It was a new year. A new one and a good one I hopped for.
I hadn't heard from Grey or Martins since then. Suzie had taken my phone from me because she said she wanted me to use this month to recover so I stayed back in England with her and her Aunt.
She told me that my mother called everyday to check up on me but she told them that I was okay and just needed space.
How was I coping with what happened to me few weeks ago? It was terrible.
I thought of Grey every fucking second that past.
I tried to make myself forget about him but it was impossible, it was like trying to remove an Important part of me from me.
Exactly what he meant when he said it was hard to kill love than hate.
I missed him, in as much as he hurt me and made me look so stupid that day I missed him. At this point I wished I had never gotten on that plane here to London.
I knew exactly what he was doing, he was giving me space, but the space was driving me crazy.
His father, I see why he hates the man so much, even my own foster father wouldn't have done that to me, a marriage contract for one year so that he would gain and then in the end I will loose??
He was cruel.
Today was my birthday, and Suzie said I had to leave the house that day whether I wanted it or not.
She told me we would go shopping and then she would take me to a fancy restaurant and then we would eat and have fun and then I'll cut my cake when we get home.
I was in the living room waiting for her when the door bell rang,I stood up to take it, but then Suzie did first, thinking it was the birthday gift she ordered for me.
Instead of me hearing her thank the man and everything, I heard her voice very Stern.
"What are you doing here??"
"I just...I just.."
I froze, my heart stopped beating for a second.
Grey.
"No.. Bella doesn't wants to see you, you've done enough damage"...
But I want to see him...
"Actually, I didn't come here to see her, I just want you to give her this for me.
I'm going back to San Diego today, and...tell her I said happy birthday" he said calmly.
Then , I slowly tilted my head to the door and he looked towards my direction and our eyes met.
All the nerves in my body stopped working for about 10 seconds.
Then he looked away back to Suzie.
"Goodbye" he said and walked away.
Suzie closed the door and looked at me.
I saw a book in her hand, she knew I heard the whole conversation, she handed it over to me.
I took the book and silently opened it, it had his handwriting all over it.
"What's that?" She asked.
I shook my head slowly.
"I..I don't know" I said and sat on the couch.
Then she checked her phone.
"I need to get something, I'll be back in 20 minutes, okay?" She said and picked up her bag and left the house.
I started at the book.
I opened the first page and started reading it.
"Well, maybe I'm just an idiot, or it's that I'm simply just a mess, I honestly don't know.
I was unable to say anything that day maybe because I was scared,
Now I'm ready to explain everything to you, but I want to give you your space to decide, I've not given up on you yet Bella, infact I haven't even started yet.
I'm going to chase you, chase you till I'm tired and probably die.
I'm sorry that I didn't tell you this earlier, I would have avoided all this mess right now.
I'm gonna talk to you about this Bella, I'm gonna clear the air. But I want to give you your liberty first, I'm sorry to say this but I'm going to be that obsessive partner that isn't going to let you go.
Me?? Let you go?? Fuck no not when I've found you.
There is no point trying to hide your feelings too Bella because I know the same way I feel about you is the same way you feel about me too
I'm just sorry you had to meet my dick head of a father.
Yes initially I agreed with the plan, but realizing you were this nice..I couldn't..I couldn't even think about it.
And my father told me that your parents are aware of the plan and are in for it.
Let's not lie to ourselves, we didn't like the idea that we were getting married to each other, we didn't, so you won't blame me for not liking you at first.
Little secret, I fell for you on the first day we met in the hotel already, you already captured my attention, but coming to marry you, it took me by surprise.
Did I feel bad for acting the way I did the other times? Yes Bella, I fucken did, and that's why I had to change, but in the process of changing, I fell in love with you.
Yes, read that a thousand times and doubt me I don't care, this is me telling you the reality, i Grey Hampton is inlove with you Bella.
I don't care if you doubt me or not, I don't even want you to believe me yet.
I'm gonna make you believe me when we meet.
For now, take your time to think about this, and don't fucken lie to me that you don't love me too, because I read emotions more than anything in the world.
And I'm coming back for you when I'm sure you're ready.
This is not Romeo and Juliet love story, this isn't Disney world, this is reality baby.
Happy birthday... sorry I couldn't get you anything.
But I promise I will next year.
Take your time to think, I'm gonna give you all the time you want in the world, after all we have the whole of eternity to spend together.
- Grey.
I think I read it about 4 to 5 times, I held back my self from crying again.
I mean, he just said he loved me. And he was the same person that said love is deeper than it looks.
He said he knew I was in love with him too.
How did he know?? Was I that easy to see through???
Fuckkkkkkk..
I clutched the book tight to myself.
I love you too Grey... you just had to fuck everything up.
Suzie came into the house and noticed me behavior.
"Is everything okay??" She asked staring at me.
I shook my head negatively.
"What is it this time?" She asked.
"I'm in love with Grey" I choked out.
She Walked over to me and took the book from my hand and read it.
She started sobbing, little tear clouds formed in her eyes.
"God, this is so emotional" she said wiping the tears from her eyes.
"Okay, I know I hate Grey and all, but this, this is just so emotional, forget what I said about him earlier.
Keep this motherfucker Bella" she said.
And I nodded.
I didn't have a choice, I just couldn't let go of him.
I'm not will not wear another wedding dress. I just couldn't, I had to make this work. I just had to.
A/N:
I'm sorry it's a short chapter, I had a very long day today and just wanted to update at least one chapter today.
Much love from here as always.
Ceejhay ❤️