Feb. 27, 2023
Sakyamuni Buddha Leaving Home Day
What good and evil done is a thousand times than normal days
Today there is a man call Albert add me on linkedin, I just think maybe he were Ferrand, so I typed many words to him on LinkedIn message. They are all the words I hope I could expressing to Ferrand.
They are also my dreams:
I hope can earn enough money to buy a new house for my mom and younger brother, to let them have a safe and nice life.
I hope can earn enough money to send Kiki to a quality education school to go on high middle school study, as there has Chinese Medicine to learn.
I hope can become a CEO of Non-GMO food for South East Asia Market. If this dream can not come true, I think if I can fulfill above 2 dreams, it's already enough.
I hope to go to a place which near Tibet to have 4 years Buddhism study or maybe study till to end of my life.
I hope to go the U.S. to see the 17th Karmapa, as I am the Internet course student of Karmapa.
And there is still one dream I have't told him, which I hope Ferrand can know it:
6. If there is really my lover who finding me for hundreds of years, and If it's good fate, pls let him to find me. I hope I can hear his voice again, I hope I can see who he is, I hope I can hand his hands, I hope he can really love me.
Dear Buddha, is this wrong to hope a person really love me? Is that I lack of love so I hope to have this? Could you tell me?
Sorry, Buddha, It's not like Saroy said that I am in Financial problem so I hope to have a lover. Not this reason.
Why at that day, Ferrand told me "Melody, I love you" on the voice message, I really be touched? Dear Buddha, could you tell me why? Why I trust him? Maybe he is the angel of Lord, he has spreaded his love to me. So I was touched.
If Ferrand could hear my heart, I would like to told him that: " Fre…d I love you!"
Karmapa said the love will be felt and knew even you were watering flowers. So I will do it when I was lying on bed at once. I will use my heart to say it for 100 times. Sorry Buddha, I do want to spreading my love to him also. If this is wrong, pls forgive me.