Jess pov:
I woke up to an empty bed, i panicked a bit but reassured myself Penn couldn't leave without saying goodbye so she should probably be in the kitchen waiting to say her finally goodbyes right? not wanting to miss Penn goodbye I quickly ran down to the kitchen to see just Lucas there looking like he has been crying, but when he saw me he quickly changed his expression "good morning Jess" Lucas greeted me but I didn't respond I was still mad at him for leaving Penn and making her leave like that. "Ohh good morning Lucas, how are you doing?" he said with a high pitched voice trying to sound like a girl. "I'm good thank you" he replied himself, I didn't even spare him a glance that was how mad I was. "Jess why are you ignoring me?" he said sounding genuinely worried, I just rolled my eye at his fake attempt of trying to pretend like he didn't just break up with Penn.
I just left the kitchen and made my way towards Penn and Lucas's room and Lucas followed from behind still asking what he did wrong, I was pissed but I held myself from saying something I would regret. "if you're looking for Penn she's not in there" he said as I was about entering their room. if she's not here where else would she be? I mean she's either in my room, the kitchen or their room so where did she wonder of to today because I know for a fact Penn can't leave without saying goodbye. Would she? No I'm sure she wouldn't, right? she can't why would I even doubt Penn. "if she's not here then where do you think she is? I mean she slept in my room on my bed and she's not there, I checked the kitchen where she always is and no well she's not there so she has got to be here" I said with tears in my eyes pening because I knew Lucas was right but I tried reassuring myself. I checked everywhere in Lucas room even weird places like the drawal and cupboards because I didn't just want to believe it, she couldn't leave without saying goodbye. "Lucas tell me where you're hiding her" I said trying to fight back my tears but I was failing, Lucas just pulled me into a hug. "Jess she left" he said and I broke down completely, I almost fell but Lucas supported me. We were both sitting on the floor, I was crying my eyes out. Penn really left without saying goodbye. She lied to me, she left me and now I'm all alone, I trusted her and she lied to me. "please don't cry" he said with his voice cracking, was he also crying? well I didn't care all this was his fault. "DONT FUCKING TELL ME NOT TO CRY, YOU CAUSED ALL THIS SHIT. YOU LEFT HER...." I sniffed while wiping the tears streaming down my face. "YOU FUCKING LEFT HER, YOU BROKE HER. YOU MAKE HER LEAVE ME, LUCAS SHE FUCKING LEFT WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE TO ME AND ITS ALL YOUR FAULT" I finally finished but he wasn't saying anything he just stood there with tears streaming down his face. "FUCKING SAY SOMETHING" I shouted at him again while hitting his chest, he just stayed quiet. I was about yelling again till I was cut off by a very familiar males voice "what's going on here?" Adrien said while walking in the room, Lucas and I just stood there. "I WON'T ASK AGAIN WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE" He shouted this time his voice booming around the room and scaring me. "nothing is going on" I said as I stormed out of the room. Adrien following me from behind but I wasn't really in the mood to breakdown again. So I started running, he didn't follow me so I think he got the message I wanted to be alone.
I got to my room and just layed on my bed crying my eyes out, 'I mean why didn't she want me to know? Does she hate me? Did I do anything to upset her? Did her and Lucas breakup have anything to do with me?' I kept asking myself these questions because she didn't have any excuse to justify her leaving without any goodbye. Well either way Penn ruined everything, now Adrien was going to kick me out of his house and I was going to be back at my job, ohh God Penn I shouldn't have let you talk me into going to the club, we would have still been here together. I caused this shit I knew going to the club was a bad idea but I went with it.
I spent all day crying and blaming myself for everything that happened, I haven't even taken my bath I just cried throughout and kept asking myself what if? I mean what if I didn't accept the job in the first place? what if I talked Penn out of going to the club? what if I didn't fall in love with Adrien? what if.... I was cut off by a knock on the door. "I....don't.....want.....to....talk to.....anyone" I said with my voice breaking but the person knock again and again and again which got me angry, I got off my bed ready to drop thunder on who ever was on the other side of the door. "I FUCKING TOLD YOU, I DONT WANT TO TALK TO OR SEE ANYONE" I shouted while opening the door, well to say the least my angered suppressed when I saw a maid there. "I'm really sorry miss but Mr Hernandés wanted me to bring you your lunch" she said while trying to hand me the tray of food in her hands. "tell Mr Hernandés I'm not hungry" I said while slamming the door shut on the maids face.
I went back to my bed and started balling my eyes out again, yes I know I kept crying like someone died even if no one died but that's how much Penn leaving affected me and she made it worst by not telling me. Honestly I was starting to get hungry but I won't eat anything from the Adrien or his brother, so at this point I'll try surviving on the snacks left over in my rooms refrigerator.