Jess pov:
I was too lost in thought to even hear what Penn was saying, I was crying uncontrollably while Penn just say on the floor hugging me. "Jess calm down I'll be ok" she said, I'm sad she's leaving but I'm not even thinking about her leaving right now all that's was on my mind was the fact that Adrien was going to break up with me. "Jess please stop crying, everything will be ok" she said, but I wasn't even listening to her because I knew for a fact nothing absolutely nothing was going to be ok. Adrien was going to break up with me so absolutely nothing was going to be ok. I stood up and went to lie on Penn's bed, I wasn't feeling too well so the best thing for me to do right now is to sleep, Penn came to lay by my side. I closed my eyes and let darkness consume me.
I woke up and Penn wasn't by my side which made me panic, did Lucas kick her out already? I quickly got up from the bed but I fell back down due to dizziness. I stood up back trying to go find Penn but stopped when I heard the sound of someone coming out of them bathroom. "Penn" I said hoping and praying she was the one. "yes my love do you need anything?" she replied and I was instantly filled with relief. "no no I'm ok. umm Penn can I shower here and change to one of your clothes?" I asked not wanting to go out to meet Adrien because he might possibly end thing immediately he sees me. "yes sure anything of mine is yours my dear, hope you're feeling better now?" she said while walking towards me and placing a kiss on my head and I just nodded.
I went to freshen up in Penn's bathroom, obviously I broke down in the bathroom at the thought of Adrien leaving me. 'jess calm down, him leaving you is for your own good. you're falling for him which is not meant to be. pull yourself together' I tried reassuring myself but it wasn't working, I don't think I can leave without him. After spending what felt like hours in the bathroom I finally left, Penn already took it upon herself to pick an outfit for me. I'm going to miss Penn, I don't want her to go I'm going to have a little chat with Lucas. I put on the grey sweatpants, white baggy top and let my hair free this time, went in to see Penn crying again. she didn't even notice when I left the bathroom, so I decided to look for Lucas and give him a piece of my mind.
I didn't want to wonder about so I just asked one of Adrien bodyguard where Lucas was, he told me Lucas was in the gym. So yeah obviously I made my way into the gym, finally got there and rushed in without thinking. When I entered I saw Adrien, I didn't even think twice I turned around to leave. Luckily for me he was still angry and wasn't ready to speak to me, I ran back to Penn's room. I'll give Lucas a piece of my mind later, today was about Penn I'm going to spend as much time with her as I can.
Penn and I both moved to my room because I had a refrigerator in there, we didn't leave my room for shit. We watched movies, cried made videos of eachother being together, we mostly cried but I was happy. I kept thinking thou about the Adrien and me breaking up, no matter how I try shaking the thought of us breaking up I just couldn't. "Jess what's wrong?" Penn asked for the hundredth time, she noticed something was going on but didn't want to pressure me into telling her. "Nothing" I said again for the hundredth time, Penn just sighed, I felt bad not telling her. "umm....Penn" I said. "Jess, you know you can tell me anything" she said giving me a reassuring smile which made me feel more guilty. "ok umm what if Adrien leaves me?" I finally uttered. "Jess are you crazy? Adrien can't leave you, have you even see the way he looks at you?" she said, but I knew she was only saying it to make me feel better right? "Penn you're just saying this to make me feel better, you talk about the way he looks at me. Do you also know Lucas looks at you? he loves you which is why I don't understand why he's leaving you and you know he thinks like him brother in most situation so for him to leave me Adrien too might do the same" I finally confess my mind to Penn and she looked stunned but happy. "my darling look at me. Lucas broke up with me for a good reason, he didn't want to break up with me but he just had to. Jess I don't really know much about Adrien but from what I've learn from Lucas about his brother, his brother really loves you I mean Adrien has never slept peacefully, smiled in a long time and especially loved anyone but everything changed when you arrived." she said, what she said gave me some sort of relief but it made me feel more guilty because I was here on a mission and I was going to send him to prison. I gave her a reassuring smile, so I won't come of as selfish to her. I mean today is basically my finally day with her might as well make the best of it.
I gave her some of my clothes to remember me and she gave me some of hers even if they were showing too much I took it because it was hers. Penn finally slept but I couldn't sleep the thoughts of Adrien leaving me was still on my mind maybe I should just go with Penn because eventually I'll have to leave Adrien. My mission was going to end soon anyways right?