All the longing Jen had for Ap, she let it out in the kiss. They kissed Ap lost breathe. Ap suddenly pulls back and says, "I'm gonna go" and ran from there. Jen stood there in silence and watched her leave. Oh how bad she wanted to run behind her and hug her, but she chose to be still.
After getting herself to be calm, Ap's mind was filled with the question, "What just happened?". She couldn't swallow the fact that she kissed her best friend. She didn't hate it but it didn't sit right with her. It was her best friend of ages. Jen was the last person she thought, she'd ever kiss. As the memories of their kiss flashed across her mind, Ap felt some kind of way. She couldn't point out whether she felt good or bad, but it did make her feel some sort of way. She kept on thinking about it even though she tried to shake the thought out of her head.
And as for Jen, she was happy that she finally got to hold her. But she was also scared that Ap won't talk to her anymore. She would do anything to make her stay, even if it meant that she had to pretend the kiss never happened. She would rather have her heart broken into pieces than lose her Ap or make her sad. Jen could never figure out her feelings for Ap until yesterday, when she saw Ap heartbroken and Jen was ready to burn the guy who made her cry down. She now knew what Ap meant to her.
But Ap was still confused. It was the first time she had that intense of a kiss. It was the first time that a kiss made her feel some sort of way. She was scared about what she felt. She still loved her ex. She was straight. But her best friend since junior high had made her heart skip a beat.