"maaaaaaaa ma ma ma " I pressed the bell and didn't let it go. My mother came out shouting "What, what is it you are dying or what I am a human, not a robot what do you expect me to fly here or what?". "I'm about to die I need to pee," I said rushing inside the washroom "How many times do I have to say don't hold your pee, is there anything left for you to die you have all the bad, neither you drink water nor you pee on time nor eat healthy if one day you have something serious doctor blame no one except the mother...." and I continued like why can't even pee I peace. I entered my room ohh shit explains why my mother's mood is like this I hadn't cleaned my room before going so before doing anything I had to clean my room so I opened my shoes and came back to my room and before I could start I heard my phone vibrate it was a message from atlas before I could open the, message my mother came inside my room "how could someone me this shameless, this is the reason I don't like buy clothes..." "arre I was about to I promise " I shouted in my defence but it was like she didn't even hear me I could hear her still shouting from the kitchen.
one hour later, finally, my whole room was clean my sister was also back and we had a very beautiful argument on the top and why I touched her cupboard again I'm sure our whole building heard and FYI this all happened I kept her top exactly the way it was while matching it with the picture I took but now I'm convinced that she has done some black magic on the cupboard or me. and after all, when I touched my phone to see Atlas's message my mother called me like why me I don't like to complain coz I know she is tired plus I didn't want a scene in front of my father.
so after 2 hours of a lovely dinner and shouting at each other about the things that have passed years ago and things which I can't state coz I have no idea where it started, I only remember talking about politics and normal fact stuff and suddenly it turning into shit coz we three are shouting and my sister pretending like she doesn't care which burns me more coz we always pretend actually she doesn't even pretend anymore she is an outsider in our family, it's like she doesn't want to be a part of this family coz now she is of her friends only which is irritating everyone but my parents pretend they don't see all this frankly sometimes it makes me feel like I'm the only one who is crazy here.
finally, I'm on my bed alone with my dog sleeping peacefully so I have no work to do I picked up my phone to see Atlas's message but there was no message, how is this possible I saw the noti, did he unsend it? wait does he think im ignoring him? Should I message him? but then I will show that I saw his message but didn't reply but this is more weird anyways I picked up my courage and messaged him
Stella: heyy did you unsend anything I saw a noti but now it's gone. sorry I was busy, family drama you know
okay, we can wait now, reels it is. why isn't he responding? he always responds right away, is he mad? wait why am I thinking so much I went back to watching reels and suddenly a skin care reel popped up Wait like why don't I feel different I had my first kiss should there be happiness bloom or like your skin start to glow after your first kiss not that much but something different it would have been better than nothing and suddenly I went back to the time he grabbed my hips le dammmnnn wait am I simping on my own ....boyfriend broooo this is so weird like I have a boyfriend nothing changed just I feel something I my stomach when I think that he likes men yes use Im type of girl who loves to be loved.
I wonder if he also feels the same stomach thing does he? wait was I bad? like he might be an expert or at least it felt like that but what about me was I bad or like dis..... finally my vibrate.
atlas- calling
atlas: yeah okay got it you were busy
he sounded normal but I don't know why my gut said that he was sad d
Stella: I'm sorry naaaaa
atlas: yeah I got it I'm not mad I promise
Stella: then why do you sound like it?
atlas: like what? *in a different tone*
what the hell this time his voice was a little different a little rough and angry what's wrong I have never him like that
atlas: uhm im sorry everything is fine I promise. you tell me did you like the date *in a normal voice*
wait what am I supposed to answer is he talking about the date or the kiss? technically both were good or should I say awesome but I can't say that can I? That would be awkward af
Atlas: what was it that bad? were you expecting something else?
Stella: no no have you lost it? it was amazing it was more than what I could ever imagine
atlas: in a good way or bad way?
Stella: obviously in a good way idiot
What the fuck is wrong with me why the fuck did I tell the idiot who the fuck says that suddenly I hear a laugh oh he is laughing this is nice, it is a good start.
shit, it's been an hour but it doesn't feel like that, I'm usually the early-to-bed early-to-rise girl and now my biggest fear right now is that I don't fall asleep on a call with him.
half an hour later - shit I'm sleepy how am I supposed to tell him that I have already made him wait so much. but suddenly atlas said something which woke me up wide awake
atlas: so I know it's gonna be weird for you but I just wanted to ask was that your first kiss?
stella: umm yeahh umwhy?
atlas: nothing just curious you know
Stella: was it that obvious?
atlas: so sweety you were perfect and I love to be your first in everything
sweety oh my god why am I blushing so hard
Stella: well you don't know now do you?
atlas: know what?
Stella: that you are going to be my first in everything
there was a sudden silence atlas didn't say anything wait did I offend him or something is he mad?
atlas: you want it to be someone else?
stella: no I didn't mean that
atlas: ohh really then what did you mean *he said in a weird tone*
stella: nothing like it was a joke
atlas: hmm
stella: I'm sorry I didn't mean it like that
atlas: yeah got it you coming tomorrow?
his tone changed to his normal sweet one but I could still feel his anger behind his words.....