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Chapter 4 - Can She Ever Love Again?.

Little Remembrance From Sydney's Past.

"I hate you, dad, I hate you, mom. I hate all of you!!!" 

These horrible words are the words no one wishes to be the last they ever get to say to their loved ones. However, it happened to be the very last words that Sydney actually said to her family before she lost touch with them, which she so much regrets up to this day.

Sydney Hart used to be the perfect and loving daughter but she changed, because of the pressure her parents constantly put on her ever since they stopped living in packs.

She turned into this rebellious teenage pup who never listens, which got her to where she is today. It made her realize all the mistakes she made, that could have been avoided if only she had listened.

She still puts ninety-nine percent of the blame on her parents as to why her life didn't go as she wished it to. It's kind of true because if it wasn't for them, she would have had all her dreams come true.

However, life? It can be predicted in most of the books Sydney has read. Sometimes it feels like it's going to end with a happy ending, and sometimes with a sad ending. 

Her life? It is kind of complicated especially when one has a kid they never wanted in the first place but still couldn't let go of it.

A person who gets pregnant out of wedlock usually calls it a mistake, not wanting it and would want to get rid of it when birthed or not yet birthed. Sydney got pregnant in her teens and also planned to get rid of it the moment she delivered it.

But, that was until he stared at her with his cute little dazzling baby eyes just like the first male she used to love. The day she birthed him and she knew from that very moment.

She never gave birth to a mistake but a blessing. 

Sydney's dad wasn't an Alpha and she wasn't the Alpha's daughter, but the Hart family was well known for being among the top and strongest Betas of the Infinite Hounds Pack before everything came crashing down. 

If anyone had ever told werewolves that at some point in life, they would stop having mates. Then, none of them would have believed it till it actually happened for real.  

What are werewolves without mates? Finding their mates at age eighteen has always been part of them. It is what makes them.

None of them took it too seriously that year when they started receiving signs that something could be wrong with the moon goddess until it escalated. 

Some of Sydney's kind had a very close connection and could reach out to her, but unfortunately could not anymore and had to lay out complaints about it to Alpha George who waved it aside. 

Taking it as nothing serious and saying it was a minor problem, something that could be fixed whenever the moon goddess was willing to reach out to them again. 

He claimed that maybe she wanted to take a break from her creations and see how they would be able to live without her, to help not raise panic in his pack. 

But then the break started to take forever after Sydney found her mate and the next year came by. And all the others who hit eighteen that were supposed to find theirs failed to.

In a situation where a werewolf is not able to find his or her mate at age eighteen. It's considered kind of normal because they can still get a mate at an older age. 

But in a situation where every single person that clocked eighteen in a pack didn't find their mates the day they were supposed to. 

You can see that this wasn't normal at all. 

This was the part where the real panic that Alpha George didn't want to happen in his pack and tried so hard to prevent it from coming to pass, eventually turned into a real living nightmare. And since no one was able to find a solution to what was happening, chaos began to invade.

Everyone was left in confusion, wondering what they could do to make things right.

Members started worrying about their pups not finding their mates and had to do something about it. It's not right for a werewolf not to have a mate, talking more of thinking of living forever without a mate by their side. 

This time no one was willing to let Alpha George's cool words get to them and stop them all from panicking. 

After all, his last pup, Jenny, was among the ones who found their mates last year, so he doesn't know what and how bothered the others who haven't found their mates were.

No one dares to challenge an Alpha in a pack unless they want their heads cut off, but in a state where anarchy started to dominate Alpha George's pack. No one was afraid anymore to stand up and challenge him.

Everyone wanted freedom, everyone wanted to leave. Everyone wanted to be freed and go somewhere they could find a hopeful solution to what was happening. 

Anyone has the right to come up to their Alpha and ask for his permission to leave the pack if they feel like they no longer want to be part of the pack.

But not all Alphas are so good-hearted to just let a member go. Some people who have asked for such from a cruel Alpha either get killed or imprisoned for the rest of their lives till they get back to their right senses. 

The only time one has the freedom to leave a pack unharmed is if the person got banished for doing something unforgivable.

Depending on if the Alpha is too kind-hearted to just let the person leave. Doing something unforgivable in a pack and being banished to leave freely without being beaten up to a pulp is something only a kind-hearted Alpha does.

Alpha George's pack came up with a protest, some members of the pack to be precise because Sydney and her family weren't involved. Why get themselves involved? When Sydney had a mate already, her two older brothers did too. 

They were very close with Alpha George so watching them stand against him in the protest too, to let pack members go would have been too heartbroken for him.

But with the way chaos prevailed, Alpha George had to let everyone go as things were too hot for him to handle. The ones who wanted to leave left and the little ones who wanted to stay behind stayed.

Sydney has no idea if the little ones who stayed behind in her old pack are still there today, since her own family couldn't stay behind as the majority of the pack had the intention of leaving and left. 

But you want to know what the most interesting part of everything that happened back then was?

It wasn't just Alpha George's pack that was the only pack experiencing such a thing.

The entire pack in the neighborhood was going through the same thing. It was a good thing though because if such a thing was happening only in Alpha George's pack. The other packs would have probably started to think his pack was kind of cursed or something. 

Pretty soon, news about the moon goddess abandoning her creations began to spread like wildfire among every werewolf all over the universe. It no longer became new news as this has been going on for a very long time up to today. 

But everything Sydney explained right now wasn't even the main thing she wanted to talk about.

Barry, the mate she was lucky enough to have before the moon goddess bailed on them. Who she believed to be her other half for eternity broke, ruined, and damaged her heart, also dumping her and the baby she had for him, Roman. 

Leading Sydney to swear never to fall in love again. She wants to strongly believe her heart can still be fixed again, but each time she recalls Barry. She starts to think love isn't for her anymore. But can she ever love again?