I take a deep breath as I perch myself on the washroom counter. Attempting to fix my appearance, I grab a paper towel and try to clean the smudged mascara under my eyes. But the paper towel only makes it worse as the course material rub against my skin like a sandpaper.
"Are you okay?" Ava asked. I just shook my head no and asked, " What are you doing here?" [Did she forget we fought and were ignoring each other for the past two weeks?]. "Bitch! You ran here like a mad bitch, without even giving him a proper answer! Everyone was looking at me! What do you expect me to do? Huh?!", Ava burst. Then I came back to my senses, FUUUUUCK!!, I didn't even give him an answer! Shit! That must have thrown him in such an awkward situation!!. "Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! I absolutely don't wanna go out there now!" [Why?! Why the fuck did this happen??!].
Let's rewind! <<<
I woke up in the morning, as usual, depressed. Deciding whether to go to school or not. I look for my phone to check up on my insta and WOW! My friends went to another party that I wasn't invited to. Okay!! Cool!! They don't give a shit about me, since they seem to have made new friends, so neither will I!! I'm happy alone, so fuck them all!. Went to my school website and fuck! only 77% of attendance! I dragged myself out of my cosy bed, wore my trek pants and went for walk with my dog. Came back home, rushed to get ready and went to school, to live my invisible yet known high school life. I know it doesn't make sense but it will when you're known to your whole school but still somehow you appear invisible. Soon, walking by the corridor, I brushed past my ex-cool friends pretending like I don't give a shit. "Sup?", Valentino greeted. I gave them a small smile and a few cool handshake greetings. After, they went their way and I went mine, but I overheard Grace talking about some night plan when Una shushed her. They definitely did that intentionally, I fucking invented that jealousy trick!! I kept my 'I don't give a shit' face all through that.
After hearing many insults and humiliations from my bitchy English teacher, finally, it was break time! I ate my lunch and casually went to Grace's class, after a few 'Sups' and handshakes on my way. They started talking about some plans and pretended like I wasn't there, yet again!, as if I was totally invisible to them! I rolled my eyes, scoffed inside my head and pretended like I wasn't listening. That's when Atlas came inside the class and I got distracted, [Fuck! He is hot af!! like shiiit!!]. Anyways, he just announced about official farewell for our seniors, passed me a smile and stood beside me, [Ahhh! shit!! don't do this to me!!] I looked over his shoulders and Ava was looking at me with the 'kiss him' smile. We broke our eye contact, when Atlas called my name, I looked at him and he asked, "Will you be there?". I kept looking at him, "Huh?" and he smiled [ahh!! his smile!!], "The farewell? Behind the auditorium? Beer or breezer?" he said, "Breezer" I answered. I didn't realize but apparently, we both were staring at each other for a while, then Alex interrupted and commented, "Seriously guys! You both should date!". I glared at him while blushing, "You have lost your mind, Alex!". Then Atlas said the most unexpected thing, out of the blue, making everyone's jaw drop, "Why? Can't we try at least?". Before I could wrap my mind around that, Chloe shouted, "Ask properly nah, you dumbass!". He smiled and looked straight into my eyes and said, "Stella Gilbert would you like to go out with me?". I looked at him, still in a delima and came inside the lady's room to understand what the hell had happened just then. I mean, I like him a lot but I barely know him and I absolutely wasn't ready to accept the fact that the most fuckable, handsome cool boy in the whole school will ask me out, ever. What the fuck! I mean, maybe I am overthinking this whole situation but what if go out there and say yes?! And it turns out to be a prank or a dare because I doubt Atlas, Atlas Alberto, likes me! Almost like a nobody! Not to mention we both are totally different people! His ex's are all super hot, beautiful, cool and rich girls and me, on the other hand, am not even closer to anything like them! Why would a guy like him, who can literally have anyone that he would want to be with, want to go out with me??!!