" Hey, introduce yourself. I don't know how I should call you." Aguilar pointed at the girl. She is sitting on the couch. Currently they were in nearby house, trespassing because the group he picks up need to clean themselves and sleep, it is almost night time. While sitting in front of the girl, he spoke toward the girl with a short hair, she is cute but her skin is pale compare to ordinary people, look like she got some decease.
" Estelle . " The short hair girl said. " What a strange name? " Aguilar commented. Estelle was shaking from fear. He stopped looking at her eyes, " Hey, why are you shaking? Are you afraid of me like those two?"
" Yeah. I'm afraid." Pausing from a moment , she stop shaking and looked at him, " You are scary. "
Aguilar was stunned by Estelle straight forward words. She seems scared a moment ago, now she composed herself quickly,where is that courage come from. " Why? Will you tell me the reason."
" You beat Willard and his brother to pulp. I know they treat you harshly but you shouldn't outright kill them for petty reason. You know that they are being affected by this apocalypse."
I nodded. Before I started to speak, she said again, " And, on the way you killed those monster without hesitation. They are transformed from human. Now, you action seems as if their being doesn't not affect you. You are unpredictable, your action were carried out by your emotions. Most importantly you are strong. In my eyes, you are no different than those monster. "
Estelle took a deep breath waiting for my reaction. Indeed, I don't feel nothing about those guys dead. I know that I killed them. There body are damage because of my punch, that is why I leave them. A burden and fools. I adapt fast to this change.
I know that I'm strong. To be honest I'm scare of myself as well so it is not strange to hear from her. The other two doesn't want to associate with me, they don't want to talk to me. They stay away from me. This is why in this living room only Estelle and Aguilar present.
I changed so fast. Why? I took the path of good guy because I hope to find my purpose. And yet what I find was nothing more than psychopath. As soon as I free from that family, I began to lose humanity. I don't think about my friend and other, even myself.
I'm lost. I reached a limit of my goal.
I don't want to face that gaze. That look they give me, even now she still look at me like monster. I hate it. At the same time , I understand it. I am monster in their eyes.
I stood up and went to the upstairs to wake up the other two.
****
Facing people who I save, I should feel nothing, and yet nervous. I smile internally. What is wrong with my mind.
" I want to leave. I don't want to be hero anymore. You guys must be happy that I'm gone." Nothing, just silence. " Before I leave, I must warned you, this world is just a dust in their eyes. "
Estelle asked, " What are you talking about? " I signed and shook my head, " This even I don't know about. But be aware that there must be a race in galaxy that has even greater civilization than ours. By now you should feel or see the particles around us, use them and get stronger. "
" And where are you going, Aguilar. " Estelle asked. " To the forest and clean some monster, that incident change human and animal to monster. Imagine what those beast will change. I meet really strong monster who can use energy. I don't want to risk. They should eliminate earlier."
I took my backpack and prepared to leave. I write about energy and changing substance. I give them a tips and shelter. They should train and be able to defeat monster. In this house, they have food and protection.
Compare to my unable mind, this is the only way that I can choose. Lead the path to them. Before I reached toward door handle, I hear a soft voice. " Why are you leaving suddenly? "
I spoke without looking, " You told me that I am monster. I thought about it and guess what you're right." I turned around . " I want to empty myself so that I can filled. I'm broken so I want to fixed. "
I walked. There is moon in the sky. Stars were shining brightly. Faint stars, big stars those not matter. They are beautiful. This sky is peaceful. I want people around me to feel peace. This is my goal.
" Bye, Estelle . Thanks you for saying your opinion. Next time we meet, you'll see different person."
Estelle was confused, earlier ago he seem like psychopath and now he is good guy. What is happening? But the change in his eyes seem more human to her, not like killer eyes anymore.
" Well,people can change" But this is fast. Really fast. He adapted so fast to this apocalypse and quickly step back to humanity. He changed so fast. She closed the door and locked it.
****
6 months later.
High above the clouds, the sun was hanging, their warm glow sunlight fell toward the tree. The man took deep breaths as he spread his arms toward the sky, the lights gathered in his palms. The surrounding around the man dimmed.
The wind picked up the man's long hair, revealing a cold face behind. The areas around him dimmed while the man grew in power from the light. Soon, the spark began to rise from him.
With his face feeling the cold winds, the spark around him grew thicker until it covered him whole. He released a breath and a bright smile appeared.
Rumble!
With a loud sound the man trigger a slash towards the mountain. With a space rending sound, flashes of light appeared. The mountain in front of him, disappeared.