"I won't lie to you. I won't pretend this is anything more. I want to fuck you and nothing else. It's your choice if you can handle that or not." Eros had closed himself off to me completely as he spoke.
I stood in that stall the rest of class thinking over his words. Why was I considering this? He just told me I was nothing more than some piece of ass. Rational adults would say, no, and without question. I wasn't a rational person when it came to Eros though.
I left the bathroom and went straight to my car calling out of work for the day. I texted my mom and dad I wasn't feeling well and headed home for the night. My mom never text back but my dad told me to take it easy and to rest. I sighed letting tears fall out my eyes as I laid in bed. I was completely wrapped in my purple comforter unsure how to move.
I laid there for hours just thinking and it was only about one person, one thing to do with that person. I never had sex, never thought about Eros actually wanting that from me. Why now?
Could I really just go to his house and strip. Let him take my body, my virginity? I knew the answer was yes. The question was would I hate myself after. I didn't know anyone that was still a virgin pass high school though. It wouldn't be that big of deal whenever I did fall in love. No man would say I was ruined now. We were way past those times and I was very thankful of that. I just thought it would be with my long term boyfriend and eventually we would marry, and spend the rest of our lives together.
I could barley speak to people properly though. I never made friends except the ones from my home town. I did love the people back home but I was always wanting to come back here when I was there. Maybe I wasn't letting myself be happy.
I got up and jumped in the shower. I washed, shaved, and put on an outfit I knew Eros would instantly want me naked once he saw me. I looked in the mirror before leaving and took one last deep breath.
For hours between my legs were throbbing. I wanted to feel him, I needed to feel him. My dark hazel eyes looked back into myself. "You can do this, Ella. You want this!"
I glanced next store and huffed. I can't do this and laid back in my bed. It took a long time to find sleep but eventually I did. I wasn't sure if I hated myself for chickening out or if I would hate myself more for giving in.
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"Ella!" His voice called me sweetly. I smiled thinking of the only man I ever wanted calling me to him.
"Ella, baby girl, wake up." I heard his voice again and moaned.
"Eros!" I jumped up smacking my forehead into his nose. Shit! That really hurt.
"Fuck, Ella!" He said pissed off holding his nose.
"Sorry. You scared me."
He slowly moved his hand off his nose then brought me closer to his body. "What are you wearing, baby girl?"
I looked down at my red dress and took a hard gulp. "Nothing!"
"Oh, this is definitely not nothing." His hand ran over my back as his eyes were glued to my cleavage.
"Why are you here?" I said with tears in my eyes. This really couldn't be anymore embarrassing.
"You never came to me. I wanted to make sure you were ok."
"I'm fine, Eros." I pulled back from him. I was not fine. Every part of me wanted to go to him but I couldn't bring myself to just show up at his door.
"Did you think about coming over? Is that why you put on this dress? For me?" He teased looking over my every curve.
I shook my head yes.
"Say it, baby girl."
"I wanted to go to you."
"Then what happened?" He pulled me on his lap as he leaned against the headboard.
"I felt stupid. I never done that before and I didn't want to just show up begging for it."
Eros watched my face as his hand stroke my hair sending a calm over my body. Why does this always feel so right between us?
"You don't have to ever be embarrassed with me, Ella. I love how fucking shy you are. It makes my dick so fucking hard to see you blush so innocently." His thumb traced my cheek bone then continued to run through my hair.
"I... I..."
"Say it baby. I want to hear everything you have to say." He kissed my nose.
"I want you. I just don't know how. Can't you just... do it." I stumbled through my ridiculous words. How did he find me sexy? I was an awkward freak.
"Just do it?" He chuckled making me frown. "Don't pout, baby girl. You're innocent little mouth is what makes me unable to get you out of my head."
I looked at him trying to figure out what I meant to him. Would this really be just sex?
"Can you take me to your house?"
The smile that grew on his face had my heart beating out my chest.
"Is that what you really want? I think you are not sure, Ella."
"I'm sure, Eros. I am. I'm just not as bold as you. I need you to show me, help me."
"Fuck, baby girl, I want to show you everything." He kissed my lips rough, jamming his tongue right though my lips. I instantly thought how he did that with his dick and started sucking on his tongue. I loved making him lose control as I kneeled before him.
"Ella!" He grabbed my hair tight watching me.
"I do want you. I understand you don't want a relationship and we don't belong to each other. I just... I need..."
"What do you need, baby girl. I need to hear it."
"I need you to show me. I need you inside me." I whispered the last part and started breathing heavy. My emotions were everywhere right now.
"You need me inside you." He hummed with his eyes closed rubbing his nose to mine.
"Yes, Eros. No strings, no attachments. Just show me everything. Please, Eros. My bottom lips have been throbbing all day. After you teased me and left me wanting more I can't think straight."
His hand moved between my thighs. I gasped loud as he rubbed over my sensitive core begging to be satiated.
"Is you're pussy throbbing for me right now, baby girl."
"Yes, I don't know how to make it stop."
Eros licked his lips. "Do you need me to make you cum? Does this greedy pussy need my fat cock to fill you up?"
"God yes!" I threw my head back at the thought of his large cock entering between my folds.
"Ok, Ella. Come, I'll show you how to take care of your pussy and then I'll fucking destroy it."
My eyes widened at his words. Was he really going to? He stood up holding his hand out to me and I took it without a second thought. We climbed out my window and he grabbed my waist lifting me down from the tree. Oh my god we were really going to do this.
"You sure, baby girl?" His thumb brushed over my cheek which was becoming one of my favorite ways he touched me. It was so sweet and intimate.
I shook my head biting my lip in excitement. My underwear was already ruined I was so wet. I needed to find the pleasure he gave me again.
"Words!" He demanded tugging at my hair.
"Yes, I'm sure. I'm so wet Eros. I need you to make it stop." I pleaded.
He smiled moving his hand under my dress and between my thighs.
"Fuck Ella, you're dripping down your legs to feel my cock." His lips crashed on mine as his finger moved my underwear to the side sliding easily between my folds. My back hit the tree bark and I moaned how incredible he made me feel.
"Oh my god!" I screamed in his mouth unable to kiss him back.
"This little pussy is so needy, Ella. I'm going to give this little girl everything she needs." His words were rough then he bit my lip and moved fast inside me. Instantly I started coming and he held my body up so I didn't crumble to the ground.
"Fuck!" Slipped out my lips on a whisper. I completely lost control, wiggling then collapsing as Eros stood in front of me roughly jamming his fingers in and out.
"My dirty little girl." He chuckled. "Now that I know you can say fuck I want to hear it more often. Can you be a good girl and show me how dirty you are?"
"Yes, I can be good and dirty for you, Eros."
"These lips are fucking perfect." He gave me a soft kiss holding our lips together a few seconds then pulled away dragging me behind him. I quicken my pace to keep up with him already getting excited again. God, I had major issues going on between my legs.
The second we got to his room he placed me in the middle of the floor. I didn't move, just stood where he placed me. His eyes were almost black filled with lust as his fingers slowly removed my dress. He stood before me just staring at my body in a red bra and underwear. I bought a more expensive pair with lace imagining I would wear it for him. I never thought I would ever be here with him like this though.
His hands grabbed his shirt lifting it over his head then he stepped forward, closing the gap between our bodies. His hand laced in my hair tugging it tight and his other hand grabbed my breast rough in his grip. I was already wet again, but now I was dripping. That blissful throbbing was between my legs and I just wanted more, so much more.
"I should feel bad about wanting you, to take you for your first time, but I don't. Not a single part of me cares that I'm about to fuck you hard and take your virginity, because I fucking want it." His voice was rough as he spoke to me, almost scary like a threat, but I knew it was his need for my body, which only made me pant harder.
"I want you to take it." I whined out as he tightened his grip in my hair.
"I know you do. That's why it's so fucking hard to resist you, Ella. I've always seen how badly you wanted me to take this fucking body." His mouth crashed on mine taking a rough kiss leaving my lips bruised.
"I will hurt you." He spoke then kissed me hard again. "I will be hard and rough as your sore pussy is barley soft enough to take my fat cock." His lips were on mine again taking all my breath. "Can you handle that?" He covered my mouth before I could speak so I started to undo his belt. I wanted this. Whether it ended up being bad or good I want this.
I kneeled to his feet removing his pants and boxer then wrapped my lips around him. Just a little taste.
"You love being my little slut." His breath was heavy as he spoke. "Now that you tasted my cock you can't get enough, can you?"
I looked up to him moaning taking him further down. "Fuck you're so good at taking my cock in that little mouth. Let me see how dirty you really are though." He grunted thrusting his hips in my mouth. "Touch that little pussy while I fuck this dirty mouth."
My eyes widened at him. I never touched myself before. "Now, Ella!" He demanded. His hand rested on top my head gripping my hair as he thrusted harder down my throat.
My fingers moved to my underwear feeling how wet I was. I moaned at the contact and Eros grunted watching me explore my body. My fingers moved slowly over my folds then I moved my underwear to the side and shoved two fingers inside me. I shouted over his dick at the sudden fullness then rolled my eyes back moaning.
"God you're so fucking sexy." He watched me a moment then pulled me off him and made me stand. His hand quickly ripped off my bra and his mouth devoured me like a rabid wolf. He was fast and hard leaving bruises with his teeth, despite the pain, I loved watching how aggressively he was losing control. How badly he need to cum from my body.
"Get on the bed!" He ordered pulling off my body. He seemed pissed.
I moved slowly laying gently on my back. He said he would hurt me. Did he mean he would actually hurt me, like beat me? The look in his eyes was lethal and it was all on my body. He kneeled between my legs and looked down at my body pumping his own dick slowly.
He didn't speak just stared at me.
"Eros, are you mad?" I whispered.
"Yes! You make me lose control. So fucking bad I lose control when you are around, Ella."
I bit my lip. "I want you to lose control." I spoke low, a little afraid he would just reject me right now.