"It was nice meeting you finally."
"Wh-what?" I ask turning back in shock. My eyes are wide open, and I am not even trying to hide the utter shock. He slightly chuckles and rubs his hand on the back of his nape, he is nervous.... why? I am getting more nervous and panicked but I don't know how to react when he says,
"I am your big fan actually. And I have been waiting for the longest time to meet you. So.... It's nice to finally meet you." It's times like these I feel glad to have a mask and cap covering my face because I can feel my face flushed. I am relieved he didn't recognize me and am embarrassed for overreacting. I nod my head once and slightly bow it to show my gratefulness. What can I do? Being an Asian, bowing is more like a cultural habit and though I am trying to lessen it because I am in America now, it defines me, so I can't help. Sam slightly bows his head too as I finally turn my heels and leave with Anna.
As I am sitting in the car, I can't help but remember the earlier moments with Sam. I don't want to think about it. I hate him. I hate him for leaving. I just hate him. But why is he still the same? Still soft, calm, and respectful. Why did it have to end? Why did he have to leave? If only he hadn't left. If only he hadn't left, then...
"Why are you crying? Is everything alright?"
I hear Anna as I look at her confused. "What?" She brings her hand forward and wipes something off my cheeks.... tears? I didn't even realize. Anna looks at me worried, but I give her a smile.
"You know you can't hide anything from me." She says with a stern face when I again wear my cap and mask. "It's nothing. Don't worry." She holds my hand in a comforting gesture and doesn't say anything anymore. By the time we reach my apartment, it starts to rain. And I am glad that at least something good happened today. It's drizzling right now, maybe it will hail later though.
"Take care and call me whenever you want to." I nod at her. "I will. Let me know of my schedule for tomorrow." She nods and giving me a goodbye hug leaves in the car as I go inside. Instead of going through the lift, I take the stairs since there is rarely anyone using those. My apartment is on floor 70 and there are a total of 80 floors of this building. It's insane and I love it because there is even a big rooftop. And that's where I am headed right now. I need to go to Rooftop after a bad day, as a little girl goes to her mom. And it's raining today which is a cherry on top for relieving my stress. As I keep ascending, I remove my mask, cap, and overcoat. I can feel the rain getting heavier because of the sound as I increase my pace, reaching the rooftop, I spread my arms and let myself get soaked completely. I let the rain wash away all my worries and let it flow through me entirely. The smile never leaves my face as I feel free. No fear of anyone spotting me because no one knows me. I may be famous, but I am still unknown. The whole world may know me but at the same time, not even one person knows me. Maybe no one will ever really know me completely. Maybe I am meant to be alone. The rain hides my tears as I smile widely. I don't need anyone. I will be fine with the rain, the rooftop, my songs, and my memories.
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