Chapter 5 - Addiction

Addiction… Whether it is alcohol, a woman, drugs or anything. An addiction to any one of these can shatter your life into a million pieces but imagine if you are addicted to all these types of addiction. The one you cannot come out of forever and ever and ever. Leaving you inside an empty void of darkness. ​This story is about a man who lost everything but lived his life to the fullest because of addiction. The one and only Max who lost his life on the former but lived his life to the extent which no one can do or most of the people miss doing in their life. He was the one who lived his life to the fullest but was not able to live his life like the people around him demand him to be. ​Max was one of the brightest kids in his high school and everything was great in his life until he crossed paths with Michelle in his life which changed his life to a different level. It was like he was completely onto her, he was just addicted to her and does not know what he must do in order to come out of that. ​It all started with a baseball match where he met Michelle. Though she was from the same school they did not cross paths until that day. In the last five minutes of the match, the kid on the striker's end wanted to hit a home run which was on the way to strike on Michelle fortunately Max saved her from that incident by catching the ball as he was sitting next to her. But both of them were so different that they were not able to talk like normal. And from that moment Max thought that they shared a magical bond but things were not the same as his life was on the edge of being fucked up. ​Things were great in the beginning, right after the game Michelle was there right next to Max to thank him for saving her from the ball. Still she was a bit shy in talking with him but that was not the case with Max. He was just a free spirit guy so he asked her out for dinner which Michelle did not accept in the beginning. ​But Max convinced her by sharing his interests and how he felt about her. ​Max was on cloud nine and did not know what he was saying. It was all from his heart nothing from his brain and so he was not able to think about anything, it was just spontaneous. Max was like, "Hey Michelle, just once, this once, give me a single chance to prove myself. I don't know what to say, we would make the perfect couple according to me. Just think about it Michelle. Just once. However I will be waiting at the diner by seven hoping that you will be coming there. Don't tell that right now whether you are coming or not. Let me just have it at the evening. I like this kind of feeling, it feels kinda new and different." ​Michelle was just stunned and don't know what to say after hearing out Max it was just magical. However she managed to utter something but Max stopped her from saying that as he liked this new kinda feeling. ​"Hey Michelle I don't want to hear out your decision. I will be waiting for you at the diner you may decide if you are coming or not but if you are having a thought of going out with me, it would be the best day of my life. I will be waiting for you and this is my number. Just give me a call when you arrive there or don't. I can find you when you arrive there. Waiting for you at the diner girl." ​"Okay max hope you get what you want." ​Both of them were ready to meet making some new turns in their life. But that was not the complete story as no story ends completely good or completely bad. It is just the mix of things, the good and the bad mixed together to make the best life. ​At the evening Max was waiting for Michelle in his car in front of the diner. He was damn sure that Michelle would be meeting her for sure and that was the exact thing that happened. Michelle came to the diner and was searching for Max. They were so happy on meeting each other, they ordered their favorite food in the diner and talked for hours without knowing that time was passing by. ​Time was working different there and it was the happiest day of their life. Max just imagined a whole lifetime with her on the first day of their meeting. But that was the thing which was going to happen. Things took a way worse turn which shattered Max in a way that Max would not even imagine. ​After completing the dinner Michelle was about to leave as her house was nearby she was ready to leave by foot. ​"Thank you for this night Max it was the best day of my life. I enjoyed it a lot and even cried from laughing too hard Max. I hope this day never ends and I want to re live this day again and again until eternity." ​"I hope the same Michelle but that is not going to happen. So we can re-create this day by living together for a lifetime Michelle." ​"Come on Michelle I will drop you at your house, it is nearby right." ​"No problem Max my house is nearby I will just walk by." ​"Just come on Michelle get in the car I will drop you off at your house. It's not a big deal." ​But this best day of their life is going to end once and for all. Max took his car from the parking and got in front of the diner for picking up Michelle. While Michelle trying to get in the car. In an instance a truck crashed on the spot where Michelle was standing. At an instance their dreams were shattered into a million pieces. ​Michelle was on her final minutes counting her life's final seconds. Max was out of his mind and does not know what to do. He could not digest what just occurred. It took him seconds to realize what happened and once he came to know that Max ran to Michelle and screamed for help, asking people to call the ambulance. But before the arrival of the ambulance Michelle was dead and Max was shattered. He took her arms and called her name again and again hoping that she will come back to life. ​But the paramedics from the ambulance informed Max after checking Michelle saying, "I am so sorry, but we are unable to bring her back to life. She is gone forever and there is no coming back. You have to stay strong man." ​Max's life and his hopes were just shattered and do not know what to do without Michelle being in her life. After the death of Michelle, Max was shattered into million pieces and does not know what to do so that he can come out of the situation. He even got thoughts like killing the one who killed Michelle by accident had just gotten out of the jail. ​Max went to see him after his return from the jail but couldn't do what he was supposed to do as the truck driver was being in love with a girl. Seeing this Max left the place as he does not want the truck driver's partner to suffer the same loss as he did. After this he does not have any responsibility and he does not know what to do after this. Entering into this phase was different and Max was just out of feelings. ​So he wanted to be a refugee into something but he was just a refugee in the memories of Michelle and nothing more. ​So he got into something which can make him forget his pain rather than forgetting Michelle which was alcohol. He started intoxicating himself with alcohol and drugs which took him into a different phase of life that he had never experienced before. ​Then he left everything behind, his intelligence, sports, dreams and life. Now his life is shittier than before. He does not know what to do as his life was just shit without Michelle however Max had the most beautiful memories that he and Michelle made together nothing else. Days after days passed, months passed and years passed eventually he started losing consciousness slowly he lost track of his time, he started forgetting things, he started losing the memories they made together. ​He even had several near death experiences and lost his shit over time. He even had several blackouts which even lasted for days. Whatever it is the only thing he had in his mind was Michelle and the only day they spent together and nothing else, it was the only thing he had, has and will have forever and ever and ever. ​In his late forty's, he started losing his consciousness slowly and does not know what he is doing. He started forgetting things quickly and couldn't keep track of things happening around him. He started sleeping on streets and breaking into others' houses without knowing where he was living. But in his head when he was high on alcohol and drugs, he just had Michelle and her thoughts. And that was degrading slowly because of his blackouts. He just had one day with her but still it was worth million days but eventually it was depleting in his mind. One day while breaking into a house without his consciousness, the owners called the police. Max was arrested but seeing his condition the cops took him to a hospital admitting him to the ER. ​After analyzing the results of Max the doctors concluded that Max has been diagnosed with alcohol amnesia. But he couldn't take that however the cops and doctors sent him to his house. ​However Max was not ready to go down like that with alcohol amnesia forgetting everything he ever lived for. So he decided to die his own way and collected all the drugs in his house so that he can die from the over dosage of drugs. But his life had other plans, because of years of intoxication from alcohol and drugs the over dosage did not kill him. Now again in his life he does not know what to do. But he did not leave it there the next day he took triple the times a person can overdose himself by drugs. Finally he died and joined hands with the love of his life Michelle. ​Life always fucks you up by taking the most favorite person from your life so that it can shatter you into million pieces but it is on you, you have to fight for what you want.