to the time I have spent with Jeremy. Tears build up in my eyes and run upstairs to my bedroom I hear mom calling out for me.
"Laranie, Laranie" she calls
She looks at dad and she runs after me, I lock my room door and I sit on the floor back turned to the door and I start to cry then I hear a knock on the door and it was my mom.
"Go away"
"Laranie, dear can we talk about it?"
"Go away"
"Please Laranie let me come in"
I needed someone to comfort me so I stand up and wipe away my tears before I could open the door letting her in, She hugs me and I start o cry again.
"It's gonna be alright dear"
"Mom, I just can'y"
"Don't worry dear, I am here for you"
"Mom, why am I cursed?"
"No, honey you aren't cursed at all, you are a blessing to me, dad and your brothers"
"But not to Jeremy"
"No, he loves you but his just not in his right minds"
She leads me to my bed and covers me in my towel trying to make me warm because I was shivering.
"Okay, tell me all what happened" she says as she wipes away my tears from my eyes.
"I first went to his place but found his sister who was mean to me but later told me that he had left ten minutes before I went to their home, so I reached the airport using the short cut when I arrived at the airport I found him coming from the rest room when he saw me, he ignored me at first but later accepted to listen to me so I try to explain to him and I said sorry but it was making it worse, he then tells me he no longer wants to be with me and he breaks up with me" After telling her what happened, I burst into a flood of tears, mom hugs me and dad comes in later also hugging me.
"Life does not always give you what you want. if you make mistakes learn from them and never force love it comes naturally" he says
"Thank you for supporting me, I love you all" I say as I hug them
"You will be okay honey, take a bath, change your clothes and come down for dinner okay"
"Okay" I say as I node my head
When they leave, I wipe away my tears and head to the bathroom to take a bath as I am in the bathroom I am taken back to the moments when I am with Jeremy and tears start flowing all over again when I felt like I couldn't cry anymore I head to dress up wearing grey sweat pants and a black shirt and I head down stairs for dinner, when I reach the dinner room I see mom has prepared my favorite Chinese rice with a side of chicken, greens on the side just to cheer me up but I felt like I never wanted to eat, I just force myself, dad would try to make a joke or two to cheer me up but it couldn't work, I would pretend by smiling from time to time but later look down to my food playing around with it.
"Laranie, are you okay?" mom asks
"Yeah, I am fine"
"Why aren't you eating?
"No, I am eating" I say as I put food into my mouth forcing myself to eat.
"Okay, hope you are fine?"
"Yeah, I am fine don't worry about it"
After dinner I go upstairs to my bedroom bit these time I didn't lock the door so I enter my bed and cover myself, just lie there on my bed thinking about me and Jeremy, this time tears turn into anger, I become angry and start beating up the pillow when I got tired I just slept on the bed and then I start thinking of Louis that my relationship is still there and I got happy again not knowing the worst was to come.