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Chapter 2 - A Solitude

After that Day, Kagawa's walking in the hallway to his room, the pretty young woman sees him again, but he still didn't notice her, then she looks at him entering his room, the pretty young woman's friends asking

"what are you looking at that way"? Then she said "oh uhm nothing", the young woman's name is Miyu, 20years old she is famous in the campus and there is so many guys falling for her and she has 6k followers on Instagram, three year college of Business Management,

While miyu is eating with her friends, she saw kagawa again, eating his meals alone on the table, he doesn't talk, after a while, some other guy asking her out, saying with desperation

"I like you miyu san, pls go out with me",

then she looks at kagawa but he don't even look at what is happening and he just stands up and walk out,

Miyu smiles to the guy and replied "uhm I'm sorry but I don't want to",

"How could you reject me like that you are so cruel" The guy said in disappointment in his expression.

After an hour while she's in the train,

"why is he like that? He doesn't even pay attention to his surroundings, and he's a quiet demeanor, is he a fvcking robot? or whatever pretending to be human? ahh shit what the hell I'm thinking? maybe I'm out of my mind too", on her thoughts. she was startled "he's here again" she said, kagawa enters the train and sits beside her, but he is just looking on his bag, quiet and calm then picks up his book and read, then miyu was surprised and on her thoughts "it's him omg, what do I do, but well, he even moves carefully and its so calm, i feel warm to be so close to him, what is he exactly? he even smell so good, he even sits next to me but still he doesn't notice me?, does he have a complications on his eyes?",

minutes have passed, he gets out of the train and walk calmly,

"why do I feel like something I don't even know what it is?", she said then bites her finger,

And It's already Dark, kagawa goes out to buy dinner at convenience store, and return to his home, he eat his food obediently and calm, his room is so clean and neat but feels empty and simple,

Then suddenly he's choked while eating his food, and had a hard breathing, he took out his inhaler, to breath again and relieved, he ate fruits, took medication, and after, he gently take off his shirt and get naked to shower his body, while taking the shower, he's gently touching his head to his hair, neck and his chest, his body is not that muscular, his body is thin but not too thin, his shoulders are broad and wide, the collarbones is visible, his veins in his arm and hands is visible too, he look at himself in the mirror,

"I want to feel pleasure on my body but im so afraid to do it, if I do it, will I feel pain through my chest?, I didn't ask the doctor because it's embarrassing to ask", he take a closer look at himself in the mirror "It's really hard to go out, I can't even see colors in my surroundings,

My world is like empty, and I don't want anybody else to know about my situations, but I'm really glad when I was a child, my classmates respects me for being like this, but now, it's a different people, and have a high standards and expectations", he said,

after that. He lay down to his bed and read a book to sleep.

Another day came by, he still doesn't talk in his classroom, he's just being so quiet, but Tanaka still talking to him and asking him again to go out, but he refused saying "I'm sorry maybe next time",

Tanaka replied "Oh man! Be sure that you'll be with us next time!",

Kagawa's searching for a library and he found it, he has a joy in his eyes, and he excitedly finding a book "I didn't even know that this school has a library, i wish i knew right away" he joyfully said,

he spends 2hours at the library reading many books at his desk, then miyu enters the library as well with her friends, they sat down just to hang out and talk, but miyu is staring at kagawa while he's reading a book, she leaned her face in her hand "he likes to read a book? I guess he will be here all the time, oh well in the train he's reading a book too" she said,

Taki ask "what are you looking at again?", and also Karui ask"do you have a crush on that guy?, he's only a freshman though i bet he's around 18 or 19", Miyu replied "I know, but I don't have a crush on him, I'm just being confused",

after a while,

Kagawa returns the books to the bookshelf

And he walks out of the library, miyu said, "uhm I'm sorry but I'll be going now, i have an important things to do", she leaves the library too, and her friends talking about her "does she have a crush on that guy?, he's a weirdo, yeah that's true, but she's a weirdo too".

While walking to the terminal, miyu tries to get kagawa's attention by walking ahead of him, miyu looks at him then kagawa glance a single look on her, but still kagawa looks away and just keeps walking entering the train, miyu stopped walking and she let kagawa ahead of her and sits alternately,

"did he notice me?, he just looked away, and sat down and now he's closing his eyes?, what is he? He still didn't notice me? All the time", she said,

after a while, kagawa exits the train again and walk calmly while the rain is pouring,

miyu being worried because kagawa didn't even care about the rain, that he walks normally even the rain is pouring all over his body and doesn't even have an umbrella,

"Why am I so worried?, what if he catch a cold?", she said,

kagawa gets home so wet, he took a shower,

naked, and dried his clothes and bag,

then kagawa lay down to his bed and read a book,

while miyu's laying on her bed and holding her phone, then she drops her phone and touching her hair and puts her finger to her mouth, and touches her b**bs, the voice of her moans is so cute.

And the Moon in her window is so beautifully bright with a crescent shape.