I woke up with all kind of pains in mentionable and unmentionable places. I looked dazed at my watch. Judging by the light through the window, it was already dusk. Yes, it was 8 p.m. I stayed in bed a little longer without moving. Not wanting to move a muscle anymore.
After a while, I rolled over my body till I collided with him. He was lying on his back with his pale and naked hairless chest and his shirt on, unbuttoned just till half his chest. I leant my elbow on the pillow to stare at him closely. He was beautiful and we together looked like twins. Our blond hair almost the same colour, same skin, snub noses.
I've driffted in and out of sleep after his last "assault". I fell in a deep sleep to waking up startled just some minutes later, with my heart racing. So I was dizzy and had a headache. I got up from bed struggling and saw the floor filled with our clothes. Among the folds of the sheets it appeared the tiny and ridiculous shred of my lace panties.
I blushed as I held it in my hands and recalled everything. I wasn't yet ready to analyze it and much less to put the blame on myself.
From the moment his lips devoured mine in that first attack and he grabbed me tight not letting my legs bent with the surprise, he owned me wildly and irrevocably. He did everything and did it right while I became whatever material he wanted me to be for his purposes. I surrendered completely to that sweet and healing rage.
I think there were four times or rather, four attacks. I got to have an orgasm. Just one and a half. I couldn't describe it. That unbearable wave was so fast and his sexy and satisfied smile played it down to a large extent.
While I was putting away my wrecked underwear and I put it on a new one, I remembered there was not only a condom in that struggle. I ran to the bath with my skin crawling, grabbing my phone.
My God, it's the second time I have sex with someone. And the previous time was four years ago and compared with this, it was like playing cards.
I knew it would come this. After my body pains which let me bending myself with a silly and satisfied smile, after that beautiful blond wild animal's body that now looked so appeased, after being aware of I made him happy at last and I was free clearly from negative energy. After all this, they must came the remorses.
I didn't regret that drummer would have used my body as though it was a dough. Sex was good, so good. But there was two clear things: 1) we should use protection and 2) this turn of events was getting everything real messy. Didn't Fooling want me to heal him? Well, I've healed him. I've healed him so well he must have no scars at all.
Roger might sleep like a log. After that battle among the sheets, a man could sleep 24 hours without waking up. What did I talk about? What did I know about men? I didn't know most of the things that, that naughty boy had made to my body. It was the right time to speak with Fooling. I didn't know what would happen from now on.
It's been some time till he saw my whatsapp and I became restless. Now I needed him so much. I was on the verge of collapsing with all that mess of emotions. The lack of sleep, the tiredness, the guilt, the recurrent feeling that I wasn't a good professional anymore.
Through the mirror I looked at my reflection. I had my inmaculate skin, if there was left something inmaculate in my body, filled with the relentless marks of his lips and teeth. I watched the wreacked havoc left in every secret part of my anatomy with a new blush and an unexpected lash of desire which impressed me.
At last my phone rattled. I rushed at it falling noisely to the washbasin. Ash, stop making noise. We don't want to wake up the lion. I read with madly eyes what Fooling said.
- Then you've healed him.
- Fooling, you should imagine how I am. Leave aside the jokes.
- Ok. I want to be assured that, that blond hadn't raped you.
- Fuck, no. It has been too much... Well, I've written you down the essential in my report.
It wasn't an extensive coverage of all. He knew the important part.
- Black, it's just sex...
- Really? I didn't find out.
- I mean that...
- We've made it with no condom, Fooling. What if I get pregnant? I haven't had sex in 4 years and now look at me. I feel stiff in parts I didn't ever feel stiff, my skin looks all reddened, my underwear in rags.
- You should buy you a little less clothes in Biba and pay attention to supply you with preservatives.
- I didn't think of fucking anybody, goddamit. What should I do? I'm going to the nearer chemist to catch a pregnancy test.
- It's not working that way. Those tests can detect the pregnancy hormone fifteen days after the conception. You can risk to a false negative.
- My God, we've made it four times and I bet Roger is more fertile than the Nile.
- We won't raise that issue while we haven't got empirical data.
- It's easy to say in 2020. Tell me what I gotta do, I have a breakdown.
- When are you getting your period?
- It's 4th... 8th.
- Are you regular?
- Like clockwork.
- The ideal would be do it from the first day when your period is late.
- I can't wait so long. I'm dying with distress.
- Go to the chemist and catch the predictor and by the way a comdon box. No, you might buy two.
- Fooling, you are not funny. Didn't you tell me those tests aren't reliable with so little time?
- Go and do it. And you should go to the doctor. He's the only one to tell you reliably if there's pregnant or not.
- It wasn't my intention. I deserve a scolding for being such a thoughtless.
- Well you are, you have been a little crazy. But I can't judge you from here. Your acts sure have full justification.
- If I get pregnant the mission is going to hell. And if I don't, too. It is not an encouraging prospect.
Fooling was right. The first thing I must do was finding out and then acting. It was useless suffering too soon. The test would only serve to take away the fright but I should confirm it.
- Eli! May you let me in? I have to pee.
- Yes, right away.
The wild animal was awake. I rushed to hide my phone at the hollow of a little cabinet. I opened the door and faced directly with his beautiful sleepy face. He said to me good morning, kissing my lips with his half open eyes.
- It's almost half past eight in the evening -I announced him with half a smile.
- Well good evening -and he kissed me again, smiling.
I was leaving him with his own business but he kept me there. With a hand he pointed his dick to the toilet and with the other threaded his fingers on mine over the washbasin. Fucking crazy. Couldn't he let me go while he was peeing? While the operation "I'm starting to pee but I don't know when I stop" lasted, I torn away my gaze, awkward, rubbing my forehead with my fingers nervously. At last the flow stopped.
He let go of my hand and he washed them delicately looking at himself at the mirror. He hasn't anything to watch. He looked amazing and his messed hair like a puppy lion couldn't looked sexier. It was funny how after those four shags, Roger had won a stratospheric dimension to my eyes and I must calm down my enthusiasm as much as possible.
- Your scratching look worse every time, babe.
So he was watching that at the mirror. The scratch I made him on his chin. Yes, it was obviously my fault it didn't heal properly. I think I bit him eagerly. I can't remember when, the third or fourth "siege".
- Forgive me, I lost control some hours ago. I didn't mean biting you.
- Hmmm -he growled frowning not satisfied with my explanations and wrapping his strong hands around my naked waist.
- If we are comparing I come off worse.
- Are you saying because of this? -he pointed out with his index finger the swelling under my chin licking with his tongue-. This one? -he licked again on the right side of my neck-. Let's see this...
He lowered my collar bone till my breasts and drawing apart my bra's fabric, he watched them once more. He kissed one nipple and then the other to cover them again.
- All in its place -he informed me with a smile.
His hand placed on my panties and I slapped it away with half nervous smile.
- No, please. Stay away from my panties.
I have emptied out Honey Pie and I had lingerie for two lifes but I didn't want this crazy passionate and moody human being would finish off all my beautiful catalogue.
- I'm sorry, I lost my mind completely -Roger admitted not letting go of my ass underneath my panties.
- Rog... -I drew his hand apart, gently.
- I've been wanting you so long.
Poor little thing, he's been wanting me a mere four days. Time scales to rock stars, that could translate into four years.
- Well you already had me. Are you satisfied?
- Babe, what do you want to tell me?
- You've got me four times. You've explored me from all the angles. Now, can we just be friends?
- I'm not getting you...
I started to dress myself before Roger's watchful eye and frown. I didn't want to disturb him again but I must starting to test the water as best as I could.
- We've weathered the sexual tension, we've weathered all. That's what I'm saying.
- Girl, you are very weird -he put a smile on his lips and I escaped a relief sigh-. Come here and stop dressing. You can touch my tension if you like.
- No, Roger. Not more sex.
- What? You must be joking.
- For the time being, baby. Let me recover myself -I caressed his chin and touched consciously with my nail that injured chin and he let out an "auchh".
- You are the sexiest woman I've ever slept with, did you know?
- Liar.
- I'm not lying. You are so beautiful and you have such a body... I don't know... so eatable...
I burst into laughter without helping. The guys used to say amazing things just to get one more shag.
- Roger, you've been bossing around so long. Since you drove me to the hotel you've been ruling the situation. Let me be the boss now.
- Alright. Do you want me tied up? Do you want to give a good spanking? -he wrinkled his nose opening his big eyes-. Fine, it's alright with me. I love that.
- Let's put the sex aside now, ok?
- Don't be a killjoy.
- I'm telling you what we're going to do. I've just remembered I've met Mary to have some pints at Hawk 76 after work. In fact we've met at Biba when she finish work. Thanks to you I've just walked out on her and that's someting I can't stand. Failing her.
- There's still time. We can meet them to have a drink...
- No, I'd rather you go and apologized to Mary on my behalf.
- Ok. You don't want they see us together and draw rushed conclusions. What's wrong with that?
- I'm not your girlfriend, Roger. I'm not either a groupie searching easy sex with her idols. I want to make that clear to you.
- You've made it very clear.
- Sure? You have a sort of problem with that groupie concept. Maybe you've met so far just a kind of woman stuck to that role but I'm not getting into any mould...
- Eli...
- Wait, I've had sex with you because I think I needed so much as you did. If not, I've never had allowed you to touch me. Is that clear to you too?
- I've made love to you four times, babe. I control the body language, don't I?
- Having said that I'd prefer noone in Queen enviroment knows anything about this, ok? You know you're euphoric and you would like to tell the boys you've fucked me four times but shut it up, do it for me. Could you?
- Oh, you're killing me. What do you want me to do?
- Go to Hawk and apologize to Mary for stand her up.
- Don't you think if I tell her we've been fucking like crazy she would understand it perfectly?
- Yes, she would understand it but I wouldn't like it. Can you respect that?
- What kind of stupid and believable lie would you like me to tell her?
- We've made up, we are friends again and I don't want the word sex appear at any moment. Tell her we lost all track of time and that's why I forgot our meeting.
- It doesn't sound believable, it sounds quite ridiculous. And I'm going without you if we are such a great friends.
- It embarrases me stand her up. I respect her too much. I have no strenght to face her.
- Really?
- I know standing up is very usual for you...
- Oh, don't be scornful now.
- You can understand. Standing up someone waiting is such a lack of respect. I still recall how bad they tasted those peanuts and I kept eating them.
Now I laughed thinking about it and Roger pulled his arms lovingly around me kissing my smile time and time again.
- But I didn't do it on purpose. It was a lapse like yours today. Wasn't it?
- Of course.
- Wouldn't be a better idea you explain to Mary?
- No, Roggie. Do me that favour. When I have the courage I'll tell it myself. Today I can't. Will you do me that favour?
I blinked twice and pouted my lips and everything that I came up with. There was no need. I've won his heart.
- Alright. But this means I'm not going to see you anymore today.
- My plans are different -I threw him a glance which intended to be meaningful.
- Which are your plans? -he cracked a wide smile and his eyes shone pleasantly.
- I'm not going to tell you. I just want you having some pints with them and don't get drunk too much because I'm waiting for you. Here, I'm not moving.
- Are you serious?
I think Roger still didn't believe I was his so easily. I nodded slowly while caressed his long blond sideburns covered with his long hair.