Only few months ago, I was looking for a way to make Grey and I have a conversation so we could find a way to split ways and move on with our lives, now, I don't want to ever leave.
Grey... this Grey... this new Grey was driving me insane..
I liked his character, his attitude, his honestest and enthusiasm.
Everything felt different around him, everything felt new.
I wanted to ask him sometimes if I was the only one feeling butterflies in my belly when we were together..I wanted to ask him if he was getting this weird feelings too.. wanted to ask him if its just me or is it that I'm getting attracted to him more than usual.
I was scared...I wanted to know what was going on in his head... wanted to understand him better.
He said that we should get to know each other better first , we've done that...what's next?
I didn't know if I was just lusting over his physical appearance or there was something else dragging me closer to him.
My mom had called so many times to check up on me, but I always told her I was okay, she said she honestly wanted to visit me sometimes, but my foster father wouldn't let her.
She always reminded me that she loved me very much.
My foster father called me once and asked me if I had gotten pregnant because he was expecting a baby soon.
I ignored him and didn't say anything concerning it.
I had made a promise to myself after I broke up with Jacob to be careful who I fall for but hell I don't think I'll be able to keep to that promise again.
I didn't know what I was feeling for him, didn't know what to characterize my emotions for him .
But it wasn't even what I felt for him that was my problem, it was what he felt for me.
I couldn't read Grey, I couldn't understand him.
Sometimes he gets into one of those his depressing moods , but he assures me that he's okay and will be fine.
Then the next second he's staring at the, lost in thought.
Sometimes,I want to know what's going on in his head, want to know how he's feeling, want to understand him better and get to know if he's also on the same page with me but I can't.
Does he like me? Does he wants to go on with the marriage plan or call it a quit?
Is there someone else in his life he's attracted to...what's she like?
I didn't want a situation that I'll actually open up the tiniest space in my heart for him and he'll tell me he doesn't think we could work out.
These days he'd been avoiding his dad's calls and whenever he picks it up he usually ends the conversation with a heated argument about him resisting to do what his dad wants him to do.
He was fucked up, he had serious issues to fix up and I was selfishly thinking about the infatuation going to in my Head.
Fuck my hormones
"Bella..." Grey called me dragging me out of my thoughts.
He'd been really quiet these days...he just managed to talk to me once in a while so he wouldn't look rude.
I turned to face him.
"So there's this uhh...Gala I think.. happening in New York on Saturday and uhh...I was kinda invited...I have no idea what it's all about..
I think it's celebrity stuff I don't know..." He started scratching his head.
"... wanna come?" He asked.
Well at least it would lighten his mood a little so why not.
"What time is it?" I asked.
"6pm, but I can never come to an occasion in time... makes me feel like an early bird..
So probably we could go by 9pm?" He said.
I giggled.
"You got a problem with coming early?"
"Yeah, the fact that I come late will make me the center of attention in the arena so....yeah" he said.
I laughed.
"So that means we are leaving to New York on Saturday?".
He nodded.
"Alright...I'll see if I can clear my schedules" I said
"Thanks" he replied and was about to walk out when I called him.
"Uhhmm...Grey?" I asked.
"Yeah?" He replied.
"Are you okay?"
He was quiet.
"You know you can talk to me right?" I added.
"I'm just....it's just some... it's just my Dad. ... We're just tryna sort some shits out."
"But you'll be fine right?" I asked already knowing he was gonna say Yes.
He was about to say something when my phone rang.
"PICK THE PHONE BITCH"
I rolled my eyes... Suzie.
"Yeah wassup?" I asked answering the call as Grey walked out of the room, I frowned.
"I'm in front of your house, and they telling me to put some stupid password...fuck what kind of security shit is this... I've already gotten into the gate after your security guards checked me in...I mean what the fuck?" She ranted.
" give me a second." I said and lazily got up from my bed and went downstairs and opened it door.
"Geez... some security bullshit, what are you? Presidents wife?" She groaned.
"What's the problem?".
I said and settled on the couch.
She started blushing.
"Well..." She started.
"I think I like Martins" she announced and I started grinning.
"Ouuuuuuu" I said wiggling my eye brows at her.
"I'm serious, like.. he's soooooooooo OMG... Godddd" she whined.
"Tell him then ". I said in a shrug.
"What?!! Hell no I can't..I mean.. what if he has a girlfriend or something?" She said.
". Then just ask Grey"
"You make that sound so easy... you know we both don't get along so well that much...he doesn't even remember my name" she said.
I laughed because it was actually true, he doesn't even remember anyone's name.
"Then I'll ask him myself" I said I she was about to stop Me but it was too late, I already did.
"Greeeeyyyyy beaaaarrrrr" I yelled.
He came out of the kitchen holding a coffee mug in his hands.
" Don't fucken call me that" he groaned and I chuckled.
" Sit down" I said , he shook his head negatively.
" Make it quick, I've got something to do" he said sipping his coffee
" Okay so Suzie liked Martins" I announced going straight to the point.
He spat the coffee he was drinking out of his mouth.
I laughed, he wasn't expecting that.
" I'm serious, she does, so she wanted to know if he has a girlfriend" I said immediately.
Grey started laughing, he dropped the coffee mug on the table so he could laugh comfortably.
"You're gonna be disappointed, that's for sure" he said in between the laughter.
"Why... he's dating someone?" Suzie asked.
Grey just kept on laughing, he didn't say anything.
"Oh this is gonna be fun to watch, make sure I'm gonna be there when you're telling him that...I wanna laugh" he said and started walking back into the kitchen.
"Grey? C'mon just answer" I whined.
"He doesn't have a girlfriend but you're still gonna be disappointed" he said and entered the kitchen.
I turned to Suzie.
She fell on the couch and hugged ones of the pillows.
"Why me" she whined.
∆∆∆∆∆∆∆∆∆
That morning before we traveled to New York, Grey's father called, they got into another argument again for this time Grey couldn't hold back the rage.
.."I'm not gonna fucken do that, change of plans, fuck the initial plan, I'm not telling nobody nothing, you can't do anything about it... I've fucken told you...I'm not gonna do it.. and don't even think about doing it yourself..."
I heard him screaming from the living room.
I didn't want him in this kinda mood, at least not today.
I continued doing my makeup and about 20 minutes after, he walked in.
"Are you ready?" He said trying to hide the rage in his voice, but was too obvious .
"I'll be down in 5 minutes" I said and got up to finish up
He nodded and closed the door.
I picked up the dress I was gonna wear for the gala and put it in the suit case.
Then I walked down stairs with it.
Then one of the body guards walked up to me and got it from me.
I entered the car and Grey was already in it, typing aggressively on the phone.
The ride to the airport was very quiet and I wished there was something I could do about it, but I chose to allow him have his space.
When we reached the airport, the sign 'SAN AIRLINE' Shone brightly.
San from Sanez?
Before I got married to Grey, I had been using this airline pretty often, they were very hospitable and i usually recommended them to people.
But ever since we got married, I never entered the airport again.
I just felt like it was going to be very awkward walking straight into the airport and going straight up to the private plane without being checked or going through lines and all that.
But today, soon as Grey and I stepped out of the car, all the attention turned to us.
"Good morning Mr Hampton.."
"Nice to see you again Mr Hampton..."
"Hello ma'am"..
"Have a great day ma'am" ...
They all sang with their smiley faces.
I don't know if it was just me that noticed that people who worked in airports, especially the air hostess use to have a fake smile plastered on their face.
We walked pass all the security posts and people without even being questioned.
This kinda power, I liked it.
Body guards surrounded us as we walked, too many to count .
Immediately we reached our private plane, everyone around there prostrated in respect.
I saw Martins standing close to the plane.
He noticed the frown on Grey's face.
" He called again?" Martins asked.
" Yesssss... dude I'm just fucken tired...I'm tired men...now he's threatening me that he'll do it himself if I don't" he sounded like he wanted to cry
"Maybe you should, it'll reduce the guilt a little" Martins said concerned
"Fuck no that'll be the end of me" he said.
" We'll find a way out of this... hopefully" Martins assured.
Then he turned to me and smiled.
"Hey Bella" he greeted.
"Hey" I responded.
Grey started entering the airplane .
"Ready for New York?" He asked
"Been there a lot nothing new" I shrugged.
"Not with Grey" he said wiggling his eye brows at me and grinning.
"I don't know... this his dad stuff just ruined his mood today. " I said a bit sad.
"Try and cheer him up, it won't last long" he said.
I nodded.
"Go have fun" he said as I started walking into the plane.
Then I turned back.
" Oh you too, have fun with Suzie" I teased.
He arched one of his brow and blushed a little.
"What?" He asked blushing, turning pink.
"Nothing" I yelled and got into the plane smiling.
As soon as I entered, the door began to close behind me.
I went into the plane.
Okay this was fancy, I mean I had hired their flights a lot, but none of them ever looked this professional.
It had a mini chocolate fountain surrounded with chocolate ice cream and chocolate chips with chocolate cupcakes , I bowl of brownies, strawberries and grapes ,all types of dessert meal you could ever imagine, a bed by the side, a mini wine both, a television probably installed with movies, some fancy chairs and a small chanderlier .
" Greyyy" I groaned
He looked up from his phone and stared at me.
I wanted to cry," how could you do this to me" I cried.
He looked up at me very confused.
"I mean it's not fair" I continued to whine.
"What?" He questioned.
"How could you put all this chocolate stuffs inside the same plane with me knowing fully well I'm obsessed with it but I'm not allowed to eat it" I whined.
A small smile creeped down his face.
" I'm sorry" he said smiling,
"But it's not a problem, I'm sure you have self control, after all , it's just chocolate" he cooed.
I frowned and sat on the chair as the air hostess came in and announced that we should buckle our seat belts that we would soon take off .
I tried very hard not to look at the food, but it just couldn't help but stare and began to salivate.
Few minutes after we took off, Grey got up and went to the bed and sat on it, then reluctantly lied down.
I kept my stare on the food holding onto the seat belt to stop me from running into the chocolate fountain like a three year old and dancing in it.
Then I turned my gaze to Grey and noticed he was staring at me.
He quickly looked away and rolled over to the other side so I won't see his face.
He was embarrassed that I caught him staring at me awwwnnn
It's cute when he does that.
I giggled a little.
Grey stood up and walked to the food table.
"Well at least I'm not on a diet , so..." He shrugged and picked up brownies and began eating them, trying to make me jealous.
I looked away.
It's just chocolate Bella, it's just chocolate..get a grip
I unbuckled my seat belt and went to the bed and laid on it.
"Wake me up when we arrive" I said grumpily and I heard him laugh.
I knew I had fallen asleep, but then I felt someone's hands wrapping around my body and mumuring things I could barely hear.
Either that, or it was a figment of my imagination.