'It's easy to give in. It's easy to give up. It's easy to do those things when you feel like you are the problem, when you feel unfixable.'
She woke up from a dream. It was now the morning and that night she had what's called a night terror. She fell back asleep and had a lucid dream. She was sitting in a blank space and she heard a voice. Saying exactly what she felt all the time. Throughout the day she was really tired, as she didn't get much sleep that night. Her mom noticed her tiredness and suggested that she take a nap. While she was napping she had dreamed of a forgotten person.
*dream*
A girl was sitting on the floor smiling and in front of her was a man. His face was clouded but he felt familiar. "Your not a monster" he said. Then she let go of her fake smile and tears started rolling down. She whispered "I don't want to be me, I don't want to be a monster anymore"
"And your not. Your not a monster. Your my sweet angel. Your my little girl. So don't say that, for you are worth it."
She finally looked up and the face that was clouded began to clear. This face was… "daddy?" She whispered hopefully.
"Yes baby girl. It's me. I'm here."
She burst into tears and hugged him tightly, refusing to let go. This man, she remembered. This was her father. Her father hugged her back. But then he started to fade away. "Daddy!" She yelled, no! He was disappearing, she didn't want to lose him again! Then he vanished.
His voice rang out and said "don't worry I'll always be in your heart."
"Thats cheesy daddy." She said through tears.
*end of dream
She woke up crying and quickly wiped her tears. Her father had died in an accident. She was heartbroken when she found out. She was definitely a daddy's girl. He was such a gentle person. She felt at home when she was with him. Sadly he died when she was in 1st grade.
'Enough reminiscing' she thought. She took her blade to her wrist and cut. She couldn't handle the memory of her father. She sat on the bathroom floor with a pained face. 'Well no one would care anyway right?' With that she slashes her leg to make a deep cut. 'It hurts really bad…but this is nothing compared to my emotions.'