Walking down the stairs and out of our block, I decided to take a walk, it was easy to hide the stench of alcohol because I didn't get to drink a lot.
And I lied a lot in the game, I can't tell them stories of how my dad... Well you know the rest, the atmosphere suddenly went chill.
It was already dark out a storm was seeing in the floods, the sound of thunder crashing and a few more disturbing sounds, I hated thunderstorms.
I could feel a panic attack building up, I lost track of where I was going, taking a couple of next turns i ended up in the middle of a block I have never been to.
"Shit, damn it" The rain was about to start pouring, I could feel the rain droplet grazing my skin the cold was making my toes curl.
Moving backwards towards a shed, I sat in front of the block, it was apparently block 67 or 57, I couldn't see, laying my head on my knees, I was way drunk than I thought, I could feel myself getting drowsy.
"Is she lost it maybe her boyfriend broke up with" I heard whispers above me, wide awake now, I stayed still listening to their conversations.
Why the hell does their voice sound awfully familiar, that was weird considering how I haven't been here for a week yet.
Giving up I raised up feeling a bit better the rain was still pouring and it was hard to navigate so I stayed out of it, "I know you, you are that disrespectful 100 level"
I snapped my head towards the dougebag I met a few days ago, shit I cursed inwardly, I have to keep my cool. "I wasn't disrespectful I was stating facts.
He hissed at me taking a step, "Are you trying to scare me because it's not working" I stayed rooted faking a confidence I don't have right now.
"Wow she does have a bladder mouth, we should teach her how to talk to her seniors" the other boy leaning on the rail said nodding towards me.
I laughed, it was funny he was trying to be intimidating but right now he looks so stupid, I tilted my eyes trying to make out faces but it was too dark.
Fuck I hate my night blindness, "I'm leaving now this shit show just got boring" Turing my back to leaving I got pulled back and slammed right into the wall.
"Damn it the fuck is your problem!" I winced as my vision turned blurry, "You are right someone needs to shoe her how to talk to elders" I pushed him off of me but he was ridiculously strong and I was drunk and tipsy.
Feeling past memories crawl up into my mind, I stared to see red and glassy vision, The lil bitch real of alcohol, didn't you mother teach you anything at all?"
I spat on her face giving me a leverage, he was taken aback by my action I bolted for the exist, he tried to catch me but I was already wet by the rain so he only tore the arm of my hoodie off.
Running after me I took a few turns, the wrong few turn and ending up out if the hostel area, my inside were burning despite the rain and their footsteps was still very loud.
Crashing into someone, "Oh my I'm so sorry" Pushing past the person I got pulled back into a corner as the wet hand shut my lips from frantically breathing.
I heard their footsteps pass us, we remained like this in the dark for a while, before he finally let me go, " What the hell is a girl doing her by this freaking time are you planning on getting raped or you just a freaking retard"
Why do I recognize his voice?, Looking into the dark as I felt my wet clothes cling to my body, "I got lost looking for my hostel and they started to chase me"
The voice scoffed pulling me forward " I guess you are a retard then, What hostel block"
Yeah I know you are shocked.
Where is the sacarsm right, he just insulted me, but I was traumatized with the very fact I could relive my past if those guys has caught up with me.
So I'm scared as hell right now.
"Block ** " We walked in silence as the heavy rain reduce to drizzling he didn't utter a word and I was too shaken to say anything.
The view if my block came into the picture, "Next time anything like that happens run towards your hostel security guard or the quarters, they wouldn't try to chase you, not out of the safety"
He sounded pissed off this was my life the fuck is he angry about, " Yeah sure, thank you for helping me" At this point the sacarsm was dripping in my voice.
He scoffed walking away his face still hidden under the black face cap the face macks and the black hoodie, I tilted my head towards his retreating figure, hiding my shaky hands.
I could feel the fear building up, walking up the stairs, I walked into my room, the tears was falling freely now, I couldn't stop.
Everyone was asleep already, knocked out from the alcohol, I was used to deal with my attacks aline so this was no big the deal, the problem was I want to cry and make a shit loaf of screaming but I couldn't.
Walking I to the bathroom, I gave into the tears as the wounds I had tucked away were freshly opened, and the fear was consuming me.
Striping out if my clothes I had a long warm bath, crying all through it, if anything I was sober right now and the fear was building by every minute.
Walking to my first aid pills I took my sleeping meds, I haven't needed this in a while but it was either this or I won't shut up.
Eventually I finally felt drowsy changing into my pajamas, I walked to my bed with was occupied by Ajoke, I payed next to her, she didn't even bulge.
I slept like a baby, the pills knocked me out and also helped me avoid nightmares, the girls left me to sleep waking up to an empty room.
I sighed it was 12 noon already, and my hangover was not as annoying as I expected it was bearable and tomorrow was the dreaded matriculation ceremony, having my bath the memories of last night felt like a nightmare as the effect had already being to wear of.
I applied my skin care routine, decided to go with a back Boody con top, paired with a blue baggy sweatshirt and a black joggers I put on a pair of black stockings and I left my wardrobe, I claimed back into bed feeling a loss of appetite loom over me.
Picking out my phone out, I scrolled through Instagram I was feeling the loss of interest in things so fast, Switching apps to Call of duty mobile I kept getting killed so I gave up.
I needed a distraction and I needed one fast, my anxiety is killing me and it's just the strat if the day, I decided to go for a walk, that idea was canceled out by the frantic beating of my heart as I turned the door know bo go outside.
"Well shit!" I punched my hands into the wall feeling a sharp pain as my finger collided with the hard surface of the wall, I winced Sliding down to the door
My hands already have a dark shade around the area, it was bruised, "Where the hell did the girls go?" Walking up I looked around my eyes landed on a note on the stand, it was a stick-it note.
Hey love, we did want to wake you, there's some aspirin on the table, we went out to get supplies and drop Niniola off at the clinic, there is breakfast for you in the kitchen, safe word is Xoxo Bitches.
What the hell is a safe word, leaving the note on the stand I grabbed the pack of aspirin taking two tablets I walked towards the kitchen.
Grabbing my breakfast it was toast bread, I wasn't hungry if anything I was nauseated, keeping it back I decided to take a cup of coffee.
Going back to bed, the pills effect made me sleep in no time, "Tell me this girl woke up to do something" Aj's voice wheeled me back to reality, but I stayed still under the covers.
"What the it's 3 pm, who sleeps this much?" Niniola scoffed sitting next to me tapping my shoulders lightly, I finally opened my eyes.
"I woke up to do somethings and I went back to sleep, I also had a cup of coffee so I'm not hungry. "Here eat this and don't argue" Ajoke gave me a pack of food I had no idea what was in it yet.
" Seriously come in, it was coffee" I felt all eyes glare at me, "Don't argue" Reluctantly pulling the lid of the plate I decided to eat something.
"What the hell is a safe word?" That was the first question I could think off.
"Oh yeah we forgot, it's a new word we kept for the day so went you are out and something wants to happen text us or call us and say the safe word and we will come get you". "Oh". Was all I could utters as Niniola explained what a safe word was to me.
"I just need you to share your location with us and keep it on always, that way it will be easier"Ajoke added. I nodded, and went back to eating my food, I guess I got hurgry after all.
My mind flashed back to last night,"When did the boys leave?" I asked I noticed Ajoke face drop a little, I wonder what that was about I'll ask her later.
"They left this morning" Teslima answer through the kitchen, " oh okay, AJ can I talk to you for a sec" I pulled Ajoke to the side.
"Did you remember anything at all from last night?" She smiled, "Not really" it was a really obvious lie, "Drop the act, do you?"
She finally gave in nodding, "But he doesn't?" She nodded also, "Are you going to tell him?" I was starting to lose a little interest In the conversation.
"Nope don't need to, it was just a drunk mistake, no biggie" she tapped my shoulder walking into the bathroom, " a last night was a blur, I can't remember anything at all"
Niniola landed back on her bed with a smile on her face, "Same here"Ajoke lied, "Me neither" Teslima was definitely telling the truth.
"I don't remember anything either" I just had to lie, Ajoke and I locked eyes I gave her a sly smile, she chuckled shaking her head.
The rest of the day was a blur, it was night and we were about to prepare for our matriculation ceremony with was tomorrow, I want to change me mind but I fear it's too late...