Hope…
Funny how a four letter word can make or break a person.
It can come to you in a matter of a few seconds and destroyed in the other.
It can come to you in any way, shape or form. It can be a dream, a dream of a better tomorrow. It can be in the presence of a loved one, reminding you that you are not alone no matter the circumstances.
Or it can be a person, a person who understand you way better than you understand yourself. With whom you don't need to pretend to be okay, you can just be yourself.
It's different for everyone.
But the fear of losing that hope is the same for everyone. Nobody wants to be hopeless, for the fear of losing themselves in the process is just unbearable.
So why am I standing here, where in a matter of a few minutes my hope will be shattered?
Why can't I get what my heart desperately wants? Why can't she be the one? Why?
So many why's but I don't have the answer to any of them.
'Are you sure?' A voice that I have become familiar with asked me in my mind.
Well to tell you the truth I do but I just can't accept it. As accepting it will make it harder than it already is.
So what do I do?
Please someone help me! Please! Please tell me what to do!
'You know the answers to your own questions Adarsh. You know what to do. Make your choice.' The voice in my head said again.
But it's not that easy. It's not easy to make that choice for me.
"Adarsh, come on son. It's time."
I didn't look at anyone, not even towards the woman who is standing in front of me with a hope of her own in her eyes. I just closed my eyes and at last surrendered to my fate.
Only if I hadn't met her that night.
Only if she didn't smiled at me as if I am the whole world to her.
Only if she hadn't said those words to me.
Only if…
But all those things happened and I can't deny it.
You all must be wondering who she is?
So let me tell you a story…the story of her…
Her who became my saviour…
Her who became my first light after a long dark night…
Her who became MY DAWN.