First Day
Today is my first day as a Senior High student and Tristan's first day as a college student. I got up early to prepare and I made extra lunch for Tristan today. Why extra lunch? because his mom makes baon for him and I want to make something for him to. My good luck token for his first day in college. He's picking me up today before he goes to his school and he'll be the one to pick me up after school. Feeling ko ang mature na ng relationship namin. We can have the car to ourselves now and he's already in college, just wow.
"Ma'am nandito na po si sir." Our house help said opening my door. I nodded and took my bag and walked out. "Tulog pa si lola? Make sure to serve her food ha? tsaka yung gamot nya please. Thank you." Sabi ko habang bumababa.
"Good morning, beautiful!" Tristan greeted as he stood still in our wide living area. I was in awe as I stared at him wearing his all white nautical uniform. Ang gwapo naman nito. Girlfriend ba talaga ako nito?
"What? how do I look with my uniform?" He said laughing at my reaction.
"Babe! Damn, you look so good!" I replied as I ran to his open arms and hugged him tight.
"My seafarer."
I whispered as he hugged me tighter this time. "Of course, my love at sayo'ng sayo lang." He replied kissing my forehead.
Hindi ko alam bakit but him saying that made my heart ache. I trust him so much but I don't know what the future holds. I don't want to lose him.
Natatakot ako lalong lalo na sa bagong hakbang na to.
"Okay, so I made extra baon for you. My Good luck token for your first day!" I said pulling away and giving him his lunch. "Wow! You didn't have to shan but thank you." He replied laughing at me.
"Let's go?"
He asked and I just nodded as we walked to the car.
"So gurl, ano na? kumusta kayo? kumusta ang may college na boyfriend?" Irene said one morning while waiting for our first class.
"What? ano ba yang pinagsasasabi mo?" I replied glaring at her while tapping my pen on my armchair. "I'm just asking!" She replied laughing at my reaction. I rolled my eyes at her and ignored her. "Kasi ang daming chismis na pag nasa college na ang daming nag hihiwalay." She said looking at me. "Well, maybe but obviously not us, duh. Akala ko ba friend kita? bestfriend to be exact bakit parang gusto mo masira kami ni Tristan?" I replied and she laughed again at my reaction. "Shan! Ano ba! I'm just teasing you okay? Gurl, love kita and I got your back always and kilala natin si Tristan at alam ng lahat na patay na patay yun sayu." She replied hugging me jokingly as I only rolled my eyes again.
Daily routine na namin ni Tristan na sya ang maghahatid at sundo sakin sa school kaya hindi naging problema na iba na ang school namin we still see each other everyday.
To: Tristan ❤️
Babe, where are you na? are you coming? or tawagin ko nalang si manong?
Kanina pa natapos yung class namin at umalis na si Irene thinking na nandito na si Tristan para sunduin ako but he's 2 hours late already. We are now in the middle of the semester and we have both adjusted sa new chapter ng life namin together and things are going fine. Ganun parin naman kami ni Tristan. Although he's very busy lately dahil may research sila because it's almost finals kaya I understand na busy sya lately.
We are growing. Together.
Wala naman akong duda sa kanya because first of all, I trust tristan and I know he loves me. Mahal ako nun, alam ko yun at paulit ulit ko yang sinasabi sa sarili ko kahit na may nag-iba nga konti sinasabi ko lang sa sarili ko na ganyan talaga, na ganyan talaga pag nag mature na ang relationship.
Diba?
But this is the first time na late sya at hindi man lang nag text kung bakit. Kinakabahan na ako, baka ano na ang nangyari dun.
"Ms. Sy? Wala pa ba si sir Tristan?" napabaling ako kay manong guard and smiled weakly at him. "Wala pa po, eh." I sighed looking at my phone no reply.
It's already 6 at wala parin si Tristan. I've been calling him for the nth time already!! My phone rang loudly and I looked around at kami nalang dalawa ni manong guard dito. "Nasaan kana ba, Tristan?!!!" I answered and I couldn't help it but yell at him through the phone.
It's dark already, I'm alone with the guard. I'm not saying that I'm not safe but still!
"Ma-Ma'am!!" Natahimik ako ng ibang boses ang sumalubong sakin. "Manang? bakit ka umiiyak?" I replied already shaking because I'm nervous as fuck! "Ma'am ang lola mo! Sinugod sa ospital inatake po ang lola nyo".
My phone fell on the ground and my knees gave up and I fell on the floor too. "Naku! Ms. Sy, anong nangyari?" Manong guard ran to me at tinulungan akong maka tayo. "Manong, taxi po please tulungan mo ko. My lola was rushed to the hospital, please help me!!" I replied as tears fell as fast as they could.
I felt scared. Hindi ko kaya kung mawawala ang lola ko. Lord, please wag ngayon. Please hindi ko pa kaya.
My hands were shaking as I waited for the taxi. I kept on calling Tristan pero wala parin off na ngayon ang cellphone nya all I could do was cry.
Pag dating ng taxi agad akong sumakay at pumunta na sa ospital na tinext ni manang sakin. When I arrived at the hospital I ran as fast as I could sa emergency room and I saw manang leaning against the wall crying as the doctor and nurses covered my lola's body with blanket.
"No. No no no!!!" I yelled as I pulled the blanket and I saw my lola's lifeless body. "Grandma please! No!! Don't leave me please!" I yelled hugging her my tears never stopped falling.
"Ma'am, we are truly sorry. We did everything that we could to save her."
"Shan, tama na" Manang said pulling me away and hugging me.
"Umuwi muna tayo para maka pag pahinga ka at gabing gabi na ako na ang bahala sa lola mo. Tinawagan ko na rin ang daddy mo at pauwi na sya." I just nodded not knowing what to say. It's already midnight at nandito parin kami sa ospital.
"Fuck baby, I'm so sorry!" I heard Tristan say as he rushed over to me and hugged me but I pushed him away. My tears kept on falling as I stared at him not saying anything. I got up and he reached out for my hand but I pulled away.
"Manang, tawagin mo na si manong." I said walking past him.
I needed you the most but where were you?
Ang sakit sakit, Tristan.