Mental pain is the most fucked up thing in a person's life as it shatters all of your other feelings into million pieces leaving you to just live your life rather than enjoying your life. All these stories are connected with mental pain and depression. Whether it is a failure, empty pockets, broken relationships, heartbreaks, physical pain and addiction everything ultimately leads to mental pain and stress. What if a person gets all these problems in a single fucking life, then it would be the most fucked up life ever. Zach Parker was one of this kind who got all these problems in his one fucking life. Zach was just a normal guy until his life took way worse turns of fucking him up. The first fucked up thing in his life was heartbreak and broken relationships. He was in love with Hannah Morgan from his childhood, the very first time he saw her, and he fell for her. But Hannah did not feel the same for him rather she broke his heart into million pieces and fucked up his life. Things were great in the beginning Zach met Hannah during a baseball match and fell for her at the first sight. Though they were in the same grade they were onto each other for a long time until the time wanted to unite them during the baseball match. During a crucial moment of the match the home team wanted a home run, fortunately they got a home run but this was the point in time that made them live together. Zach wanted to ask her out on a date but they both were not ready to talk about this to each other as they were both shy and Zach felt awkward asking her out on their first meeting. However Zach convinced Hannah by sharing his interest in her and how he felt about her. He was on cloud nine and did not know what he was saying, it was all from his heart nothing from his brain he was madly in love with her. Zach asked her out by saying, "Hey Hannah, just once, this once, give me a single chance to prove myself. I don't know what to say, we would make the perfect couple according to me. Just think about it Hannah. Just once. However I will be waiting at the diner by seven hoping that you will be coming there. Don't tell that right now whether you are coming or not. Let me just have it in the evening. I like this kind of feeling, it feels kind of new and different." Hannah was just stunned hearing out Zach. However she managed to utter something but Zach stopped her from saying that as he liked this new kind of feeling. "Hey Hannah I don't want to hear out your decision. I will be waiting for you at the diner you may decide if you are coming or not but if you are having a thought of going out with me, it would be the best day of my life. I will be waiting for you and this is my number. Just give me a call when you arrive there or don't. I can find you when you arrive there. Waiting for you at the diner girl." At the evening Zach was waiting for Hannah in his car in front of the diner. He was damn sure that Hannah would be meeting her for sure and that was the exact thing happened. Hannah came to the diner and was searching for Zach. They were so happy on meeting each other, they ordered their favorite food in the diner and talked for hours without knowing that time was passing by. Time was working different there and it was the happiest day of their life. Zach just imagined a lifetime with her on the first day of their meeting. But that was the thing which was going to happen. Things took a way worse turn which shattered Zach in a way that Zach would not even imagine. After completing the dinner Hannah was about to leave as her house was nearby she was ready to leave by foot. That is when Zach decided to drop her at her house in his car, so he asked her to wait at the diner while he can get his car from the parking. And that is when their life took way worse turns because of his friend Tyler asked him about the bet about Hannah to make her fall for Zach but now Zach was really in love with her. For his bad time Hannah was standing behind his car and heard everything Zach and Tyler were speaking. However Zach was loving her for real this time and fought with Tyler for saying that in front of her. Though Zach was fighting with Tyler Hannah just heard the thing Tyler said and missed seeing the bigger picture. Zach tried to convince Hannah by saying the truth but Hannah was not ready to hear him out. "I can explain Hannah, just hear me this once. I can explain why I did this Hannah. "What are you going to explain Zach? It is all done, I just can't take it anymore, and I am just fucked up. "That was before Hannah, I am truly in love with you now. I just need you Hannah. I just don't know if I can live without you anymore." "I am just fed up with things Zach and I am not ready to listen to you anymore. Good bye Zach, once and for all. Don't ever disturb me again." "Hannah… Hannah… Just wait, don't leave me." But Hannah left Zach anyway and he was unable to do anything regarding that as it was his fault in the first place. Now he was just out of this league after getting a heartbreak and a broken relationship. However his life did not just leave him right there and had more things to fuck him up. However life will have both good and bad in it, likewise Zach got into Boston university with a good scholarship which he wanted his whole life. Though he had into one of the biggest university and had intelligence like one of the greatest minds of the country. He could not say this to his family but to work harder until getting fucked up. However Zach was good at what he does but with empty pockets his life was just fucked up. Still he was trying hard but things were still harder in the west side. Due to his shitty life he finally turned to be an alcoholic and a womanizer with his life going down to hell and further. He was alone and separated himself from the south side and had not picked up calls from his family. He was alone with a shit load of problems around him and on his head it was just his fucked up life going around again and again. He could not concentrate on his studies anymore and his grades were down. But that is when he fell in love with a professor who he thought was a student. He starts flirting with her without knowing that she is a professor, eventually he came to know that Kimmy was a professor but still he was into her. Kim was happy for him too. Though Zach's life was fucked to the core but still Kimmy was the only hope in his shitty life. Still his grades were down though Kimmy helped him with his English grades his grades were sucked in the other subjects mainly with his physics major which he needed the most for his future but was not able to cope up with the studies. With things going in his head, the relationship between Zach and Kimmy was rumoured out eventually the whole university came to know this. According to the code of conduct of his university this was prohibited and so he was out from the scholarship provided by the college and was suspended. However Kimmy took the blame on her voluntarily and so Zach can continue in the college but his room was taken from him and he had nowhere else to go. He got in with a drug peddler eventually for money and a place to live. Now Zach was changed into an alcoholic, womanizer and a drug peddler which tied the cops onto his back. Slowly these things started to spread as a word of mouth in the university making him one of the dangerous guys in the college and because of that the professors and the management were always on his back trying to fire him as soon as a complaint was raised against him. Still he got a second chance in his college, the professors in the university tried to fail him in every subject and wanted to take him out from the project that he was working on for days. Soon the university rejected his scholarship too on disciplinary action. The failure, heart break and empty pockets fucked him up. The college thought that he will be out of the league if they do this but what they had in mind did not happen. Rather he was high on drug and alcohol as he got them all in handy. He does not know what to do without his consciousness with the drugs taking control over him with the fucking anger in his head Zach broke all the windows of each and every car in the parking. Though the securities saw him doing this he managed to escape them. But soon after escaping them he was blacked out due to alcohol poisoning and was admitted in the hospital by an unknown 911 caller. A week later Zach got his consciousness and opened his eyes to see himself on a hospital bed with drips being injected into himself with his hands being cuffed to the hospital bed. Surprisingly there was Kimmy sitting right next to his bed however she was passed as she did not get enough sleep for the past week looking after Zach. Zach got up slowly without waking up Kimmy but could not. He started shouting like it was last day of his life. He was completely berserk. So the cops came in and asked him to remain calm but still he was shouting like hell. However Kimmy managed to make him calm while the doctors injected Valium to make him clean as he was resisting to every other drug even Oxy was rejected by him as he was always on drugs. He became calm but still couldn't sleep and resisted to the drugs. That is when Kimmy told everything that had happened over the past week after he was unconscious and out of his mind. That evening Zach was arrested for vandalizing private property and was taken to jail by the cops. The court demanded for a ten grand proposition for letting him out on probation or getting him in a correction facility for three months. As he was not having that huge sum of money he was sent to prison. Though he is good now without alcohol and drug he was out of the league by his university with a big black mark on his application. Hence he cannot apply for any other of the best universities or internships. His dreams will be just a dream. Everything happened in his life was due to empty pockets and living in a shitty neighborhood without much to live. After failing again and again in his life and not being able to get a job for him he started to get on with alcohol and drugs. Though he attended AA and NA meetings it did not help him much he started being addicted to booze again which made him lose his shit again and did not even look after his health. He was still unmarried even in his late forties. With mental pain and physical pain in his body, he started to lose his consciousness slowly and does not know what he is doing. He started forgetting things quickly and couldn't keep track of things happening around him. He started sleeping on the streets and breaking into others' houses without knowing where he was living. But in his head when he was high on alcohol and drugs, he just had Hannah and her thoughts. And that was degrading slowly because of his blackouts. He just had one day with her but still it was worth million days but eventually it was depleting in his mind. One day while breaking into a house without his consciousness, the owners called the police. Zach was arrested but seeing his condition the cops took him to a hospital admitting him to the ER. After analyzing the results of Zach the doctors concluded that Zach has been diagnosed with alcohol amnesia. But he couldn't take that however the cops and doctors sent him to his house. However Zach was not ready to go down like that with alcohol amnesia forgetting everything he ever lived for. So he decided to die his own way and collected all the drugs in his house so that he can die from over dosage of drugs. But his life had other plans, because of years of intoxication from alcohol and drugs the over dosage did not kill him. Now again in his life he does not know what to do. But he did not leave it there the next day he took triple the times a person can overdose himself from drugs. Life always fucks you up with every possible chance ultimately leading to mental pain and depression but it is your fucking responsibility to live great or go down great. Whether it is living or dying it is in your hands motherfuckers so do it your own way even if it is going down.