'My soul is no longer here. To chose to die a shameful choice they say. To chose to live is an even worse choice. One was going to lose their job. Another was swept with worry… all because of me. I'm no more than a burden. So let me be, I can finally Rest In Peace. Be happy because I am too.'
As the girl wrote this note, she held it in her hands crying. This was it she thought. She going to die. Whether she goes to hell or to heaven she will definitely die today! She picked up a bottle of poison. Once she drank the whole bottle she started to have trouble breathing. Her whole body felt weak and she collapsed on the ground. This was heard by her mom who was in the house at the time.
She rushed over to her daughter and called out her name. She responded by saying "it's no use… I'm going to die. Mom, you were too late." This caused her mom to start forming tears from her eyes. She quickly called in her brother and when he saw her sorry sight he was shocked. "What happened?" He said trying to seem calm. She was really pale and her mouth had redness around it. The she started vomiting.
Her mom quickly got on the phone and called 911. The ambulance came and escorted her to the hospital. They managed to save her but since she had attempted suicide she would have to stay in a psychiatric hospital. Once she was well enough she stayed there for a week and finally went home.
Everything was a mess when she got home. She wanted to self harm because she was feeling overwhelmed. Her mom was watching her like a hawk and as you imagine it's very uncomfortable.
To escape all this she would sleep a lot.
It was nighttime and she had read a book. It was about a boy who was thought of a monster. Someone people held disgust for. When she read the book she got watery eyes. 'This boy is kind of similar to me in a way. People look at me like I'm a monster someone who is inhumane. Haaa I'm sick of it.' She thought this as she looked up into the night sky. She decided to go draw to ease her mind, but the drawings came out looking kinda scary. 'Just like me' she thought sadly.
Nothing was working so she had so resort to telling her mom how she felt. You may wonder why she didn't self harm. It's because she wanted to gain her moms trust back. To do that she needed to do a lot of things like using coping skills and such.
After a month it was as she thought. It worked like a charm.