Maia
I can't do it. I'm having an inward battle with myself.
No matter how hard I'm trying to break away, I can't. I can taste the euphoria on his tongue. His taste is addicting.
Why can't I think straight? Every time he is near I don't see anytime but him. Stop it Maia.
We almost took it too far, I couldn't come to my senses. Thankfully he broke the kiss, the kiss I was so hungry for. If it wasn't for him, I don't know what would of happened.. I mean I couldn't force myself to break away.
But how could I sleep with him when I had just been with Danny not even an hour prior? I was about to be that girl. The girl that sleeps around. Because I really believe that if he wouldn't have backed away, I wouldn't have stopped him.
After devouring each other in the most passionate, deepest kiss that had my knees weak, Michael pushed himself off of me. Backing away, leaving my lips feeling lonely. I can't forget the lust in his eyes though. I could feel the fire that was burning inside of him. I felt it too.
How can he switch up so fast? Not even 3 seconds ago all I could see was his desire, and just as he blinked it was gone. The desire was replaced with coldness, nothingness. His coldness made my heart drop. I could feel him regretting everything. I can't even lie by saying it didn't hurt me. But his words hurt me more.
Michael looks at me for a second before diverting his eyes to something behind me. Turning to see what he was looking at, I see Danny standing by the bathroom door, confusion on his face.
"You might want to keep your bitch under lock and key, she might fuck someone else." Michael said before walking out of the door.
I hate him. I fucking hate him.
Danny walks to me and I'm wondering if he saw anything. How long has he been standing there? Is he mad at me? Does he believe him?
Danny grabs my towel and wrapped it around me. I had forgotten I was still naked.
"I- thank you" I whispered looking at the floor, too embarrassed to look him in the eyes.
"Are you okay? Did he hurt you?" His eyes are desperately looking for reassurance.
Just my feelings.
"N-no. He didn't hurt me but his an asshole" I stated the fact.
Giving me a hug he let me dress and walked be back to his room. I honestly feel like it's best if I leave. How could I stay the night when I just kissed someone else right after I had Danny finger-fucking me. I'm disgusted.
"Are you not going to ask me why he was in the bathroom?" I asked him nervously.
Danny sat on his bed, passing his fingers to his hair. "Listen, I don't wanna question you. I have no right. It sucked seeing him there, gave me the wrong impression but your a free woman and I will not lash out on jealousy even if I want nothing more than to beat his ass. "
"Do you want me to take you to your dorm?"
If I didn't feel like shit before, I definitely do now. Why is he so good to me? I don't deserve him. I need to be better. I need to stay away from Michael.
I walk over to him and kiss his cheek. I lie down on his bed, resting my head on him. He strokes my hair and I fall into deep slumber.
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After leaving Danny's dorm around 9am Saturday, I was back in my dorm ready to keep sleeping for the whole day. And I did just that. I woke up again around 7:27pm and went to shower. I wanted to wash away Michael's hands off my body. I needed too. Turning the water off, I dry my self and get dressed. Walking toward the mirror I do my skin care quickly. Turning to the door as it opens, a girl with red hair walks in. She's tall, milky skin tone and a face full of freckles. She has pouty lips and I think her eyes are green. She's pretty.
"Hi there, is that stall occupied?" The red head asked, her eyes falling on the bottle of moisturizer in my hand.
"No, it's open" I smile at her.
"I'm Amy by the way" she smiles at me showing her pearly white teeth.
"Nice to meet you, I'm Maia" I say shyly.
"Which room do you stay at? I'm just across the hall, dorm 715." She points her finger in the north direction.
"I'm in 722, not too fall from you it seems." I tell her.
We stayed talking for a bit longer until I got done doing my skin care and brushing my hair. We exchanged phone numbers and said our goodbyes.
Sophia was on her bed folding her laundry when I got into the room. Glancing over to her, I made my way to my hamper and dumped my dirty clothes in it. I got on my bed and scrolled through social media for a bit. I'm not big on any social platforms but I do like to see how everyone is living their life.
I text Alyssa to see what she's doing. I want to ask her to go eat diner with me.
Me: Hey girl, are you free? I'm kinda hungry and was wondering if you wanted to go out to eat something?
Opening TikTok, I spend sometime watching funny or aesthetically pleasing videos.
Sophia was done folding laundry and went over to her dresser to find some clothes to wear. She is most definitely going out.
About 20 mins passed by and Sophia was all ready. She really is pretty. She's wearing ripped skinny jeans, olive crop top that fits tightly around her good sized breasts, and some black Vans. Her hair is pulled back into a tight ponytail and her make up is simple yet defined her features even more.
I realized I'm staring so I quickly move my eyes back to my phone. Almost immediately, there's a knock on the door. Sophia walks over to open it, and there standing tall is Michael. Our eyes met as soon as he pulls Sophia in for a kiss on the cheek. My heart drops at the thought of his hands on my naked body. His lips kissing my neck and-
Stop.
Thankfully my phone chimes at a text from Alyssa.
Alyssa: sorry for the long reply, I was showering. But yes I'm free. I'll be ready in 20 mins. Meet out side.
Thanking the gods for the distraction, I get up from the bed and start to get ready.
I can still feel Michael's eyes burning holes at the back of my head. I thought they would leave already. Instead, Michael walks over to Sophia's bed and sits while Sophia goes to the mini fridge and fetches two beers, handing Michael one.
Why does he always come when I need to change?
Grabbing the clothes I'm going to wear, I stand awkwardly staring at him hoping he will get the hint and walk outside so I can change.
"What? Shy to change your clothes in front of us?" Michael says bored.
"Can you just wait outside?" I'm annoyed.
"No, if you need to change then change, if not you leave elsewhere." He says sipping his beer.
Rolling my eyes at him, I give them my back and start to change my clothes. This is my room and I can't even change comfortably.
When I turn around, Michael's eyes are already on me and so are Sophia's. However, he's looking at me with lust while she's looking at me angry. I scoff, while passing by them to leave.
Meeting Alyssa downstairs, we walked to a restaurant right outside campus. It's an Italian place that supposedly sells the best pizza New York has to offer. This was all said by Alyssa so who knows.
We picked out table and sat down.
"So, how was your night yesterday? Was it all you hoped for?" I asked Alyssa, taking a sip of my water.
"Ugh, dude it was terrible. Smallest dick I've ever seen and I didn't even feel a tickle." She says in frustration.
I laugh at her misfortune. "That sucks. But I'm sure you'll find someone else soon."
"Yeah I hope lol, my sex life has been boring lately. But how about you? Did you leave with someone, is that why I didn't find you?" She asked, her hand intwined together waiting impatiently for my reply.
I take a second to think of my answer. I don't know if I wanna tell her all the details of my night.
"Well, I did actually. I had my first wanted sexual experience. It was great." I smiled at the memory of Danny caring for me.
Alyssa squeals excited for me, "That's great! Was he hot?" She asked.
"Yes, he really is hot. I mean we didn't have sex but he did, um, finger fuck me" I whispered mostly, embarrassed that someone might hear.
"That counts! If he's good with his finger than he most definitely going to be good with his dick. Trust me."
"Yeah maybe, I don't think we will have sex anytime soon though. I have to sort through some things first." I really need to stop thinking about Michael before I can do anything like that with Danny again. He told me I didn't owe him anything, that he is okay with me "dating" around. But that's just not me. I can't do that to him. So until I sort my feelings, we will do nothing more than kiss.
"Well, are you like in love with some else or?" She asked
Just before I could answer the waiter talks to us to take our orders. We got the pizza because I wanted to see what the hype is all about.
Alyssa and I talked some more about random stuff. I felt so good, eating with my friend. I missed her. I don't know her that well but we clicked and I feel like we haven't been able to hang out as much. Definitely making myself a note to make more time for her and I.
I got back to the dorm around 10:30pm, time passed by so fast when me and Alyssa were talking and laughing. We talked about meeting tomorrow again for breakfast and maybe to go shopping too.
I try not to spend that much money because I'm not working. Luckily, when my grandma passed away, I inherited a good amount of money. I used some of that money to pay for collage back in California. I was also lucky to be able to get a scholarship to this university. I have a high gpa and that worked in my favor. I did spend around $3,000 in moving over here and paying for my dorm. I still have enough money for a little while but I'm hoping to get a job later this year or maybe next year. I mean why wait until I'm broke, right?
I was glad to get to my dorm and not find Michael and Sophia fucking on the floor again.
I quickly changed into PJs and hit my bed. I once again started watching some videos and got on social media. That got boring real quick. I decided to send Danny a text.
Me: Hey, are you up?
Not even 10 second later, my phone chimes.
Danny: Hey! I'm up. What are you up too?
Me: Nothing much, in bed bored, you?
Danny: Hanging around some friends at a small get together we had. Wanna come?
Do I really wanna go out now? No. I don't. But I'll I go out now to be able to see him? Yes. I am.
Me: Yes, I would love to join. Send me the information and I'll meet you in around 30 minutes.
Getting off the bed and searching for something casual to wear. I put on some black jeans, white crop top and black comeback boots. I brush my hair and leave it down. I don't bother putting on make up since it's late and I'm feeling lazy.
I made my way to the destination, and I was in awe at the white bricked building. The building was just outside campus, but I assume it still belonged to the university. I can hear the bass of the music outside. I can tell there isn't a lot of people like at the party I went last time. I'm glad, I hate big crowds.
Entering the building, a tall skinny guy with black hair and a mustache let me in. He asked if I wanted something to drink but kindly declined. I don't feel like drinking today.
Everyone is on the living room. There's about 14 people in the room. Mostly guys and about 3 girls. The living room is spacious, with a long L shaped black couch and a couple of chairs on the side for those who don't fit in the couch can sit. Everyone is holding a beer and are laughing or talking.
I feel out of place here, I don't know anyone here. Well, only Danny who's now making his way towards me.
"Hey, come on let's go sit" he grabs me by my hand and lead me to where everyone is at.
"Everything, this is Maia." Danny introduces me to the crowd.
"Hey Maia nice to meet you" a blond chubby guy with a lip piecing said followed by everyone else.
I sit next to Danny, awkwardly scanning the room, everyone seems to be talking within each other, making out, or drinking.
I was enjoying myself until Sophia and Michael walk in. I can not catch a break.
Diverting my eyes from the couple, I joined everyone by laughing. What were they laughing about? No idea, I wasn't able to concentrate on them on the present of Michael.
"Let's play never have I ever, you drink if you have and don't if you haven't" a guy with highlights say to everyone. They all agree.
Someone gives me a beer for the purpose of the game.
"I'll start. Never have I ever kissed the opposite sex" the same guy with highlights say.
Most people drink up except for me, Danny, and Michael.
"Never have I ever let two girls suck your dick at the same time" another girl pitched in.
All the boys drink up, and all the girls didn't. I look at Danny with wide eyes. He just gives me a shy smile.
"Never have I ever finished fucking someone and not long after almost fucked someone else" Michael said, eyes locked on me.
I was shocked. He just put me on the spot. I can feel my cheeks heat from anger. Debating if I should just not take the sip or just take the sip and be honest like everyone else, I wanted to slap myself for even being in this situation. I mean what kind of person would I be if I just sit and lie? I would look like a lair, because I knew the truth, Michael knew it too and I'm sure Danny suspects something happened also. I won't be a lair, plus everyone else has been honest, it's my turn.
I bring the beer to my mouth and take a big gulp of it, keeping my eyes locked on Michael, I'm seconds to whipping that smirk off his face.
I turn to face Danny notice he is struggling to not look at me, jaw tight, knuckles white from the hard grip he has at the side of the chair. I can see the hurt in his face.
Snapping my head back to Michael's direction-I hate him. I fucking hate him I thought to myself. Downing at least half the beer in a few consistent gulps, I jump off my hair to leave but not before finishing the beer onto Michael's head.
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