Physical pain can shatter your life into million pieces likewise others, it can shatter your mental health and can make you question yourself about what the fuck is going around you and in your life. This is the story of Chris who has been through every kind of pain physically throughout his lifetime. The life of Chris was not just a normal one rather the most fucked up life one can experience. From his childhood until now it was all this he had, physical pain every type of it like fractures, scars, and ligament tears etc. But it does not end right there it followed him through his final moments. It is the way that life always fucks you up whatever you do, it will always get you whatever you do to escape from it. The pain lots and lots of pain started following him whatever the fuck he did always trying him to shatter him into million pieces. Though he had this shit following him he still had a ray of hope that his life will be good someday. But it was always becoming worse whatever he does, did or will do resulting in giving him pain. However eventually the life stopped fucking up but that was not the bigger picture, it was just the beginning, life had some other plans for him so that he can never be happy in his life. His life took some turns but got him into the biggest unexpected turn in his life. He got married to the girl he loved and she got into her life too. They got married and led the best life they can have but things were ready to fuck him right in the face. He got married to the love of his life, Karen. At first he thought she was the best he can get and got hitched to her thinking that they are going to have the best life together but that was not the bigger picture or end rather a painful part of his fucked up life. At first everything was good they were the happiest couple someone can find. It was the dream life he wanted, his own house, the best girl he could ever find but that was not the end. She started noticing something bad going on between them. She was not as happy as they were before. But he hesitated in asking her about this as he did want his best life to go down in the first place. But things took a way bad turn in their life, the time they spent together became more and more little, eventually they were not talking to each other. One day Chris wanted to make this clear, the thing going on between them what possibly could go wrong. In the first place he thought the same that what possibly could go wrong but the things were not the same as before it was so different and she was so cold, cold enough to chill his bones. Soon the discussion burst into a quarrel resulting in a big fight between them. However it was resolved between them but there was a space between them always. Every day was like living in hell for Chris. The best days were now changed into the worst days of their life. Later that night Chris did not return to his house and was high on alcohol because of the life he is having now. Slowly he got addicted to the immense pleasure he had in alcohol consumption rather than just fighting with Karen. Soon this became his habit and he barely came to his house but was always high on alcohol and even had blackouts for days. Now the happiness between them was gone and the space between them was kept on to be increasing. One day when he wanted to meet her without high on alcohol but the thing he saw that night was just so bad that he wanted to kill her and die. He saw that she was having an extramarital affair with another guy. Without seeing Chris they both were hooking up. On seeing this Chris was on his nerves. He was very angry looking at them with his bloodshot eyes but they did not see him. Now Chris wants to devise a plan to get back to her. He was very angry that he wanted to kill them both but couldn't do that as he was loving her. But before him getting out Karen and her guy saw Chris coming in and were shocked by seeing him. Karen and her extramarital affair Steve does not know what to say to Chris. They were just stunned seeing him at that time. Karen was like, "Chris, I can explain this it was a mistake. Try to understand. I don't know what to say to you right now, I can imagine what you are going through right now. But just let me explain Chris." "This was just a misunderstanding man. I was just talking with her and nothing else." "How the fuck could you do this to me Karen. Was I bad with you?" Chris was just out of his mind. People say those who lose in love cannot think as they normally do. Chris was not able to digest what he saw there. His mind was just working at twenty five percent and without thinking he took his golf stick and killed Steve by repeatedly hitting his head with the golf stick he had. Now he was unable to dispose him and does not know what to do with his golf stick that he used to kill Steve. However Chris managed to hide the golf stick on a golf course near his house thinking that he will never get caught. He also managed to dispose the bodies by burying them in his own house thinking that the cops would never find them as they were the best couples in the neighborhood and the chances of them getting into a quarrel or fight were so less with the possibility being near to zero. But the cops would miss the big picture that they both were repeatedly fighting with each other over the past few days. The next day morning Chris reached his house like nothing happened and called for Karen loud so that their neighbors could notice that she was missing and they would never doubt Chris if there was an investigation. However Chris waited for a day in his house and called each and every of Karen's friends and family members to manage that too also using it as an excuse if he would have been interrogated by the police. The day after that Chris went to the police station to file a missing person report on Karen but he intentionally left the name of Steve when asked for so that the cops would think that he did not know that Steve and Karen were having an extramarital affair. Hence it would be easier for Chris to escape if in case the cops would investigate Chris for the missing of Karen. But unfortunately there was also another missing person report on Steve filed by his wife. This made the cops think that if there would have been a connection between these two missing reports. However the cops did not find anything suspicious after seeing Steve going out of Chris's house while he was not there several times. And they came to a conclusion that he was having an affair with Karen. While saying this to Chris. Even though he had known everything that had happened but managed to act like he did not know anything about them and made the police conclude the case as a runaway report of two persons having an extramarital affair. Things did not end right there though Chris managed to escape from the cops but was unable to escape from his guilt of killing his lovable wife, shit happens right. This did not leave him to be normal, he started drinking more and more and started using more drugs. He did not have a single day of good sleep or good food after killing Karen. It started to haunt him down like he was the bad guy. After not looking after his health since Karen died he was diagnosed with cancer and no one to help him out of it, not even a single soul. This is when he wanted Karen to be with him but that is not possible. Life was so hard for him but he had to go through this alone and there is no other way. But he did not want to end his life with so much pain and he decided to go by having a head start in his last moments. So he decided to kill himself by taking alcohol or drugs in amounts larger than a person can take resulting in a drug or alcohol overdose. He bought more drugs and alcohol the next day which made the cops think that there was something fishy so they followed him and waited outside his house for like several minutes and still there was no sign of a person being inside that house so they broke in thinking that something bad had happened. And it was true the cops saw him lying in the floor by consuming more alcohol and drugs resulting in an alcohol overdose. The cops called the paramedics and gave their best so that they can save him, fortunate for the cops they saved him but for Chris it was not what he wanted, he just wanted to die in a peaceful way but life had other plans for him rather than just letting him go. He was admitted to the Emergency Room on that day and the doctors were astonished to see him being still alive even after consuming such large amounts of alcohol and drugs but his body got adapted to this as he had consumed more alcohol than this for the past few years which saved him from the overdose rather than just killing him. However he was in the intensive care for a week as his body was severely damaged. However the cops arrested him for trying to kill himself and consuming more drugs than the standard amount that too with illegal drugs. He was sent to a correction facility for some days until his first hearing. And he went through a lot while being in the correction facility without drugs and alcohol. The pain just killed him from the inside but he was unable to get help. After a week he was called for his trial. He pleaded to the judge saying that he was guilty but also said to him that why he did this. Initially the judge was not ready to leave him out thinking that he would be a potential threat to the society but after hearing out his complete story which was just a cooked up one, the judge left him with just a warning and a penalty of a hundred thousand dollars thinking that he would not have any more money to buy drugs and alcohol for killing himself again. This shattered him without drugs and alcohol he was not able to live because of the immense pain he was experiencing because of the cancer he had without having anyone by his side to help him out. After hearing his plea the judge reduced his penalty and asked him to attend alcohol and narcotics addiction meetings regularly also giving him medical assistance. But that was not enough for his pain however he tried to do this for some time but all he had was his pain increasing with time. He managed to stock drugs with the extra money he had by working at stores after the meetings he had to attend. But that was not enough for what he had rather he started taking them in small amounts so that he can get a small relief from the pain. After a year he was unable to do anything so he decided to do something more than just living with pain. So he started planning for something more dangerous so that he can die his life the way he wanted. He planned a heist on drug store which he was successful in completing too but unfortunately he was shot by the owner of the drug store for his safety. However he managed to escape with the drugs and get to the riverside to die in his own way. Finally the final moment of his life arrived, he took the drugs and had the death he wanted, finally he died by having his final moments without pain that he had all these years. So there is nothing like good or bad life all you had to do is to find the perfect way to live or die. It is just how you want to do it. Just do what you like because there is just one life to live or just one chance to die. Do it your own way whether it is life or death.