Diary Date: Feb. 20,2023. Monday

Sakyamuni Buddha festival

What kind of good and evil you do is 900 million times

Today I ask for leave at home and don't want to go to work.

I didn't listen to Ferrand's voice message in the morning, so I took out the gift I had prepared for him and sorted it out in a happy mood, I wrote a long letter in English on the computer, as this I can use google translation, as my English is not so good. After finished, I print the letter out, and planned to handwrite it on the stationery when he come and hand over to him directly.

Later, when I listened to his whatsapp voice message which I deliberately ignore in the morning, he scolded me fiercely. . . He said he doesn't want to say anythings about others personality and religion, he is very angry with me, As I told him my imagination feeling about Bryan's email yesterday. He said Bryan's email is no problem, not rude, if I don't trust him, he can stop all the cooperation with me. I feel like my lover is gone. I think he is not my lover anymore. . .

His likes and dislikes always change, the day before yesterday, he said he loves me , now he said angry words to me. I think he is not the real lover who really love me. . . How I just tell him my heart feeling and imagination? then he can get angry and shout at me. Haha.

I have a nap for a few hours on my warm bed, and now I wake up. I think I need to recite Shakyamuni Buddha's classics, watching the video of Karmapa, and meditate if I have enough time. As today is Sakyamuni Buddha festival, What kind of good and evils I do is 900 million times than usual.

But today is really a happy day, I decided to write a novel and hope to keep writing until the whole novel is finished. This novel is mainly about a love story between a Buddhist and a Christian. It mainly records the exotic adventure travel and daily life of a devout Buddhist, and the heart journey of a Buddhist in love.

At last, I decided to name the novel as "East Meets West, A Buddhist Love Journey".

I am going to recite today's Buddhist scriptures now which we call "doing homework", because tonight I need to prepare for tomorrow's company business speech, tomorrow I will go to a college to have a speech to introduce our company's business to more than 200 college students who are about to graduate.

Hope tomorrow can be smooth and lucky.