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Chapter 12 - chapter- 11

I loved her

Not for the way she danced with my angels

But for the way the sound of her name could silence my demons

I push down my body on the couch, throwing my phone aside and groan left my mouth

Aish am tired. Maybe I will not just move for half an hour from here. I gaze into the space thinking of how much happened today.

It's not what I ever expect after meeting her but I also don't know how things end up here.

When my mind replay the scene of her house, all I can thought about how calm she was all the time which was really not normal.

When her father was speaking and all, my eyes were on her, I thought she is not focused but she was just trying to be calm.

I never notice it yet the second she loose her patient, I saw a full burning rage in her eyes even if they never meet mine when she walked inside the house.

My hands took out her phone from my pocket and I grasp it in my hands gazing at the black screen.

I took it when I had her jacket, I don't even know why but now I had this and am well aware of the fact that soon I have to handle her for taking this.

Maybe, that's why I took it, so that I could get another chance to had a conversation with her.

I chuckle at my own thought, well I don't think it will be like a normal conversation.

The ting sound took my attention and I gaze at my left, saw my phone screen light up.

Putting her phone on the small table in front of me, I took my phone. Unlocking it I saw I got a message.

It was from group chat of my all bodyguards. And I realised what had come.

My eyes gaze at the screen with wide eyes after I click into the chat.

Only to see photos oh how badly she beaten her father. Scrolling them down. Damn that's not what I expect but yeh I can't expect less than this.

It's not that am feeling bad

I saw in a pic from different angle that there is something which is making his mouth bleed because of them totally in blood I can't see what.

I decided to read messages

- boss, we examined him and there are few  broken vase pieces in his mouth

- his left hand is horribly twisted, maybe his bone crack.

- and damaged on other body parts.

- boss what you want us to do with him.

Vase?

Wasn't she ..also hit by a vase, thinking about it all I can do is imagine if what might had been happen there.

Maybe he might had thrown the vase at her but.she dodge it yet get hurt and she just...

Damn that's so......she is a fucking damn, yet her beautiful, innocent face couldn't tell it all.

The thing is what she did with his dad is what was in my mind to do with him but I guess she is more crazy than me.

Yet he deserves it, I don't know the past  but the way he was treating her even when we were there was not good.

By that I can guess what might have been going on with her but I don't wanna imagine.

With that angry thought I type my last order.

- kill him and clean the mess, no one should get to know that something happen there.

It was my own decision.

I should have torture him with my own hands but I don't feel like because she comes in my mind.

Without making a fuss. My actual question is - is she gonna hate me if she get to know.

Should I change my decision, but whom am I asking they might have shoot him by now.

There is no way back now, but what if she never get to know it. Am being selfish again.

I know.

Throwing my phone aside, my both hands grabbed my head and I try to calm myself.

I don't know what to do next, his fucking father sold her to me. Actually to my dad but I was in charge so it's me now.

I have done so many sins why do this not fit well with me now.

She is with me right now

But that's not how I imagine it. I want it in different way. But I had so option. What was I thinking that time.

Main question is

What the fuck am gonna do now

The sudden burst and someone coming inside made me question.

Did I not locked the door, shit

Being damn sure who is it, I try to think of an excuse but again whom am asking.

My attitude will come again in my way. With my all courage my head turn to the right.

And guess what, she was standing there holding the doors handle when our eyes meet, she quickly change her eyes direction.

Examining the room. My eyes gaze at her phone on the coffe table and than at her realising she saw it as her gaze was at it.

" Give it fucking back"