When I feel down I always read this letter, trying to figure out the real reason why she left me. I have gone through each word searching for maybe emotions, trying to understand how she felt, maybe I will understand why she left me.
letter:
My dear daughter I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me for leaving you. I couldn't stay sthandwa sami, it was either me or you so I chose to Walk away so you could live the life I couldn't give you. I know you have so many questions, I hope I get to live so I can explain everything to you. Ngiyakuthanda Nkanyezi Yami.
Always remember sthandwa sami mommy loves you and she chose you.
Love
Mom.
That all, there is nothing much in this letter. It is strange how this letter does nothing to me, maybe I'm heartless not to believe that there is a real reason why she left. she was supposed to stay no matter what. That is what parents do right?.
Maybe I don't deserve to be loved...