I have never need anyone but
I found myself needing You,
Without any edge of my needing.
" Seriously yoongi!!" I listen to jin hyungs shout from inside as i stroll outside of my mansion office, shutting the door.
I sign and stride further in the hallway until i make it to my bedroom, locking it, my hands grip the coat to take it off and again the similar thought come in my mind.
Why?
With a deep whiff, i sat on the couch peacefully although my mentality was on a run.
I relax my head on the couch and strive to close my eyes. I feel so stress, so weak right now.
All because of just a mare girl, a little devil, my little devil.
No matter what, my team, my partners couldn't find who is she?. I analysis the camera recording of that day when i met her first time.
But fuck whoever put it on the angel from where i can't even catch a glimpse of her figure properly,
From inside my essence race by the thought and i again realise that i haven't seen her since two weeks.
Two fucking weeks
It's making me go crazy from inside while i am totally fine from outside, i don't know what i should do, if she was in this city all the time than why i don't saw her ever.
Well, i just come here 3 months ago from Russia after my business was done there, what can I expect, although i was here when i was a child.
I can't concentrate on stuff, she gives rise to me not to. Particularly she haven't done anything but she still have done something no everything to me, these things are making me crazy.
Once i found her, she gotta pay for everything she did to me and my mind.
Again and again all i am doing is thinking about her and that's how I end up fighting with jin hyung in the office.
Ofcourse i know that i am not focusing on my work but is it my fault, she is blundering with my mind.
He should not blame me but focus on finding her but the question is how?
I haven't gone to any meeting in these last two weeks, i care less they will handle it.
They are not my business partners without no reason, i have some faith in them.
Although they said they are getting anxious for me but why. It's not like i am shouting by lungs out telling them to find her.
By this thought, my mind recollects me the scenes and words of jin which he state in the office.
Suga, are you being serious. You have literally fire 5 maids in six days just because they accidentally came in your way, you hit your car with a pole while driving.....for god's sake the road was damn clear in the middle of the night and yeah why you were driving in the middle of the night... you throw coffee on your secretary just because she bring it 2 second late...where is your patience, you can't seem to hold things anymore. I am saying that we are trying to but we haven't seen that girls face clearly and by what you tell about her features we can't find her, but still we bought a artist for you but he was shaking by the way you tell about her features, you can't rap like a furious horse. You was looking possessed dude Tell me what should I do that he ran away after it huh you look more crazy than you already was. It's scaring me when you just sat and stare at nothing and say - hyung did you found her?, Where she lives .....fuck you bitch what i am?.. astrologer"
I chuckle as his rapping sound aco in my mind, it's not my fault that, that artist can't understand what i said. Those bitches come in way on the hallway turn while i was thinking about my little devil but they interrupt me. And what can I do that my mind is out of control and can't seem to focus on.
( Potato- ...yeah we ...wanna....we want to .... focus on.....yeha we wanna focus on....😂😂)
I am so frustrated that i can't even sleep at night, Taehyung yell out of his lungs after he saw me settling on the couch at night, in the living room...he precisely throw that water bottle at me.
And because of j-hope they think a ghost possessed me because he thinks it's impossible to see me awake at night. He forced me to go to church It's not my fault when a little devil is messing up with my heart and mind.
She will get retribution for this tho........by me
Jungkook gave me all his banana milk saying - hyung...*tearing up* i know i am just your business partner but you are my Hyung i can't see you like this....I mixed poison in the half of bottles on the left and sleeping pills in the right one..... please choose wisely
Jin almost got a heart attack by that and throw jungkook out of my office.
Snorting in frustration, I rub my hands over my face while thinking about all these things which happened in these two weeks.
Now thinking about them again, I guess it's all my fault, yeah after all it's me who is acting weird. I am not allowed to do this.
I am a business, famous one. I had put a tight hold on my emotions and that's what I am doing for years but she
She broke it like glass and make me feel so weak.
I know I have just met her twice but it feels like I capture everything but it still feels so less for me like I wanna have more
it feels like I am drinking the most hated drink of mine but when it flows down my throat I want more of it and more without caring anything
( I don't know but after writing those two upper sentences, they become my fav )
The chain of my thoughts halted when someone knocked on the door, grabbing a thick breath I stood and said come in, adjusting my suit.
Jin hyung walk in with an alarmed face scrambling over my side he clasps me by both arms and I narrow my eyes.
" Fucking shit bitch, your parents are here, they get to know it from the holding that you are not focused on your work and I think there is a betrayer in the mansion because they know about the girl too... Someone hear our conversation" he pronounced the end with a low breath, striving to calm himself.
I saw this arriving even I was thinking why they are not here yet, they would not let me live peacefully.
"Then I guess we will have a dead body after they leave because they are just here for four sentences so please bring a good air freshener, I hate the smell of blood when I am eating."
With the final words, I walk outside, consecutive going downstairs, to the living room.
Reaching the end of the staircase I saw my so-called parents, they had a cold masks on their faces just like they have taught me to put on.
I loath them
" Yoongi! I hear that you are not focused on your work..."
Putting my hands in my pockets, I hold my chin up
I am not fucking scared of them anymore.
" And from where did you hear that ...mom " her jaw clenched as I finish my words.
" If that slut is making you stand against your parents then you should stop before it destroys you" I smirk and clench my fist at her words.
I know very well what she means, guess what, they get to know too much.
" Mom...I thought it doesn't matter to you if your son is even alive or not until you are getting your money from my business" she was about to rush to me but ohh that's my dad, he stop her and she scowled at me before walking away. Yanking her purse from the couch.
Now two sentences left.
My dad gapes at her until ascertains that it's just us.
Gazing in my way, he strides near holding his pride up so high.
" Yoongi. You know very well what are the rules that you have learnt from the start " I swivelled my eyes at his words before looking away.
" It's my choice"
" Your choice doesn't matter, I am your father and I want you to get a hold of your emotions, women want money, I would be happy if it's just an attraction and get news of you throwing her out after using her, that's what we have to do. Rule no. 24 - use and throw"
My eyes shut and I try not to shudder over his messages which recalls me of something terrifying.
My jaw clenched but my fist lose its strength and I hear him walking away, tapping his shoes.
As I said four sentences.
Someone clears his throat and I turn my head, opening my eyes. Jin hyung wanders silently up to me with a faded smile which I know he is giving me that look because of pity.
" Don't think that I feel pity for you but in reality, it hurts me seeing you hurt, I know I overreact from time to time but I just want you safe always even if it takes my life" he states those words while crashing me into his arms.
Pulling away, he pants my arm and said " don't worry, don't worry about what they said. They don't even deserve you. You can do whatever you want, I am with you, we are with you, you know right" I took a deep breath and nod my head, clasping his hand which was resting on my arm.
" Before you came, they gave me a list of those people who have stolen, took a loan from him and your father--- he said that you have to handle it, we will start it after yesterday"
My eyes shut in frustration and I rub my forehead, I hate doing his dirty work.
URGHHH!!!