Angels fell, and so did my life,
As I stumbled around looking for a way out.
You were the center of my universe,
That happiness was all I ever had,
Left me feeling hopeless too.
Months have gone,
And I now feel pitiful, frustrated, and emotionally numb.
You made me feel so loved,
But now I'm torn apart.
My veins were damaged, and I developed bruises.
I yearned for this suffering to end.
I once assured you that I will improve,
But believe me when I say that things are only getting harder.
You stole the roses from me and left the thorns for me to bleed,
Now all I have is a suicidal dream.
I've never had a fair shot at life.
I have envied you a lot of times.
Therefore, lying at this time would be pointless.
In ways I could never adequately express, I have loved and treasured you.
That moving on was extremely challenging.
But now everything is just a waste of space.
The fact that you're not here hurts so much.
However, I continue to assure you I'm alright.
However, you never really seemed to notice how hurt I am.
From the time I can remember, I have had depression.
If I'm not mistaken, since age six.
No one needs to know everything,
But you abandoned me in a place, I could never replace with happiness.
I hate you so much for leaving me in this state.
You took my place and brought in something better,
Where the darkness had grown to be my addiction.
I claim that I'm not an addict.
Simply a habit.
However, there are situations when becoming hooked to something outweighs the risk of harm.
My thoughts are disorganized,
Perhaps it would be best if I simply vanished forever.
Although I hate to say it, I do miss you.
I do, however, love you, and that will never change.
So, I bid you goodbye.