'It was his love that eroticism my desires for him, not his body.'
I feel like the happy moments are put on the pose by the looks in Kai's eyes, making me wonder.
What happened now?
"What do you want to talk to me about?" He looks hesitant for a moment but the worst part here is that I can not even bring my mind to wrap about what this could be about.
I feel like this is so out of place but then I remember about Tiffany and when he does not voice it, I realize it might be her so I say it first.
"Is this about Tiffany?" I ask but he frowns looking confused and for a moment I am confused.
"What about Tiffany?"
I frown at my lips, what is going on?
"You do not know about her? Kai, why would you hire your stepsister to be my tutor?" He looks confused and his expression is not helping the situation here.
"I did not Samantha, I told Theodore to….." he stops mid-sentence and then turns to look away clenching his jaw. I am getting so confused here by everything going on.
"What happened Kai? Talk to me?" I slowly say in a calm simple voice but I feel like nothing good is coming out of this.
He looks at me but before he opens his mouth again, the servant comes with the dishes he told us to try that are famous around this place.
He serves us. "Enjoy sir and madam."
"Thank you." I smile at him and he walks away, I look at Kai because I do not want to eat before I learn what happened.
I try to open my mouth to say something but he beats me to it. "I did not hire Tiffany, I do not know why Theodore would hire her for you but I will change that don't worry." I shake my head.
"It's not because I worry Kai, I just wanted to know why you did it but I have to say I did not like it at all."
"I apologize darling." I shake my head.
"No don't apologize because there is nothing wrong you've done."
"No, I have to take care of you but if small matters like this are starting to happen without me realizing then it means I am starting to fail you Samantha and that is…" he stops and looks at me, his eyes look so tormented. He clenches his jaw. "That is the last thing I want to bring into your life. I want to love you, honor you, cherish you, make you happy, be there for you, and protect you from all the opposite things that are either coming from me or not, I want to protect you from any harmful out there coming your way." I have tears in my eyes when he says that because Kai has never been the type to express his love to me in words, but I have always known and felt that he loved me so much. I just did not guess it would be this much if it were to be put into words.
"I love you abundantly but there is one thing I want to get off of my chest. I know it was so careless of me again, I let you down for the second time and…"
"Kai." I interrupt. "Tell me what it is?" I ask him slowly, I am not even afraid of it any more of what he has to say to me. I raise my hands and wipe the tears away from my eyes.
He again gets the same look he had in his eyes of hesitance but I offer him a small smile, trying to tell him that it's fine. Whatever is that it is fine. All matters is that he is not ending things with me but I doubt that after words he just said to me.
"I…" he starts and I nod my head.
"I didn't tell you this, I don't even know why I did not. Am not going to sit here and make excuses that are not there I guess it was for my selfish reasons that's what I could only come up with as an excuse." I am attentively following what he is trying to say while he says it with shame in his eyes and suddenly he bows his head down.
"I had a choice of still working in the politics but not in the politics of America but of Canada, but I didn't take that because I felt like to me it was time to come here and do what I majored in and that is business." I am not following where this is heading but I still nod my head.
"Earlier in the morning I heard you talk with Theodore telling him how guilty it was for you to see me give up what I wanted and come here to do what did not like because of you but it's not. It never was you and never will it be you."
"Kai," I say now catching up.
"I never wanted my mother's business well not because of anything but because it was hers and we've never had a good relationship in my childhood days but I realized when what happened in Rwanda happened, I should not let what she said, did to me hold me back. I was going to come and prove her wrong and show her that she was wrong not trusting me when I needed her the most but…" he says looking dreadful but I smile at him.
I stand up get on my feet walk to where he is sitting sit on his lap sideways and put my arms around his shoulders. "I can not do that if you do not want to live here."
I smile raising my hand to the back of his head and leaning in to kiss him. I open my mouth for him and he uses his tongue to kiss me.
I feel his hands on my waist gripping me hardly there.
He sucks on my tongue and it's when I moan out that I remember we are in the restaurant, probably even some audience.
I pull back. "Let's get out of here," I say pecking his lips before I get off his lap take his hand in mine and lead him out.
We did not even touch the food they served us but still Kai ended up paying.
I shove the car keys in his pocket and get on my tip toes to whisper in his ear. "You are driving." Before I pull away, I take his ear in my mouth and suck it and bite it before I let go of him.
He opens the passenger door for me to get in first before getting in the driving seat.
He starts the car and drives away but I don't think my feelings that are exaggerating all over my body now will allow us to get home safely.
I unbuckle my seat belt lean on Kai's side and start laying wet kisses on his neck.
I am so horny at the moment, this is a first for me. And the surprising thing is that I am not a bit embarrassed at all. I suck on his skin so hard as I bite hard knowing it's going to leave a mark there but am too occupied to care.
"Samantha." He says out of breath and knowing it's because of what I am doing, I suck harder with my teeth.
"Darling." He calls and I pull away to look at him. He turns to glance at me before he focuses back on the road, I wait for him to say something but he does not say anything, and when he turns to look at me. We lean in without saying anything to one another, it's a quick dirty kiss that only makes a girl's desire escalate all over the little space in the car.
He pulls back and focuses back on the road, I pull myself up and hug him one-sidedly as he drives feeling so in need of something I am not realizing yet, craving a set free, a release. I feel so burdened.
I feel relieved when we finally make it home, Kai drives in and parks in the garage before we both get out together. I close the car door and look at him as he does the same.
There is a beautiful teasing tension in between but I want a relief from it.
We stare at one another for so long just standing there on each side of the car.
I round the car and walk over to where he is standing not breaking eye contact with him. I reach for his hand and pull him into the house, we get in and the house is in the dark like there is nobody there but we also don't bother lightening it up. I just find myself taking him to our room without saying anything, we walk in together and it all happens so unexpectedly and so quickly.
He pulls me back to his chest and before I learn or get used to what is happening, am pushed on the wall beside the door. I gasped feeling surprised.
Kai stares into my eyes and I stare into his blue eyes, but I don't find the familiar ocean-like gaze instead I am met with a dark gaze burning with desires. I do not know if I am imagining it but my thoughts are answered when he leans in and kisses me.
It's a wet kiss but a slow one, my lips move along him at a slow pace like we have all the time in the world but I guess we do.
I feel the moment his hands sneak in my hoodie top, they feel so warm on my cold skin.
Kai grips my waist as he keeps on kissing me slowly and teasing me with his tongue in my mouth.
He pulls back from kissing my lips and suddenly attacks my neck just below my earlobe not so long he can find my weak spot and he feels it too making him suck on the spot so hard easily getting me out of my breath.
"Kai." I barely manage to say in the bliss of the moment. He pulls back looking at me, I stare at his swollen beautiful lips but it's cut short before he lifts me in his arms moves me to the bed lays me on it, and hovers on top of me.
I spread my legs apart making room for him in between my legs.
He grips my thighs as he bends in between them. He leans in and kisses me this time roughly but not so roughly at the same time.
Suddenly his hand is all over my skin, one time it is gripping my waist, and then the next I feel him moving it till it's on my breast.
His lips are sucking mercilessly hard on my skin. But I feel my senses stop working when I feel him cup my hardened pained breast.
He raises my hoodie and I feel him cup one of them in his hand while he takes the other in his mouth and starts playing with my nipples teasingly stimulating my desires for him way more. "Baby." I cry out in desire. "Please." He pulls back to look at me and this time I realize he is raising the top off of my head.
I went bra-less so he easily leaned in and kissed my cleavage then moved back in between my breasts before he took them again in his mouth.
"Kai." I moan trying to close my legs together tightly because my sex is starting to hurt from not getting attention but Kai doesn't let me instead he also spreads his making mine part even more.
"Kai." I moan again but I stop when goosebumps rise on my skin at him suddenly moving down on me. He starts by kissing my belly button sucking and teasing me there.
I raise my head to look up at him when he stops only to realize he is moving down my pants along with my panties slowly while
Am feeling so eager, I eagerly reach up and get them out of it because I realize lust and desire may kill you if you play with them and leave them like that.
He looks down at my sex and I carefully stare at his reaction, he looks at it and clenches his jaw. It makes me remember that I haven't shaved in almost a month now, I gulp suddenly feeling so embarrassed to care about anything. I move my hands to cover my sex quickly turning to glance away feeling so mortified.
I can hear him chuckle at me but I don't dare move because it's like my body got frozen.
Kai leans down on me and this time he brings his lower body close to mine and I feel his manhood bulging on my hand so strong and firm.
I gasp turning to look at him. "Yes darling, that is how you are making me feel." I just stare feeling shocked. He chuckles leaning down to kiss me again which becomes a cleaner kiss because it erases everything away from my mind and keeps him and the kiss only on my mind.
I move my hands from where they were and bring them up to hold his cheeks to deepen the kiss, he moves to my weak spot and sucks on there however I feel like I am electrified when I feel his hands on my sex.
"Oh my." I arch my back just from the feeling of pure ecstasy of his hands on me. He hasn't done anything yet but I feel like I can't take it.
He moves his thumb on my slit as he plays my clit with his fingers.
"Kai." I moan in pleasure because he is driving me crazy with his actions, one minute he is touching me the other he is sucking mercilessly on my skin surely leaving marks behind.
It's just, my virgin brain and body can't handle it at the same time.
He moves his fingers in my sex crazily before I feel him breathe in my ear as he whispers.
"Am going to eat you up, darling." And then he moves down on me
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